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I MOVED MY BLOG! again..... so sorry..

2008-02-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

HI EVERYONE!! sorry but i moved my blog again. please relink me @ nickpratafreak.wordpress.com

reason is the same as why i moved the last time... so sorry for all the trouble...

CNY cum Vday cum EXAM

2008-02-15T19:37:00.002+08:00

gosh. my last post is 5th feb. now is?? 15TH FED! havent got the time plus feel to blog for the past few days. so many thing happened. so many things to blog. so many things to express. but yet so many things to explaine. therefore, aiyo don blog about it. haha guess ur noe why i so long never blog le rite

OKAY

cny... alamak. income not that good. HAHA. then majiong for quite alot of times. plus my highest record is 22hours majioning. MUA HA HA HA.

then yesterday i went to cheeka house again to play majiong. got me, dragon, mcmillan, cheeka(ofcourse). i won 13dollars!!!(quite alot for 10cents;20cents) lol. so 4 guys, playmajiong on Vday. LOL

exam. nth more to say. study lo.. can u believe? im realli studying!! grr... 3 paper. haiz. mon, wed, fri. thenim free and wait for RESULT. realli studying veri hard now..

dreams

2008-02-05T13:15:00.000+08:00

wee~~~ i need to redo my GD project.. when tml is the deadline. FUCK MAN! tml CNY eve still need come bk sch. GRRRRR. now waiting for XY to draw finish then i choing bk home scan in to my com then AI the drawing..

yesterday was damn tiering for me.. u can noe from how much i sleep. woke up at 630, slept on bus 147. woke up, change to bus 31, sleep again. then go work. after working, sleep on dad's car from work place to home. bath, then sleep from home to school. at school, slept for 5min before going for dance. after dance, slept on dad's car from sch to dinner. after dinner, slepe on car again while mum and sis went shopping for 30min. then sleep on the 10min ride home again. went home, sleep from 1+ to this morning 11+. cos fell asleep accidentally, so forgot to put alarm clock. damn..

im not supposed to sleep last nite, supposed to do my GD project. lucky i slept, cos wadever i did yesterday nite will be usless. i think its asking me to sleep, so i caan chiong my GD tonite..

but i wished i didnt sleep last nite, cos of all the dreams i had... it was one of the few time when i can realli remember wad i dreamt, but i wish i had not remember.... it was wierd but i had 3 dreams!! guess i slept too long. grr... all are nightmares!!!

fuck my life

2008-02-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

cny is coming. but i don have the cny feel at all. my no-life life is realli catching me up. fuck.

i wash my hands off.

PHOTOSHOOT SESSION!!!

2008-01-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

omg... the photoshotting session was so damn nice la... i start to like nyp abit more. LOL abit onli..

here are some photos that was taken during the session. the best group photo goes to...

TA DANG!!!

NICE RITE!! this one edited the level and the colour abit.
another nice group photo showing different style. me in a front split and the rest doing jumps. starting from left, amin doing hip-hop, jingwei doing street, zee doing contemp.

this was a nice shot man... but the white board is irritating..
so i crop it out and did some level and colour again.
again, 4 different style =D

haha. this one is before editing
btw, this was zelia's favorite photo. go ask her why. LOL
tonr le ve~~

grr~~ the picture snap before i can reach my highest ( it sounds wrong if i say climax).
battle?
showing what we got? = fats
i quite like this photo too. HAHA
GROUP PHOTO! starting from the left is me, germaine, huifang, jingwei, zelia, amin.

TATS ALL! NICE RITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gained weight.

2008-01-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!! lets take a look at my weight graph.

before joining StageArts.

88kg

after lunchtime performance

78kg

after a few more weeks

76kg

but now

back to 80kg...

whats worst?!?

ONE MONTH BREAK FROM DANCE!!! AND CHINESE NEW YEAR IS AROUND THE CORNER!! OMG!! which means i need to be more decplined.. no more skipping of my daily crunches (which i've been skipping like shit this month.. main reason why im fat again.). and stop eating dinner 2 time in one night.. supper.. snacks.. sweets.. PRATA (sob, sob..)..

anyway, im still eating wages now. sinful!!

and i might be going eat prata later..

CUT DOWN WEIGHT LA NICK!! CLUB CRAW!!

2008-01-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

today i spent quite alot of money. lol. shopping that is. it was fun shopping with amin. but quite paisay some time. cos the way he shop. LOL. shall not post bad things about him here.. anyway

THANX AMIN FOR THE BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!! LOVE IT!!

anyway.. i came across this person blog. with alot of intresting stories. shall share a few with your

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story of a blind boy

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet, he held up a sign which says:"I’m blind, please help. "There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by... he took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat.then he pick up the sign and turned it around, wrote some words and put it back at the boy's hand, letting passer-bys see the new set of words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. Alot more people were giving money to the blind boy.A few days later, the man who changed the sign came to see how things go.

The boy recognised that man's footsteps and asked:

“Were you the one who changed my sign that day? Thanks, but what exactly did you write on it?”

The man replied:

“I only wrote the truth. I wrote exactly what you wrote, but in a different way.”

What he had written was:

“Today is a beautiful day, but a pity that I cannot see it."

treasure what you have, don't take things for granted. you don't have to be born with a pair of healthy eyes, so be happy that you're born having the vision to see and read.always try to help those people who need it, because, not everyone is as fortunate as us. never look down on other people! (:

so long never post.

2008-01-25T10:50:00.000+08:00

wee....... so long since i last updated. shall start with wed.

WOOHOO! went for prata date with rene and amin. but it was quite sad cos amin stick to his fish diet, so onli me and rene eat prata. i ordered 1 milky, 1 cheese and 1 BOMB prata. rene ordered 1 mushroom, 1 BOMB. haha. at first we thought of getting amin a fish mutabuk. but sad la, don have.

its quite suprising on how rene and amin can forget things in a min. they can talk about it for a min, then forget for 3min, then continue again. PROS i will say. lol. and still got rene's almighty power of changing subject

eat prata --> sinful --> gain weight --> fat --> weight --> weighing machine --> weighing machine in SAO --> sensitive weighing machine in SAO --> can weight how much she shit (cos before she shit she go weight, after she shit she go weight. she lighten by 30gram..) --> to saying shit --> link to BOMB prata (cos bomb bomb bomb) --> brown liquid substance (our curry).

well, it proves that what goes around comes around. start with prata end with curry, not bad huh??

rene insist in treating me prata.. so i insist in treating her fruit juice. she find wad i drank wierd.. wierd but nice.. kuukuu rite? its the nice honey pineapple with watermelon lo...

after eating we talk alot of crap and jokes and we laughed like shit. the most funny part is when i said a super lame joke. then there is complete slience.... then suddenly a bird fly pass us. like those type of cartoon like this. SUPER FUNNY LA! WE LAUGHED LIKE SHIT MAN!!!

after eating me and amin went blk E to practice dance again (for 5min lol) then rene went back to her office.

okay~~ yesterday~~~ OMG~~~ finally its over...

i was the dance captain understudies for yesterday session with linghui.. SORRY LINGHUI.. my bad... seriously i didnt notice till daph tell me that i was holding on the remote 100%...alamak.. and anyway..

aiya
post till here la. shoulder veri pain liao. pulled my nerve yesterday... sob....

last thing. I GOT A FREAKING NICE ADIDAS TRACK PANTS!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOT!

my blog moved!!!

2008-01-22T12:20:00.000+08:00

haha. hi people. i moved my blog. i tried to privatised my blog but find it veri troublesome for your, and useless for me. cos people whom i don wan them to read my blog, still can read my blog. so, ask me for my url through sms or msn k? sorry to trouble your.

emotional day

2008-01-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

i had a damn emotional day on thurs... i must thank all my team mate. thanx for giving me the support, and thanx for helping me that day.

thurs was a super stressed out day for me. start with a veri boring and dry lesson (DCN) where i don know what the teacher is talking about. and the lesson ended with the teacher telling me 'i don think you will make it through the pratical test'.

that was my first strike

then, i totally flunk my GD pratical test. i realli got a mind block and i donno what to desgin for the poster. end up my poster look like shit. and GD is Graphic Desgin.. it was supposed to be my strongest module...

that was my second strike

then i went for IAD. wasnt doing my webpage, cos i cannot show my teacher my webpage yet.. then for the test, dough its MCQ but i still donno how to do... was damn demoralized by my class.. and its also the time i blog my last post.. so...

that was my third strike

went for CCT after 3hours of IAD.. was a huge dissapointment.. as our idea was shoot by the teacher like shit. i felt that i let yana and neera down for coming out with suck ilogical idea.. and i was confident to shoot back any question af first, but my hands was shaking behind my back when i was presenting... and when i shoot back at the teacher, i was also scared to offend him as in the end, our marks depend of him. you wont wan to expect an A if you scold ur teacher 'fuck you la'.. so..

that was my forth strike.

then its time for DEP. it totally crack me down. the teacher gave us 3 week to work on that project (make a circit). so it starts on last week, and till next week la.. last week cos me and yana got open house, so we didnt go for the lesson. which means other teams already 1hour ahead of us. then when we reach there, everyone started doing. when we go get our stuff, there were ALOT of missing stuff. we went to find the teacher asking for help he say 'wait, i finish these stuff then i go get ur replacement'. so all we could do is just sit there and do nothing for 30min. until willson they all finish their project, then we go take their stuff then we start doing (the teacher still doing his stuff). but even when we get the stuff, i tried to do the circuit but i just got no idea. in the end phillip helped us through and i was realli greatful to him.

that was my fifth, and a heavy strike.

so after all those knife that was thrown to me, i went to dance with a bleeding heart. and guess i should not have went(tats what i tot at first. at first..) amin was the understudie for dancecaptain. and he leading was... FAST!!!!!!! cannot breath sia.. not realli warm then split liao. tats why i didnt aim for oversplit that day. then down to jingwei's workshop. it was realli a slap for me cos i realli donno how to pop. and i know its an important work shop cos danceworks cheoro got poping.. but i realli cannot catch. then moved on, zee's cheoro. it was a total slap for me. every one got the steps so fast but onli me, cannot catch it. i almost broke down in the studio but the security guard came to hear the 'okay!', so i didnt.. i got to hold it back.

on the way home i told shaherra how i felt.. cos, im realli scared about my studies and im realli scared to pull the team down. everyone in the team is so good, and so strong in hiphop. onli me... was holding back my tears while talking to shaherra.. until zee saw my teary eye and ask me wads wrong. tat moment on i realli cannot take it any more and i realli cried out when they ask me to let it out. i was realli just letting out tat time and i donno who is beside me.. i didnt even know who passed me the tissue.. i didnt noe wad shaherra told zee.. and i can onli hear 70% of wad zee said.. cos i was realli letting it out tat time..

thanx zee for encouraging me.. and thanx for letting me know i can depend on the team..

thanx shaherra, for listening me and telling me the right things to do.

thanx amin, for being so understanding...

thanx daphne for helping me all along..

thanx to all my teammates, and sorry for tat day. i will promise that i wont pull your down. i will practice to my very best with the time i have left for dance. i will work hard. i promise.

so thats for thurs..

on fri, since i didnt bring my adaptor for my lappie, i couldnt do my project in sch. so i went to meet amin fro dance practice. after the practice we planned the makeup, coustume, timing for the song, idea, concept, story hairstyle and most of the things. haha. i tought of leaving at 1630 or 1700, but i leave at 1800. lol. cos even i reach home i cannot do project since my sis need use...

then today.. drama was fun!! and i got a feeling production will be a blust this year. looking very forward to production.
i will work hard, i will study hard, i will dance hard, i will act hard. i promise

stress

2008-01-17T14:36:00.001+08:00

open house is over. and now is for the next wave.

i have 5 project, 3assigment(just increase by 1), 2comment test, 3exams. and no time. feel so stress now. at home will be stress by my family. in class will be stressed by my friends. so what should i do?!

i know some of your are concerned for me, so please save the scarsum if u are realli caring for me. cos, it realli hurts me alot.

my head is so heavy, i have so many things on my mind.
my eyes are so heavy, i'm holding back my tears so hard.
my legs are so heavy, i realli don wish to walk any more, to any place, to any commitment.
my heart is so heavy, i have so many knife hanging there.

what is the right thing to do? what is the right way to do? i dont know a single thing. my mind telling me that i don care, i don care. but the thinng is, i need to care.. and this time i have a very strong feeling that i will retain this sem. its not that i didnt try to understand. but its just im not fit to be in this course! and the the worst thing is, the modules im most alien to is the core modules. so wad if i get A or B for a module with onli 2 or 3 point.. where the highers i can get for a module with 5point is a D. ya you can say 'change course la! go to a course you like.' will a desgin course accept me? will a desgin course giv me time for my commitment? will my life at home be better or worst if i join a desgin course? i don noe. if i quit school, i won be able to dance, nor act. i will be shooting bird in the jungle for 3years.

im so stressed up. my good friends beside me, who are trying to help me, i feel that i owe them alot. i just kept pissing them off. i can say sorry again and again, but will it help? i don noe.

i keep telling myself.

that building look nice.

but if i have the courage to jump, i should have the courage to go through all these.. so i wont jump. but where do i find the courage? where do i find the answer? where do i find the solutions??

im typing this post in the middle of the class. a 3 hour session which is suppose to be a test. but theacher went to take things. for like 30min. and im at the back.. looking at each friend.. who are worthy to be in this class.. but myself? i don know

THANX YANA!!

2008-01-14T17:03:00.000+08:00

WHA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!! THANX YANA FOR THE SONG!!! WOOT! THREE CHEERS FOR YANA!!

HIPHIP HURRAY!! X3

nipple song.

2008-01-14T08:33:00.001+08:00

open house

2008-01-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

2 week of perparation.

3 days of performance.

put up 4 dance.

performed in 5 slots.

20 dancers.

from 1 club

Danzinc

its finally over. the stressful period. and i realli realli did the best i could for openhouse. its been the best performance for me so far in danzinc. lol. the first time i dance so many item in one performance. i danced 3 out of 4 (tat time NEA i also danced 3 la). this time round i dance,

-throb (jazz cheoro)

-sexy back (street jazz cheoro)

-because of you (ooooo... lol. no la. street jazz)

however, dancing alot of items is not the reason why its been the best performance so far. reason being. i pulled through performing for 3 days straight. i pulled through with the quick change. i pulled through with the stress. i pulled through with the steps. i managed to find the coustume. i managed to find the sneakers (which im going to return in 5mins time to julian. I DON WAN RETURN! i wan own a jazz sneaker...). pulled through the mental stress, physical stress and all the stress. all the airing of clothes. all the punctuality(which i realli suck at). but i do believe that i pulled through the whole of open house.

dancing wise i believe i can do alot more better but i had gave my 100-120% to all my performance. what does it means? chruches and training!! make sure club craw wont screw up the same way. on avreage i slip 2.6times per performance. my leg couldnt be straight when i lift it up for because of you (the most disgusting thing). forgot to button my pants for sexyback, lucky got belt. the first time i attempted a turn to a split, i slip slightly and split wrongly. saw the video. i look like shit.

looking forward to clubcraw :D

ANYWAY!! I WAN SUGGEST!! (since i cannot go for B&J outing..) NEXT DANZINC OUTING WE GO EAT PRATA AND HAVE A GOOOOOOOOOOOD PRATAMANIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will try.

2008-01-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

it really hurts me alot to see you suffering so much. i know what you want me to do to lighten your pain. i know how much you want to see me, but i got my commitments. is not that i don love you. but i do love my passion. but to see you in so much pain, i finally broke down again, the second time this week.

im sorry being such a lousy son. but i love to dance. i love to act. i love to perform. i love art.

im sorry mum

tired

2008-01-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

grr... im so freaking tired. sick of my life. wtf do u mean. 'please save up $100 to contribute to my new com.' why noe u contribute to my new com???!?? fucking screwed my whole day up-down-left-right-upsidedown.

overslept 2days straight. damaged my handphone 2 days straight.. gosh. im just sooo tired to do anything now.later need go far east.. then go dance practice.. hope my body can handle till sat. mon, tues, wed dance thurs, fri, sat perform... sunday got majiong date with dragon they all.. realli feel like pushing it away but, i will get killed. see first la. all the projects, all the things i missed out, all the preasure from my class mate. hope it will slim me down

I NEED PRATA!!! RENE!!!! WHEN ARE U FREE LA!!!

PHOTOMANIA

2008-01-03T11:30:00.001+08:00

since im in school, in GD, nth better to do, its time to spam some photos for my viewer!! (after so long rite!

DULCrene. LOL
rene. LOL X2
DanzInc camp. the 3 guys
THE ONE!!!
me with the flag *we takan card for tieing it up lo.*

the split i have now
*the split i have last time. leg not straight, hip not square*
wee.. so happy.. after so long finally i can use 2 hand now. boo to last time.*this one is last time*

my first outside dance audition. jitterbug. I GOT THROUGH! but didnt continue it.

*juice party at zee's house* the nicS!

nicS with juice

0.0?

i went for vocal training for 45min okay

this was like from youth culture time la. LOL

tats the end.

I WAN EAT PRATA NOW!!! RAWZ!@!@!@!@!@!

im sorry.

2008-01-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

its 1+ in the morning and i still cant sleep. doing project is one thing, but i realli cant sleep. something happened today, and i felt very bad to it.

im sorry, my ego is too big.

im sorry, i crossed my line.

im sorry, im in a bad mood.

im sorry, for not giving in my all.

im sorry, for being too self centered

im sorry, if im not good enough.

its not that i don know that im in the wrong, but just that im too stupid. im stupid enough to make mistake when i know it was wrong. i just cant help it. thats why i hate myself. i don wan you to hate me. i don wan your to hate me. but my stupidity is just getting ahead of me.

~~~

sometime i ask myself the meaning of life? why am i doing things im doing.. why am i so stupid to let myself into a bad situation, that i've been through. why don i learn from my mistake..

my good friend tells me "there are some time where you should just say NO."

i agree to him. but am i doing it? no.

come to think about it. my life is screwed. i can go to school, go for class, and end up when having a conversation with my classmate at a birthday party, he can ask me a question like "how's school?". to me, i find it quite alarming. did i disappeared from class for that long? am i that drifted from them?

im tired. but im holding there. cos i believe thats what i want to do, what i hope to do, what i wished to do and what i NEED to do. but today, thoughts came into my mind. is this what you can achieve? is this what you need to do? is this what u CAN do?

suddenly, i felt like dancing out 'storm'. and i tried. but i failed. at the last part i just stood there. i held back my tears as yana and kaye was beside me.

what hurts the most? issit the tears thats coming down from your eyes, or blood dripping down from the wound of your heart.

im totally shattered, and i dont know what to do. and once again, i hate myself.

NEW YEAR WISH!!!

2007-12-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

oooo i wish i wish... FOR SO MANY THING!! new year is coming and i got so many many wishes tat i can fill up 2 roll of toilet paper! (i noe im greedy)

-good results

-good effort in studies (to fufill my last wish)

-good modules to study (to make my last wish possible)

-good teachers for my modules (to help my last wish)

-better finacial (who dont wish for this, stop breathing)

-better relationship with my family

-better time managment (realli need this)

-do much much better in StageArts!!

-own a jazz sneaker

-dye my hair to flame orange (not so bright one la..)

-to hold my leg at 135degree

-do better in my turns (much better)

-gain more flexibility

-be able to get into character more in drama

-work on my articulation!!!!!

-more good/pleasant looking (hope this will come true)

-GPA at least 2.7 (if possible 3, which is highly unpossible. acctually 2.5 i super happy liao. but aim higher to be saver.)

-don get PHD (neither 'Poly Halfway Dropout' nor 'Permernant Head Damage')

-SLIM DOWN!!!

-world peace?

-and a GOOD 2008!! MUA HA HA!!

long post.

2007-12-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

let me start with the most past past event. StageArts DanzInc Juice PARTY!!! mua ha ha. i took place at zeeeee's house and it was so much fun. im like sell fruits one cos i keep cuting fruits. they say i cut like shit, aa... don like this la.. artistic way of cutting okay... the juice that i make was.. erm.. lets talk about other ppl's juice. haha. lazy to uploas all the photos and find all the photos la. don like to spam photos (since when u see my post like full of photos? other then production post).

moving on.. it was the party at dragon house. to be frank, i enjoied onli till 3am. cos thats the time when dragon got knocked out, and start vomiting everywhere. so from 3 onwards i didnt sleep and took care of him. shortly after dragon's KO, his good friend, also my good friend, bernadette, joined him! she vomited too.. and when i was like trying to get dragon to vomit into the bucket, she like a merlion vomit from behind me, and over my head. lucky didnt hit a single drop on me sia. taking care of 2 drunk people is not easy. especially one is wearing dress (and refuse to change to a shorts when supllied with one) and another guy with onli his boxers on (cos his whole body is covered with his vomit). and whats the best? sleeping on the same bed. not onli to take care of them not to get chocked by their own vomit, also need to take care of them not to do those ERHEM ERHEM stuff..

afterthat, was damn tired with YCS and stuff.. and dance... this week, was damn hiong. dance on wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun(today la). 5days straight. and wats best? i pulled my right inner thigh liao. hope tml will get better. wan to noe why?? i think is cos of my stupidlity for thinking that my body does not need to rest. wed's dance session was at E308, went through our jazz cheoro, and did out jazz basic training.. but before that, i went to work in the morning, immediatelly after tat i went to meet kaye and amin to pracitce our dance for kaye's birthday party, immediatelly went for dance practice. after practice went to dragon's party. next morning went to YCS, then immediatelly went to dance practice. went home, laosai like shit (as posted on last post). fri morning, laosai-ing like laosai. so i skipped YCS. just when i though i got better, i went to chinatown together with Zelia, Amin, Daphne, Jess and we head to this dance studio called Rythem'N'Moves.. but then.. when im out of my house. laosai 3 times. like eat wad shit wad u noe?!?

so, they having free class on fri and sat. then since amin they all going, and i realli realli wan to go see other style of dance and explore this work of art, i went for both days. friday classes were 'vocal training', 'jazz' and 'ballet'. yes yes yes.. i went for a ballet class if u are asking... ya ya ya... i went fo all 3. vocal training I HEARD ZEEE SING!! LOL!! shall stop before she kills me. jazz.. was quite fun. its the same cheoro that jerine taught us. since she was the one who is teaching the class there. lol.. ballet.. WAS HELL! OMG! that guy is crazy! 90-120min of ballet lay!! kao... do PK turns... jete... do a ron on the air some more!!! wha lao.. inner thigh damn pain when i go home lo.... but it was fun la the classes.

so on sat. suppose to meet amin and kaye at yeu tee again at 10am. but i cannot get out of my house cos im laosai-ing at home. so.. was late for treasa's ballet performance by 15min. the performance was nice. see all the little gals dancing.. was so cute.. and the ladies dancing was like. wow... after tat.. went to eat lunch.. then head back to chinatown again for the classes. when i reach there they already finishing break-dancing. so i missed the breakdancing and beat-boxing class. in the end i went for the hip-hop, raggae and salsa.. hip-hop got julian accopany me.. the song they use is BECAUSE OF YOU!! lol.. me and julian (more like me la) is like there.. ooooooo0o0o0o0oooooooo0o0o0o.... shit man... if onli zelia was there. LOL! OOOOOOOO000O0O0O0O0OOOOOOOOOOOOOO0O0O0O0O0O~~~LOL!!!
raggae was fun.. just tat the teacher is realli abit gay... salsa is fun too. haha. the teacher is veri funny. is jason and jerine.

after salsa.. got another impromtu class. like last min the teacher willing to teach. its derrick, the actor tat everytime act as ah long one. at first i see allison is still there, then i also not rushing home. so i stay on... then do his stretching. like hell la.. after the stretching, i turn around and see. allison is gone. so im the onli person whom is not derrick's student (the owner of the studio if im not wrong, not the instrustor teaching). damn wierd. his lesson was damn tough le.. did like alot of across the floor.. like

side battlement kick then run then side split then roll on the floor then center split the roll up.

PK turns. again single-single-single-double

attitude jump (the excersice where i pulled my right iner thigh)

a la seconde chaines (change sides one!!)

chaines to a jump (donno the real term but is like on odd count u chaines, even count u jump)

jumps (alot of jia-pa-lang jump inside la..)

the easiest one i believe*
battlement kicks to the front one.. just kicks. the easiest...

waa~~~ quite long liao la my post.. shall end here(hope my laosai willl also end here. 3days le lay) sorry for not updating for so long. as u can see, im buzy. =D

short post

2007-12-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

no time to post much. just that i fucking spent $17.55 on cab today, like shit la.. and im loasai ing now. donno tml can go out or not. shit la~~ will update soon

i hate myself

2007-12-21T14:03:00.000+08:00

IAD sent me warning letter. saying that i've skipped FIVE lect... the worst thing is, my mum is asking me to quit SA again. she said i promised her that if another warning letter come, i will need to quit both dance and drama immediatally. is like, i didnt skip la! why the hell should i quit?!?

went to eat lucnh with my mum and sis. then they were nagging about me again.

seriously, i don think im asking alot of money from your. i know that our family is not veri rich, so im also trying to work for ur. if im still asking too much money from your, i will ask for less, i will want for less. but i want my passion, so please don take it away from me.. your tell me 'play also play shiok already la'. but im not playing, im serious in what im doing.
tears just cant stop coming out of my eyes. i know my mum is veri tired with all the problems in the family. i want to help as well.. but i realli cant giv up my passion. what should i do? what CAN I do? i hate myself.
i hate myself.

i realli hate myself.

stupid

2007-12-19T20:11:00.000+08:00

seriously, my life is intresting. some time too intresting.

as i was walking on the road, got this car zoom pass the zebra crossing. i was like, WTH, almost hit me.. then suddenly ' H E R O E S ' come into my mind.. as i was walking home from that zebra crossing, i was thinking.. if tat happened to one of the hero.. who can make what she say comes true~~~

zooooom~~~

'HEY! DAMMIT! curse u go bang wall...'

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee````

**BOOM**

'.. OMG! this... this cant be true...'

*car go back to orginal form and get back on track*

i cant stop laughing at myself. how stupid can i get. i almost died and i think about things like this.. erm.. the car is not that close la.. but if i didnt stop to see the car i will be dead la...

when can i not do stupid stuff...
i too away my nick MR RUBBERBAND. i feel that im not up to that name. from today on, i will train hard. and onli when im up to that name, i will put it back again. wait for me people. MR RUBBERBAND will be back =D

2007-12-19T16:10:00.001+08:00

i feel like changing course. like. seriously

L A O S A I I N G A R R ~ ~ ~

2007-12-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

my stomach is sooooo pain.... partly because of crunches, mostly cos of my laosai... damn man, through out the dance practice today my stomach pain like shit la.. like realli shit. reach home first thing i do is?? LAO SAI ARR!!! butt damn pain lo... after tat let toilet vantilate awhile, then go bath, then looking for dinner.. shit, nth. onli got jack n jii potato chip..

I LAO SAI ARR! HOW TO EAT!!

leg jelly, stomach pain, butt killing...

i hate it man... think is the KFC tat i ate. cos tats the onli thing i ate before dance ( other then the lunch i had at home). damn the chicken

fat gay dancer

2007-12-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

as i was youtubing for some dance video, i came pass this video. i noe i dance abit soft, and im fat. this video make me determind to dance more strongly, and cut down my weight. (but this guy he dance not bad wow tell u first)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7wov5Ro9Vo&feature=related

Win - Brian McKnight

2007-12-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

lovely song im listening to right now.

and telling myself to reflect to it..

Dark is the night, I can weather the storm.

Never say die, I've been down this road before.

I'll never quit, I'll never lay down.

See, I've promised myself that I'd never let me down, so,

I'll never give up, never give in.

Never let a ray of doubt slip in.A

nd if I fall, I'll never faint,

I'll just get up and try again.

Never lose hope, never lose faith,

There's much too much at stake,

Upon myself I must depend.

I'm not looking for plays to show,

I'm gonna win.

No stopping now, there's still a ways to go.

Ohh, someway, somehow.

Whatever it takes, I know,

I'll never quit, no, no.I'll never go down.

I'll make sure they remember my name.

A hundred years from now.

I'll never give up, never give in.

Never let a ray of doubt slip in.

And if I fall, I'll never faint,

I'll just get up and try again.

Never lose hope, never lose faith,

There's much too much at stake,

Upon myself I must depend.

I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win.

When it's all said and done,

My once in a lifetime won back again.

Now is the time, to take a stand.

Here is my chance, that's why,

I'll never give up, never give in.

Never let a ray of doubt slip in.

And if I fall, I'll never faint,

I'll just get up and try again.

Never lose hope, never lose faith,

There's much too much at stake,

Upon myself I must depend.I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win.

I'm gonna win.

?

2007-12-17T00:56:00.000+08:00

if u say that you dont realli understand what i posted at my last post, i will have to say, i don blame u. i was typing with my half awake brainand i found out alot of the thing i type is... erm.. how to say? not relli understandable?

add on-

do you know, i used one whole roll of toilet paper for my nose in one nite?(save money la, don waste tissue)!? like scary u noe...

recently, alot of things geting through my head. what is my goal in life. is it reachable. is it true. should i reach for what i want? even if it upset someone. i want someone in my life, to brighten up my life. but im scared, scared from the failure i've been through. it was a long wait that time, but guess it didnt paid off.
is two and half year long?
nick.... are u sure u got over her?

alumni nite

2007-12-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

alumni nite is finally over, so now i can announce to all, and also to myself..

IM SICK!!

i noe i don look like, but i had flu, slight cough, slight fever, headache.. luckily, my body condition onli get veri veri bad at nite. think cos of all the late nites, and lack of water (realli tried to drink alot, but i will say its not enough. have u got the feeling of not having enough time to drink water in sch?)

these pass few days had been, super hetic to me. my first big thankyou will go to,

meixian - thanx for being so understanding to my dance-drama issue. it really lighten alot of my stress.

of course..

YANA! - my drama mate plus class mate.. always there for me.
kaye - u and yana are always there for me when i need help. thanx alot.

your 2 are realli wonderful.

so... i experience from being a hip-hop-er, gay, china sissy, victim for a vampire, high school kids, cool guy, in one performance. and this is the first time i ook my laugage for my camp to put my coustume. like damn lot? my head is like having thunderstorm already la.. so i will finish my post asap.

hosting wise, got alot of cock up. but then, we managed to pull through. especiall the hasli speach part. it was so hetic, we onli like have 1-2 min to think out of ways to clean the shit. sorry for those who were concern about us but i shu away ur, cos it was realli hetic for us. sorry for my rude-ness.

dance.. i would say i did fine, and i realli did enjoied myself while dancing.... senior act.. i hope i didnt pull them down.. se-senior act, i hope i have been helpful and useful for amin and kaye.

and then the handing down part. WOOW! ANJANA AND SHYDIA!!!! yes!!! i was dreaming and hoping for them to be it la!! head and vice head for drama. my dreams and hope did com true.. i hoped farhana to be president ( come on la she year 2 asst for dept already.. ), then rabia and sara to be in SA commite (such wonderful ppl), then anjana and shydia ( don care who head or asst la, just be can already, they will work well =D) and in the end. IT CAME TRUE!!

but at the same time, its sad to say goodbye to hasli they all. i realli thank hasli and fazz alot. they helped me through so much through people production and dramanite.. and shankee taught mehow to be a man!

my knee hurts, alot. i donno why.

i shall go rest. my head kills. my body feels weak....

a normal post

2007-12-12T10:24:00.000+08:00

* i promise this entry will be a normal one *

omg, im like so tired la... didnt sleep the whole nite to study for GD. or should say attempted to study GD. did studied la, but some time is watching the movie 'freedom writers'. damn kaye, curse kaye, for sending me that nice movie.

i wont say that i cried for that movie, but some parts im realli realli touched. as in realli realli touched. realli.. realli...

so. i still managed to register some graphic desgin into my brain anyway so.. * tap on my shoulder * good job nicky

lets think back a little.. tues dance practice. was... a little brain dead for me. im doing alot of stupid thing. i did cart-wheel(issit spelt this way) and fall on my butt donno how many times.. seriously nick, do more crunchers and hold ur weight.

the one who do pencil turn and fall is who? NICK!

the one who do pirouette and fall is who? NICK!

the one who walk and fall is who? NICK! (spraine my pig leg 22hr before performance somemore)

then one who do pas de bourree and fall? NICK!

" " " did cart-wheel and fall? NICK!

HEY EVERYONE! WAN NOE STH STUPID I DID?!?! zee ask us to sing the song while dancing because of ur rite.. after singing for like one whole week, then i realise i have been singing to the wrong lyric. like totally wrong la... like super wrong la... but anyway, i did sing la. just didnt sing correctly. but still. cockanathan i must say

now adays i damn damn damn super ultra broke la... shit man.... anyone wan donate money to me???

lunch

2007-12-11T13:40:00.000+08:00

its just a normal lunch.
duration, 30min.
venue, my house.
date, 11 dec.

the moment my mum step into the house with our lunch, she went to cook something esle for us, and bath at the same time. i donno why. they complained that they havent being seeing me much. and today, i showed them my face. my sis woke up onli after my mum got home and she was like

' WHA! nick is at home.'

'no la, just hardly see his face'
okay... i didnt noe u wanted to see it. seriously. tats wad i wan to shoot back. but cannot. i noe they care about me. but from wad they say? i donno..

then cos im so hungry, i open my rice and eat 2 spoon of rice first.

'mum cooking something wad? ask u not ot eat first already rite?? tell u already still keep eating and eating and eating'.
im fucking hungry la. please, im not like some people tat wake up at 12 or 1. i need breakfast.. and my bread spoil liao lo. don wan waste money eating magi mee also. save it for time like after dance go home, dinner turn smelly cos of gravey, then eat.

i look to my right, i saw my elder sis rice, its 1/3 eaten aready. i look at mine.. nvm, don start a war again.

mum bath finish, come to living room, knock over my drink..

'who put the drink here one??'

'just speaking for justic lo, drink finish drink put back la(havent drink much yet, put where?).'

while eating, tension all over.

after eating,went bk to my room.

they saying that hardly see my face. giv me reasons why i should show them my face. the few reason i can think of is onli

-tats my home, i need to stay there.
-make them happy

what about me? i go there make them happy by letting them scold? they just keep shooting at me. keep shooting. i can shoot back, but tats means i will start a war with my mum, again. i don want tat to happen. but yet i don wan to stay in this situation. this issit the rite time to talk to them.

come on. please. its just 30min. and it have so many tension, so many shooting. so many things going on. 30 min... not say 30days. 30min.. issit because of me? or them. i donno. i hope to noe oo.cos if its because of me, i will change. but deft not by quiting SA. so u, shut up.

2007-12-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

nicholas, you need to be more disciplined.
nicholas, you need to be more responsible.
nicholas, you need to grow up.
nicholas, you need to be a man.
nicholas, you need to do the right thing.
nicholas, you need to show you are what you are.

i seriously need a mroe disciplined life. i seriously need time management. i seriously need finance management. i seriously need to be more harsh. i seriously need to face the reality of this world.

nicholas,
wake up your idea.
open your eyes and look carefully..
straine your ears and listen carefully..
and know whats happening beside you..

i hate myself.
why am i not as talented as you, did i work not hard enough? did i not improve enough?
i hate you.
why am i always behind you?!? be it acting, dancing, art or studies. im always behind you. WHY!?
i hate reality.
why must i see the real side my best friend. it suck!! why is ur character like this?!?

i hate it.
i hate. i hate. i hate. i hate the things going on. why are u crashing me like shit but i still need to smile to it to secure this friendship. WHY?!?!
i hate tears.
im sick of crying. i want to cry no more. i cried enoguh for my family, my problems. i cried too much. too much.

get me out of this. get me out of this life. let me start a new life. a new nicholas. a better nicholas. im just not good enough.

im not good enough as a dancer. im not good enough as a singer. im not good enough as an actor. im not good enoguh as a performer. im not good enough as a student.im not good enough as a friend. im not good enough as a brother. im not good enough as a child.. im good for nothing..

its hard...
its really hard to fake a smile to hide my tears. its really hard to act as nothing happen where it hurt so much in my heart.

but i really treasure..
i really treasure you as a friend. really..

but i have so much problem. who can i turn to? who can i realli trust.. how to make a right choice? which i wont regret. why? why is decsion so hard. why issnt my brain processing? im just too stupid.

nick. pull up your socks.

need your help

2007-12-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

please help to play the game in this website. post some good coment or vote is possible. its some games that my sis created. if possible support her k?

http://www.games.icreations.sg/ -> her webbie
http://www.kongregate.com/search?q=icreations
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/search/author/zijian60 -> some game webbie where she posted her game

thanx

IM SO HAPPY!!

2007-12-07T10:58:00.001+08:00

haha. as i posted eariler, i went out on mon to celebrate with mc and peeps, was damn happy. then on 0125 5th dec, my sis came into my room with a small ice cream cake WOOT!! NICE SIA AHAH!

starting of my day wasnt realli good. forgot to bring money and left myself with $2.50. shit man. and forgot to bring my handphone. no materials for my op[en bk test (in the end i score 0 ). bu was happy la. haha. thanx to all who wished my happy birthday. thank you veri much.

yesterday dance practice. WHA HA HA HA!! they celebrated my bd by everyone feeding me frice.. erm... and lexiang.. lol.thanx so much dancers!!

feeling so sick and tired lately. thank god holiday is here. onli need do project, SA. no class. at least one less stress for 2 wk. just work out something for GD comment test.

will come bk later for a longer post. now in lesson.need listen. HOHO

it was so fun~~~

2007-12-04T12:09:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! LIKE W-O-W!~!~!~!(learn from josh)

gosh yesterday was so fun. went to eat dinner yesterday with my friends to celebrate my bd(i noe it sound pathetic. OH I WENT DINNER TO CELEBRATE MY BD!. but tats it la..)

was quite shocked with the amount of people who turned up, thanks to mcmillan, draon, val, shuxian, claudia, phyllis, jackson, faith, her bf, leon, ben, luoer. went to eat at chom chom and it was F***ING NICE!!! GOD!! HEAVEN!! PARADISE!!!! it was realli nice la. spent alot of money but its worth it. my table(me dragon mc val), we ate alot la.. haha.. porridge, stingray(bang he), 'or jian'(or 'or nua' as said by mc and val, egg cook with oystel), lala, 60satay(for 2 table la. haha.), carrot cake and SUGAR CANE DRINK ( 3DOLLAR FOR FREAKING BIG CUP MAN).

spent roughtly 10dollar plus each. but its worth it man. plus taxi and some money that went missing.. i spent 25. LOL. donno go to which part of my stomach. but its all worth it. damn nice. got a few slip of vodka from dragon... play cs again... then go home.. sleep. so tired. haha

i need prata.

spent money again.

2007-12-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

OMG! LIKE TOTALLY?! (learn from josh. lumsaco.)

went to play lan with dragon and mcmillan today. and guess how much i spent on lan? $9.30!! first time in my whole entire life i spent so much in lan, cos im not a lan person(don play lan, and not guai lan. LMAO). play almost 5hours fo CS!!! OMG LA!!! haha. i suck at cs, don realli play, and onli play a few times onli. the reason i go (even dough im sick) is beacause, realli stressed about my life, and i noe going out with them realli take away all my stress. they are realli friends whom i can truned to.

and mc! thanx for getting me out of all the shity situation i have been through all these time. i am realli lucky to have u as my friend.

another reason why i went with them is also... guilty la... realli want to go out with them for even just one day. ever since i joined stagearts, i never realli went out with my friends. this, i should say is the first - third time in half a year, cant realli remember the exect amount.. and they came to my production. suppose to go home together and chit-chat on the bus, the pathetic amount of time for us to clique together, i wasnt able to do so... they wanted to have lunch with me after my lunchtime performance, and waited for me for about 3-4 hours, but i wasnt able to meet them, didnt even get to say goodbye to them, or thank them for coming...

SO!!! back to topic.. today was fun. laughed like shit, play like shit, eat like shit, shit like shit. and mc became p**n*n*. MUA HA HA HA! play CS until we headache. pros of the pros. also played many rounds of magic. hate MC's deck. HATE IT!! HATE THE GIANT DECK!! EVEN MORE HATE THE UNDERWARE DECK!! but it was fun. reali reali. after playing cs a while at the lan shop, daryl the real giant appeared. i noe im veri mean, but the first reaction i got is, 'wow he grew fatter, and he dyed his hair... and fatter..' and i tell myself, must slim down more. MUA HA HA HA. evil i noe..

tml going out with mc and cliques again.. the Ultimate Laughing Group. behold my next post. hope to get some photos for the next post. cos its going to be fun tml.

4th dance performance.

2007-11-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

today was my 4th dance performance... the crowd was.. veri little i must say.. but still, i did full out. haha.

but the cool thing was, went to eat prata with everyone SHIOK!!! muaha ha. and before that, josh taught us a cheror. 3eights, its nice!!! loved it. then go arcard and play. DAMN NICE! BISHI BASHI! MX DANCE! THE HIT THE PLATE THINGY! MUA HA HA! i noe i shouldnt be spending all these money, and i should save money, but today is SHIOK! realli relaxed. then after tat go eat mos! talk alot of carp and jokes with jess and alision.. and i did something stupid. i asked the same thing for 4 time. braindead.

stomach feeling unwell the whole day,not feeling good the whole day. and i got a new problem in my family tat just pop up. i can pull through this. i believe.

barbie

2007-11-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! THE SONG BARBIE GAL IS STUCKED IN MY HEAD!!

yesteday went back ycs end of year cmap. went there, did prep for 'wanhui' with my team. for the skit they planned of doing deal or no deal, and the mv they doing barbie gal.. for some wierd and i donno wad reason, irwin acctually have the song barbie gal in his phone. i asked him why the hell u have tat song in ur phone? he give me the issnt-it-obvious smile... i was like okay...

so i thought of some dance move(more like poses) for them... then steph be ken(the guy), irwin, reginald, andrew and me be the barbie. LOL!!! okay... so... now the song is still in my head. damn.

and guess wad.. when i doing my cheoro.. i hit on my right knee again.. and this time, not onli the knee. the toe also... blueblack inside the toe... pain.....

reach bk home, eat the cha shao fan tat i da bao... eat finish, i just knocked off, and fell asleep on the living room floor. tillab 530 in the morning i woke up, move to my room, continue to sleep. forgot to bath, cos i eat finish i just knocked off liao...

need do a veri hard graphic desgin thing already.. wan to eat prata also..

im a cock-a-na-than.

2007-11-25T18:27:00.000+08:00

GOSH MAN IM SO COCK!

lets start with friday.

end sch at 12, so went to blk e to lepak, slack, rest and enjoy. cos i forgot to bring my admin card and lazy to go through so much trouble to get into sports hall to meet yan. alittle later amin joined me, dough i wanted to rest, in the end i still danced for him. but after like 30 min i realli cannot dahan, cos i hurt my left ankel the day before, when showing peter my cheoro. cant even walk without pain la.. haha. so i stayed at blk e, play hero, read blog, do hmwk, then go home.

reach home at about 4 which is DAMN FREAKING EARLY FOR ME LA! cos im quite shag after the week ( not sleeping for 2 days straight to study and do ycs and dancing everyday for showcase to peter ), first thing i did when i went home is sleep. at about 8 like this my mum came into my room, stand at the door there, and call and wake me up... for some god knows reason the first thing i did is, went up right infront my mum face and did a preperation for jete in front of her. she was like 'WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING LA!?' then i answer, 'ya hor? what am i doing arr?', then i go back to sleep.. then she wake me up again to go eat. so i force myself to wake up and eat then thing tat i tot was my breakfast (it was my dinner but i tot its breakfast), curry. after eating finish, i went online, did finish my ycs report, settle the stuff with the logistic for ycs camp, went back to sleep..

next morning (sat), i woke up, i see the time 0800, i was like fuck.. im late for school again... i change into my go-to-school clothing, take my laptop, ready to head for school. then i think, its sunday wad.. why i go for school for?? THEN IT SNAP TO MY MIND! FUCK!! TODAY SUNDAY! TML YCS CAMP!! I HAVENT COME OUT WITH BURGET! i open my laptop, and start to do the ycs report and try to do the burget. then i found out, aa.. i did it. OOOOOOO!! i did it last nite when im half asleep. i can acctually do my job while sleeping/sleepwalking or wadever u call it. i went through it, okay its nicely done, bravo to me. then i wanted to go back sleep again. then i lie on the bed then i JUMP UP AGAIN! wait, if yesterday is friday, then today is saturday. i look at the time, 0830. FUCK! IM LATE FOR WORK!!!

in the end im late for 15min at my dad's workplace...
cock rite?i noe.

i found tat im quite cock when i just wake up, like went up straight to my mum's face and do a preperation for jete... and at ycs exco camp i went and stood right infront of daph.. and at dance camp, i donno wad am i saying to zelia, and i also donno wad she saying to me..

let me touch on dance camp. zelia she is the time keeper, so she came to tell us that its 630 already, 30min to reporting time. then she was like

'nick arr, 630 already'

'huh?'

'630 already'

'huh? 1130??'

'*stunned* "something something" 630 already'

'*i forgot wad crap i said already"

until awhile, i think she is trying to say somethign to me, but i don understand. so after zee went off, i turn to lexiang who is sleeping beside me. i go

'lexiang, wake up, zelia looking for u'

then once i see him wake up, i went to sleep.

then just before i fell asleep again, i understood wad she say, so i woke up again.

another cock thing that i kept doing onli recently is, i say things tat i don mean to. example.

tat time self practice for dance, then i nth to do so i go buy things from mac for zee and treasa and jess and huifang. then i brought fries for me zee treasa... at first i wanted to eat my fries on the way but then cos the ppl underpack, so i decided to save it till i reach blk e then i enjoy.. but donno why the hell, i go tell zee ' at first i wan to tou chi the frice on the way one' and onli 3 days later then i ask myself, why the HELL did i say that. then i have alot of miscom with germaine lately and i got no idea why?! cos like im braindead recently, and things just don process in my head... so anyone, if i offended u, pls fogiveme. :D

got more cockanathan thing to blog, but tired. shall go rest... bb

my cheoro.

2007-11-23T01:44:00.000+08:00

talking about my cheoro, i havent named my cheoro! haha. was thinking thinking thinking... thought of naming it the same as my o'level art piece 'sadness of the storyteller', but dosent realli fit, cos i was thinking more to 'sadness + denied'. so, still need to go crack my brain. aiyo, i noe it dosent realli matter to come out with a name for it la, but just trying to realli 'complete' it. like got a whole picture liao, but lack of the title, sad u noe...

acctually, my choero is about a sad person's mindset. sometimes, when people are sad, they just going around finding help from others. but deep down inside, they forgot to help themselves. ended up, when they are alone, they donno wad to do, donno wad choice to make. they will hide themselves into even deeper sorrow to make them feel better, but the truth is it makes them feel worst. the answer to their problems is infront of them, telling them wad is the right thing to do, but they did not follow it, and make the wrong choice, even when they know wad is right deep down in their heart. so they just make the same mistake again.. and again.. and again.. and each time the mistake repeats, it get worst, and worst, and worst. and in my cheoro, i pictured at the end tat the person is stuck inside his own sorrows, and was suck into it and no longer can get away from it. (depression? mental-disabled? blood vessle burst?)

i really donno wad to choose. i realli donno wad to do.
and now i made a choice, i did it. but was wad i did right?

i donno

im still confused about what i did. and what i want. its like what i want to be is so unreachable. i have living proves to tell me its impossible, but still i hanged on for 6mths. now is the clam period, i wonder when is the next wave coming in.

physically drained, from dance
mentally drained, from school
emotionally drained, from those people behind the wall
how i wish was my fats that got drained away instead. then i can be as thin as zelia(last time)

cant wait for april to come. when i will have one thing less to commite to.

and somehow, im dancing out my life in my choero.

________________________________________________

dance practice today, the attendance was like, bad? onli like got 10 people in the studio, FREAKING COLD LA! so there were
-me
-amin
-lexiang
-carla
-jess
-huifang
-germaine
-treasa
-meixian
-zelia
tats all. like so little la.. do basic warm up, splits(like thank god! cos before practice i was praying to do splits for warm-up. for those who saw my cheoro should know why, cos i not as pro as zee and treasa), crunches, hand excersice, then peter came. then he ask us show cheoro, it goes like this
-lexiang
-carla
-meixian & treasa
-germaine
-me
-huifang and jess
-me and amin
-zee and treasa

after germaine then i snap to my mind, onli got 10 ppl lay, then got 2 pair(not counting me and amin), then all the soloist going dance finish, should faster go, or not later dance finish my one then dance amin one, i will die!!!!! in the end peter's comments on all our choero was not bad, but my one i need to work on it la, like alot more... i bang on my left ankle. onli when i not warm already then i felt the strain... shit man.. thinking of cutting short my cheoro or do sth to it, cos peter's feedback is tat mine is draggy, so need to work on it...

then after seeing cheoro, peter told us tat he sack the sch, and the sch sack him. so tues will be his last training with us. dough he is veri strick to us, but its realli his strickness tat make us grow la.. i donno issit to others but it is to me la... but its also the strickness tat make alot ppl quit.. when i join danzinc, i cant even do a pencil turn, and i tot i will fail the audition la.. is like through this 6mths, i realli think that peter made me grow more than i thought i would before i join(dough im still like shit now).

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AND I DAMN COCK U NOE!?

today at DEP was sitting with yana, then talking about drama, then i tell her i not going this wk la, cos its my sis birthday, then i need work in place of her to let her go celebrate. then i think, my sis birthday near my birthday lay, then i took out the calander, i count. OMG! ITS 13DAYS AWAY! I DIDNT NOTICE! like wtf la! i acctually forgot about my OWN birthday.. guess my no-life life realli turning me to no life, my birthday also didnt occour to me. thinking of how to celebrate... but i rather stay in sch, at blk e with my friends, rather with my family lay..

time to go bk to study and doing the report for ycs. not going to sleep again tonite.

p.s. if any one have a good suggestion to the title for my cheoro, feel free to giv me a helping hand ya =D

2007-11-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

SIAN ARR!!! at lect for IAD. and guess wad? tat cock lecturer teaching the same thing he taught last week man! same thing same slides smae topic same side tracks. haiz... so bored..... later going home to put laptop.. sianz...

my monday

2007-11-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

woke up LATE! SHIT MAN! forgot to put alarm clock then go to sleep. how cock can i be?

veri cock~~~

maths test today was easy for me.. finished the test in 15min. then slowly pack my pack, slowly send the file to teacher, then slowly walk of the room. so by right i end sch at 12noon, so now by left i end sch at 1130. then practice my GD at blkE till germaine they all come, then practice dance with amin. guess wad. amin + mine cheoro, i totally fall on my right knee not twice, 3time! pain shit man...after the first time i cannot do full out already.. but tried again and again, then got my 2nd, then 3rd. sadded.

talked alot of cock with zeee today. MUA HA HA HA.. alot of jokes man... inculding the questions arr? i know wad u thinking(the 20 question thingy)... LMAO! and it takes 2 to 'enjoy' a cup~~~ OMG!!! and the rice BALLS!!! ARR!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! LUMSACO!! welcome to beautiful jameka(issit spelt this way?)!! ur son make fun of me??? *side track abit* the dwafs don have place to stay. OMG LA!!

gosh.. don think i will be sleeping today. just don feel like sleeping. so many things bothering me.. guess will take this time to study abit.. PMP lesson coming soon.. better do something before going to the lesson, or not lostin the 3hour lab again.

btw, lum-sa-co means...

laugh until my shit all come off.

recharged through the weekends

2007-11-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

didnt sleep well for thurs and fri nite, doing my self studies at home cos i seriously missed out alot. sat drama session was fun, play quite a few fun and meaningful game conducted by sara and anjana. WEE~~ 3 CHEERSFOR UR~~~ left early for ycs meeting.. it starts at 1300 and i left drama at 1330. lol.

and now? its sunday for god sake! damn i slept till 1200+ man... and slack through out the whole day... rested, recharger, relexed. if i can get back on track for PMP, IAD, DE and the VB thingy, then will be good. realli need to buck up on my gpa, too freaking low.

havent been stretching for these pass 3 days(including today).. should i go stretch now? cos im kinda lazy todaya dn today suppose to be my lepak day...

aiyo.. see how bah. :D

OH AND AND AND! ATE 1 BANANA PRATA AND 1 NORMAL PRATA LAST NITE! school one tase much nicer... but its still not bad la.... just love pratas~~~

assessment over

2007-11-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

the pervious post is just to vend out my thoughts. so yea, its okay if u don understand...

OMG ZEEE!! UR TAT SONG SO FREAKING NICE LA!! I KEPT LISTENING LA... OMG!!!

haha.. assessment is over. finally, and guess wad?!? today i acctually reach home at 3!!! first time reach so early man.. still having cold war with my family. shit do happenes..

don feel like blogging liao. come bk tml yea?? =D

2007-11-16T15:15:00.001+08:00

did i make the right decision?

did i make the right choice?

what if wad i did was wrong?

but what can show me that what i did was wrong?

i want to stay in that place,

enjoying every moment i'm spending there.

it's okay if i make myself tired,

but is it okay to cause trouble to other?

they are trying to help me so much,

but i believe there is a limit to it.

i cannot be too selfish,

i cannot be too self centered,

i cannot make myself to ask for anything more..

cos i did nothing but creating trouble for them..

and you!

who ever you may be..

please,

show me the way,

lead me to the light,

leave me with no regret.

cos i don wan to be this anymore...

dance assessment day..

2007-11-15T10:48:00.000+08:00

sorri for not blogging for so long. don have the mood plus don have the time.

this week from mon to thurs(today) im dancing... why? for assessment is one thing, don wan to go home is one thing.

i hate going home where by my family will start asking me to quit SA. i don't want to quit! why don they understand.. they asking me why i come home so late this wk, i wish to tell them 'don wan see ur face'. so in the end, quarrle again. shit man.

going to request a break from drama till alumni nite over to forcus on my studies. reason being, i believe drama is easier to catch up then dance. still considering.. but answer need to be out by sat, don wish to delay it any further. for the good of me and my family.

told my sis i going to take a break for drama til alumni nite, guess wad the fuck she say? 'then like this the period u step down is more then the activity time wad. u step down 1mth then u got activity for 2 mth, if u step down one mthmore then u bz for 2 mth again. then ur step down period is less then ur activity period wad' LIKE WTF IS TAT BIMBO THINKING LA! WAD! WAD SHE WAN! BREAK 1 YEAR GO 1 TRAINING THEN BREAK ANOTHER YEAR LA! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

*change topic*

bad luck on tuesday.. normal practice from 1830 till ab 2000+. tried PK double turn but failed... ya ya ya i noe i fell again.. like normal liao lo.. cos im the onli one in class who can turn until fell down one. always.. haiz... haha chee seng was damn damn damn nice. the thing he teach realli work ur mussle la.. haha. alot of nice movements and got one part of my cheoro is jump up then slide on the floor one, he also teach it. finally i learnt how to do it correctly. MUA HA HA HA HA! so nice... mussle ache like shit la...

took bus with julian to go bk home. was such a great time, cos julian just kept helping me with my cheoro and telling me where to improve. sooo nice of him la.... and also because of him i think my chero is a littlebit nicer now. HOHO. and guess wad happen on wed morning?!?!

LAOSAI ARR!! FROM 0500 TO 0800 SIA!!!! with chee sing class mussle ache plus laosai,

leg = jelly

now both my knee got blue black (thanx to nicholas who is not able to hold himself), and my shoulder(thanx to nocholas who is not able to hold himself)...

ZEEEE!! I NEED TO HERO TO DESTRESS LA!!!! BUT I GOT NO TIME!! HOW?!?!?

for some reason, i think im dancing out my life in my choero.

pls. show me the way, lead me to the light, leave me with no regret, cos i don wan to be stay in here anymore.

2007-11-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

feeling veri moody now adays. and today i was so freaking tired. how to tell? slept at 2230 yesterday and still can be late for drama. woke up at freaking 0930 feeling tired.

i realli feel like breaking down. and i wont be forever behind all of ur. mark my words.

4days!

2007-11-09T10:03:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!! I BREAK THE RECORD FOR THIS SEM!! I WAS PRESENT IN SCHOOL AND ALL THE CLASSES FOR 4 FREAKING DAYS!! WOOHOO!!!!!

so freakig tired... and i realli hate sitting beside yana, she wont stop looking at my post, and now she is reading out my post... and i think she is having a interner struggle on who to see after this.. so sad.

was realli realli happy today, cos yesterday i realli did some selfstudies myself, and todya, my first friday lesson in this whole sem, i scored 10/10 for my quiz (so do yana she say)!!! OMG!!! so happy la!!

another thing is my choero. MUA HA HA, dough its v.eri cock but i did comeout with somehting more. now its about2 more chours liao. HOHOHO!! SO MANY IDEAS IN MY MIND! but so dissapointed tat my body cannot do it. will train hard to reach it.

gosh today woke up, was at a freaking wierd possition... and that leads to.. my morning back ache.. just now at DE was seriously painful la.. don think today can practice my choero unless i wan to break my back..

shit la.. yesterday cannot go jingwei bd celebration.. freaking working.... haiz....

urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *

pulling up my socks

2007-11-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

i seriously seriously seriously need to buck up my studies. lunchtime and dramanite realli make me lost my way in studies already... yesterday went to class, from lab 2 PEWWW lab5 with a quiz.. today... lab 1 PEWWW lab 4. i was like WTF?!?!? seriously need to do more self study..

for some reason, i hope to do my best in dance assessment but fail the assessment and get kick out.... cos, it feels less hurtful to be 'not good enough to be there', then 'good enough to be in there but cannot be in there'... i don wan to quit dance, nor drama. but my studies, my time... i veri scared alimuin nite... most prob will be stuck between dance and drama again....

mum and sis is already hinting me to work, cos i promised them to work after dramanite... seriously in need of money, and seriously don know wad to do... and seriously don feel like going home..

yesterday choero... i find mine quite orite la... but i donno why i got this habit of closing eyes. drama also close eyes, dance also close eyes... i love abstract too much.

urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *

tml i will die

2007-11-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

shit.. did my 4eights (alittle more than tat la) already, but u noe wad? IT CRAP! IT LOOK LIKE SHIT! seriouslly la, don think its nice nor good... trying to tell a story but.. SHIT!! STRESS!!! A!!! @__@

FREAKING FLU GO AWAY! know wad? just now i was doing pirouettes and chaines (2slow4fast), my 'bi ti' was like flying around la, majiam tap water, so FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG!!!

some one pls help me,

AAAAAAAAAAAA

next week assessment!!!

AAAAAAAAA

STUDIES CATCHING UP

... X30789812

dead

R.I.P.
nick

help la

aaa

cannot think liao

water still dripping from my nose...

tissue paper using majiam free like this...

no urge for pratamania... no energy to eat

sick

2007-11-05T15:14:00.000+08:00

damn man, i think all those late nite did catch up with me. feeling so sick now. its horrible but still trying to come out with the 4 eights peter wan... got a shity looking 3eights done(like freaking shity and ugly and donno wad to say one. prepraed to get f one)

today was so shity man.. didnt get late for sch, reach at 0750, COOL RITE!?! but was sick the whole freaking day... sickening... chinese got this saying, hao de kai shi ju shi chen gong de yi ban. last wk, wasnt late and went for all classes on monday, tuesday overslept quite alot, wed thurs fri didnt go sch. this wk i had a good start like last wk, i hope my wk don become the same as last or i realli will kanna debarred.

SICKNING LA!!

just ate prata, but hungry for more.

urge for pratamania is 2star! * * * * *

2007-11-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

slept for freaking 12hours man!!!

seriously got to rest after such a hetic life. haha. slept at 2100, woke up at 0630 myself but went back to sleep till 0930. shiok like shit man... as in seriously man... man man man... HAHA

woke up feel so like wan to go swim, havent got the time to for like so many mths.. reach the swimming pool, brought the child ticket.. cos the ppl there told me before child is under 18, so all along i brought the child ticket la... after buying the ticket today then i found out that they added thie device at the ticket machine (entrence), where by if u pass using a child ticket, the board will light up a big 'CHILD' and the buzz sound will ring freaking loud. when i was queuing i was like SHIT LA!! then when my turn, i put the card in, it went BUZZZ so freaking loud then everyone was like looking at me la... then the guy came and i told him i under 18, then okay lo... but everyone was like freaking looking at me like donno wad la... legaly im child, but i swear from today on if i ever go again im going to buy a adult ticket. if i ever go again that is...

went to sleep again at 1600.. shiok man... wake up at 1800 to go eat dinner. haha like super pig la.. DIDNT GO CUT HAIR! was to shag to go cut... tml i will go cut i promise!!! haiz.....

okay, now im fully charged and ready for classes. hope it will last long.. pls... i don wan skip classes anymore!!!

i so need prata

urge for pratamania is 5stars * * * * *

rest

2007-11-03T18:36:00.000+08:00

finally, lunchtime, dramanite, NEA performance, all finished... finally can take a breath and get myself prepared for the next round.

loved drama nite 2007, it was realli a wonderful experience. feel so good on stage, feel so good to be in the team, feel so good to achrive something with the team... 'sophia', my second script i acted. =)

i must admit tat 'johnny' was a realli tough role for me, but it was realli a great experience for me, thanx to anjana and shida and my teammates... love ur man.. and thanx kaye, for listening to me on tat day itself.

feel so tired... but yet happy.. but when reach home, i just feel like there is another war for me to fight. my mum just keep nagging and i just recieve 1 warning letter. i believe there is more to come for the lesson i just skiped.. its onli wk 3 u noe?! so tired.

urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *

TODAY IS MY DAY!

2007-10-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

LUNCHTIME ON TODAY!! PEOPLE COME WATCH!!!
1255 AT ATRIUM NYP!!!
MUSH COME!!!
DON BE LATE!!! 1ST ITEM ROCK!!!
miss it u cry..

was late for dance for 15min! lucky peter didnt scold.. this is how it went

1812 - aisha began run through (onli sences with my sences)
1830 - finish runthrough
1836 - finish comments
1836 - germain called, saying we are in trouble, ask me faster go
1841 - finish packing my back.l i got freaking 8 mounting board, 2 styrophone board, 4 plasti/paper bag, my own bag to carry
1844 - reach outside studio, spent 30sec trying to open the freaking door, too many thing in hand.
1845 - reach studio(ran like shit. everyone turn and lok at me as i run pass them. i like so wierd la)

so when i reach studio they just finish running, and i did mine too with additional 10kg on, from blk E to blk A.

banner was approved, so now i onli hoping that tml our admin don screw up, our logistic don screw up, our planning don screw up, my performance don screw up. cos just now when doing 'giv it to me' i felt faint 2time. before the octopus one is damn obvious. i like totally damn weak suddenly ad damn giddy.. final run through i realli gave in all the energy i got, don think its gd enough.. today i gave 100%, later im gonna giv 150%!!!! NICHOLAS CAN DO IT! then after 3pm will head off to do full dress rehearsal for dramanite. WOOT!

seriously need go sleep. my shirt was finish le. can go sleep le. BB! damn its raining.. gonna be freaking nice to sleep man...

urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *

2007-10-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

my attendance is realli realli realli veri bad.... today i didnt went for 3hours of class, onli went for 2 hour... wed thurs fri not going whole day...

thurs.. big headache. heard aisha wan runthrough but shida and anjana say rest? but anyway got rehersal at bishan park so got excuess letter... need take up ninja class and leard duplication skill.... then i can do dance\drama and go to class, sleep and study at same time, ISSINT TAT COOL?!?

sitting at the same spot as me last few post S476.............. nice place man........ dough the cloud look quite dark, but the sky look nice. realli wish to rest on one of it, wa........ think of it realli damn shiok sai.....

later going for drama, then go for dance. can onli breath after 3nov. pls, let me breath, i need some air....

lastly, thanx too all the people who helped me out (and the one peeping now), and thanx to my drama group, sorry for wad i did yesterday..

will go and try to liisten to the boring lect... -.-.

YANA!!!! STOP PEEPING!!!!

urge for pratamania is 3 star! * * * * *

im screwed.

2007-10-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

wed thurs fri all got excuess letter. im so going to die. seriously scared i will get debarred. seriously need to go tok to my teachers, seriously need a rest.

IM NOT LATE FOR SCHOOL!

2007-10-29T08:58:00.001+08:00

MUA HA HA HA HA! today i acctually made it for my morning class. monday 0800 graphic desgin. made it for the first time (week3 le lay).

GD i not tat scared, cos dough i missed 3 out of 5 lesson (today pluys the last 2wk, 2 lesson per wk), i didnt miss out much and i still can cope with it veri well. the thing tat i scared the most is just my attendance.haiz..... miss my prata, hope later before drama got time go eat.

come to talk about prata, zee was saying that i have a prataddition... the word looks kinda cool and i kinda agree to it. HOHOHO. trying illustrator just now and come out with something quite funny....

oh god im so tired.............. banner going to finish soon, just hope tat everything don screw up.

IT1844

2007-10-25T15:38:00.001+08:00

first row on the lef side, msn-ing. first role on the right side, watching one piece,

second row on the left side is semi listening, so as the second row right side.

thrid row leftside, day dreaming, counter strike, blogging (me), racing game, getting horny.
third row right side, donno wad they doing, habing fun i think.

tat is the lesson im in now. super boring. HELPI WANNA SLEEP LE!

wierd

2007-10-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

tired. all i have to say. tml 630 reach airport get the guy rom IYCS, 1000 reach school for class, 1300-1400 break time go drama, end sch 1800, meet mum to pass her laptop to bring home for sis at 1800, sxyback start at 1800, dance end2230 (got feeling its going to be 2300 again).

but then im so busy, i was questioning myself. have i been improving? from wad i see is no lo. my salsa hiphop and hiphop is like shit. like no matter how sharp i tried to be i still so soft and wudong. sickening.my pointing of leg is still suck. my strength, don wan tok about it. the onli thing that i can at least be alittle bit happy is my pirouettes. can finally do double liao. few time triple (ankle cannot dahan), and at least it shows tat all the ankle excersise is working. my back issint doing any good, so i seriously need to go see doc after lunchtime. AAAAA

not sleeping to study, so pls. giv me the energy

breaking down

2007-10-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

well my friends. guess wad username i type when i tried to sgin in to blogger. 'breakdown'.

funny rite?!? i also donno why i type tat. but seriously. i realli feel likebreaking down. things seems to be just too hard for me to handle. wads my life like now? wake up, washup, school, break time practice dance, after school go for drama, after drama go to dance practice, go home sleep. with this hetic life, i pray and i wish and i hope and i pray harder that YCS pls don have anyevents near this time. and guess my prayer wasnt heard. dickson sms me tat this sat got a metting with IYCS member, and this thurs need to go pick up 1 IYCS member from the airport and tour him around singapore. i realli realli realli cannot get out from my drama and dance practice. yesterday i was late for dance for 30min and i guess peter was realli unhapy about it. drama? anjana and shida had already gave in so much for me, if i even didnt come for sat, i wonder wad to do for drama nite which is next fri.

so i sms dickson saying that i cannot make it cos i don even have time to study! then he ask me, 'why do u go and find so many commitment when u know u are in YCS exco'. i asked myself tat question...

my friends beside me, as in realli friendS, asked me to quit YCS. and guess wad, my family is so pissed with me to be in YCS. how the hell am i going to committeinto YCS??? my family is like shit now, my sis dosent wan to talk to me, my dad is... , my mum is so stress. further more, i need to work after 2nov cos i seriously need money. rite now im still thinking of ways to get my textbook, notes, and even admin card which is lost in the hands of my friend. MONEY!

saw rene on the way out to sch after dance yesterday. talked to her about my stagearts problem. feel alittle better now, but still veri bad. thanx rene.

was looking at the clouds a min ago. so feel like lying on one of it, and just comfortably rest there and don think of anything. enjoying the wind, feel the sun, have nothing to worrie about. but then there will not be any prata there so, drop tat idea.

2007-10-23T16:00:00.001+08:00

OMG!! IM SO BORED!!! SOME ONE PLEASE HELP ME!!! I CAN BELIEVE THAT IM IN THIS CLASS!!!

class is so freaking boring and i dont know wad the hell the teacher is toking about. i don even noe wad the name is la.. starting of the lesson i was like asking yana, ' wad is tha name of this module? '. LIKE WAD THE HELL LA.. so freeeeeeeeeasking boring... but after class, i will be so freaking stress.... its 8days to lunchtime performance, 10days to dramanite, 14days to dance assessment.

A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A H ! ! ! ! ! !

damn... i seriously hope to get the father chatacter into me, and get the technics into me.... PK turn.... jete!! CHAINES!! PIROUETTE!! battlement... die! and lunchtime.... veri scared lay... my salsa hiphop still ka-na-sai... hiphop item 'give it to me' is ka-na-ji-pu-sai.....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I NEED PRATA!!!! dough i just ate a milky prata 90min ago before i post. I NEED MORE PRATA!!

long time never drink milk liao. my back.

new colour scheme

2007-10-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

haha. changed my tag board...

i find this one better cos i can choose my own colour combi, but then when i tried to make it bule (my ex-colour scheme, its abit gay). so i come out with black and red, then with my black ground white like majiam danzinc logo red white black. but it look nice to me, so giv me some coments ya!

2007-10-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

sorry for not posting for so long my dear friends haha,

daph acctually asked me on msn to post so, yea.

gosh this wk is realli a long and busy week, and guess wad?! its onli my first wk of school. didnt attend a single class for the 1st two day (as explained on the last post), wed i over slept, thurs didnt skip lesson, fri overslept. next week onwrads i cannot oversleep at all, nor to be late. cos my attendance will be veri bad with all the excuess letters tat im going to recieve. HAIZ.. so pratically im present in NYP for more then 12hours every weekdays, but weekends is onli a few hours. why? activity are clashing like nobody business now...

31st oct-dance lunchtime performance
2nd nov- drama nite

so every single day i will be either dramaing, or dancing, or dramaing and dancing. its tough and i can feel the pressure. but i do believe that i can pull through this. after all, im doing wad i like, and im enjoying the moments. im trying to invite my family to drama nite. for them to understand me more. my mm she agreed, but my sis, not too sure. i havent got a chance to ask them. cos when i asked them to come for my lunchtime they said no immidatelly. cos tat time production i didnt managed to get enough tickets, so they cant go. but nvm, i will get my ticket first, then i ask them this time round.

then again on msn, fir told me something. 'preassure is good'. i guess wad he say is rite, =D thanx fir! i will make it through his time. family, finacial, friends, time, studies. i will manage it will i promise.

STEAMBOAT DAY!

2007-10-14T04:35:00.000+08:00

GOSH! BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST BLOG PROPALLY!

okay this will be a loooooooooooooooooooooong blog to keep my blog alive.

went to eat steamboat at ZhiPing's (BE v.p) house. it was SOOOOOOO FUN!! the most fun part is to see yeeshan botak! MUA HA HA HA. i noe i veri mean la, but realli veri funny. die, 2years later become me, sad. haha. anyway, i was late for the meet up, suppose to meet at 1830 but i reach at ab 1845... same train as terry but he dao me la.. listen to his songs... haiz, dissapointing... quite a number of ppl went there i cant realli remember everyone's name, got a few be gals, dc gals, terry and... another guy i forgot his name suddenly im so sorry, erm, germaine, treasa, jess, zelia, yeeshan, fir, alision, brian, jingyi, benji, peter, rene(the one who bite me and pinch me and hit me which realli hurts. ESPECIALLY THE BITE, win meixian..).. erm.. think tat much ppl lo... quite many ppl.. (sorry if i miss out anyone)

got ALOT of food sia, we all see the amount of food first thing come to our mind is 'SINFUL'. gosh! lunchtime coming soon la! grr... then treasa they all was like keep telling me beyond ledgen wear singlet lay... salsa hiphop wear singlet lay... then must slim down la! AAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I NOE I FAT LA!!!!!! grr.. need slim down or not everyone wear singlet nice nice onli i so fat... then when i bring take the food everyone went WAHHHHHHHH then so paisay la.. in the end i onli ate 3 serving of food(look at my size pls), and a few vege that i kapo from kind benji(thanz so much T_T)... then reach home i still abit hungry, cos don dare eat so much. =>.<= STOP LAUGHING! grr...). at first tot will burst over 80kg one..

got some photos but is with rene they all, if i got it i will post la. *still havent post the camp one... lazy..*

oh ya... today they also celebrated benji(belated one) and erm.. and another gal who they call panda(advance one).. forgot her name.. ya so they celebrated their birthday. after singing the song, i go toilet pang sai, come back, the cake is gone... so... nvm, on diet anyway....

okay another topic. IM SO GREAT! COS IM GOING TO SKIP MY LESSON ON THE FIRST 2DAY OF SCH! haha.. cos of SEG open house, then got performance, so i got excuess letter from 9-1 for firstg 2 day of sch. abit sad and happy. can skip those jiao intro from the teacher, but on the other hand those intro are quite important. so need find out from friend le lo. HAIZ... but my first dance performance... I WILL JIAYOU DE!! *pls pls pls don spraine my leg again like last time youth culture brazza pls pls pls*

danz inc camp ROCK MAN

2007-10-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

danz inc camp rock!

learn more about choero-ing, reggae, studio, coustume shop, peter(lol).

have alot of fun

too tired thinking of camp le HAHA

post until here

had ALOT of fun la

2007-10-04T02:38:00.000+08:00

tagged by Noorasyakirah Binte Rahmat.

Layer 1: On the outside

Name: nicholas long jiyong

date: 05-12-1990

Current Status: single as usual

Eye colour: black

Hair Colour: orange-y brown i will say (supposed to be la)

Layer 2: On the inside

My heritage: pure chinese

My fears: lonelyness

My weaknesses: brainless

My perfect pizza: any pizza. can eat, i like =D

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow My first thought of

waking up: YAWN~~~

My bedtime: get some energy for tml

My most missed memories: that day when i have alot of money.

Layer 4: My pick.

Pepsi or Coke: coke

Single or group dates: donno... depends i think

Adidas or Nike: nike

Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate

Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino

Layer 5: Do you?

Smoke: nah~

Do you Curse: like ya..

Have a crush: ya..

Go to school: ya...

Believe in yourself: ya..

Think you're a health freak: no. LOOK AT THE WAY I EAT!

Layer 6: In the past

Drink alcohol: a little

Gone to the mall: ya

Dyed your hair: ya

Layer 7: Have you ever..?

Played a stripping game: nah. don mind to try one dough :P

Change who you were to fit in: in the past in pri sch.

Layer 8: Are you hoping to

Get married: think so.

Layer 9: In a partner

Best eye colour: any eye will look gd on her

Best hair colour: any colour will look gd on her

Long or short hair: any hair will look gd on her

Layer 10: What were you doing?

A minute ago: finishing this survey

An hour ago: waching one piece

A Month ago: don remember. got SSTMS.

Layer 11: Finish the sentences..

I love: my life.

I hide: *im hiding it*

I need: a life

Layer 12: Tag 5

kenneth

kaye

germaine

yiyan

daphne

a slacky wed

2007-10-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

today when i wake up i feel veri strange cos of my back. then try to get of my bed, AIYA. back pain. move to the right, AIYA. back pain. move the the left, AIYA. back pain. so in the end i lie on my bed for 10mins to think of how to get off my bed. cos i put my leg down when lying, AIYA. back pain. so i flip over, do a child hold, roll up(not roll la, just come up la, roll i will die), then sit up, then walk down my bed.

after that i went to see doctor. waited for like 40min and it feels so wierd. cos u see, everyone there is like slauching and dying like this, onli me sit until super straight. so, veri wierd.

go home, eat some bread, take med, play some game, sleep, wake up go aunt house with family to makan, come back take med, blog, later sleep. tml go for the nyaa thingy and dance pract(daph allow me to sitin YA!). haiz...

okay, this is a veri funny thing, for the pass 3 wk im super free and i wan to teach zishan they all dance, some stupid shit i come out for them for YouthAchiver anniversary la.. must contribute abit as a member wad.... but they don wan, wan play majiong instead. nvm... this sat they wan practice but im all the way in nyp having dance camp. after camp need prepare for oct 31st lunchtime performance (seriously need to train alot cos i now kanasai. as in realli sai, sai u noe? SAI!). somewhere near performance also got dance assessment, donno when la but need to work veri hard starting from NOW, cos i like SAI. then followed my drama nite, which i think need alot of my commitment, then will be ycs EOY camp and carolling and so.... blahblahblah... and it think the anniversary is somewhere after dramanite onli... so.... ya. seriously need to dig time. and i seriously think that i need do more CIP if i realli want to get my NYAAgold award next year(which i dought i have the heart and time la)i think i have about 20-30 hours already, need to hit 80hours. its easy! if i don have this much commitments..... oh well, thats just nicholas-y rite?

okay. time to go slack some more. WOOOOOOOO

ahh my back

2007-10-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

my back pi-jia today during dance practice...

for the whole story, lets go back to 4days ago~~~

playing majiong at chee ka house, then was slauching, not sleeping properly.. then suddenly see my tiles i go PONG and suddenly sit up straight. so, for that, i hurt my back...

then today, everything was fine cos stretching i didnt do those i cannot do one and crunches i do abit onli(dough meixian ask me not to do). then do battlement kicks.. front was okay, then do side one my back PA. gone. then sitin the studio for ab 3hours... sian.....

DANCE CAMP COMING!! DEAR BACK! PLS LET ME BE ABLE TO GO!!!

2007-09-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

lets go straight down to business. im going to talk about discipline. i seriously think that i need a more discipline life or things will just get very very screwed up and i have a long list of stuff i make myself to do when i think about it. just to share with ur, this is the list.

-not to be late in anything
(i keep being late in drama, meeting friends, message, replying, and alot of stuff lately. kinda annoying even for myself

-not to oversleep anymore
(most of the reason why im late)

-stretch more!
(i seriously think i need to buck up my flexiblity)

-practice my pointing everyday
(cos my pointing realli sucks. point majiam no point)

-eat less
(this one need to explain? need slim down la... so fat)

-spend less money
(realli super broke)

-keep the house clean
(more like wad mum ask me to do rather then myself)

-be more kind to jingyi
(since she keep saying i bully her. so...)

-go to gym at least once a week
(train my abs area *the place with no abs* since i cant do crunches so cannot train there)

-resume my visit to IMH
(i've been missing out alot of visit to there to help in YouthAchivers. they are kind enough to understand my timetable but i still feel veri bad la. attatendance not veri consistence)

-do everything i owe!
(i still owe my YCS report, and lot of other stuff. havent get key from ex-treasure also. so manything havent go do where i should do. ALAMAK)

acctually. still got alot more. just i don think ur wan to see. =D

haiz... hope i can lead a more less hetic life. but not that peaceful too, or not i will rot to death

my blog is alive

2007-09-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

gosh its been so long since i last blogged. haiz. alot of things happened and u won want to know.it will take 2 hours to read finish so ya.... just posting to tell ur this blog is still alive. i will blog more when i have time. going to work in ab 1hr time.. hahaha MISS ME and miss my post ya! =D

$71.50

2007-09-23T01:39:00.000+08:00

woooot. came bk from my good, fun, tired job. hahaha. but the sad thing is, i miss the last train. so i need to take night bus... which take like 1hr from HF to houngang. =.= u cant expect me to earn $71.50 then spen $10++ at taxi rite.. siao sia... so reach home at ab 130am... haiz... leg so pain now.. quite cool rite? work 2 days $71.50.. i yesterday work from 5-930, today 4-11... 1st day and 1st half of 2nd day is quite slacky... but once the wedding starts, hetic sia! gosh... tired la, go sleep liao. anyone wan hear story can call me :D i can tell u ALOT hahaha.. HD some nore WOOT

my stressless day

2007-09-20T10:59:00.000+08:00

seriously, things are damn wierd for me. others are enjoying their holiday, im not. why? cos im not used to having holiday. like got nothing to do. all i do everyday is sleep then wake up then eat then shit the play com then sleep. the first few wk of holiday was paradise for me... seriously, i finally got to rest. but now i think i rest too much. like rotting at home liao. all i can do is stretch here, stretch there, try to train up some mussle, talk to friend, watch anime.. the only time i go out is dance practice, drana practice, self dance practice...

i cant wait for work to start, then i will have more things to do. i cant wait for oct to come, got dance assessment, dance camp,dance performance, and the soon-will-be-coming drama night. AAAAA fee;ing that im leading a no-ife life now, so freaking nothing to do. want to know how nothing to do i can get? i even thought of going back to play maple story....

sian-ness

2007-09-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

don realli have anything to blog about. these few days life is rather peaceful to put it in good words, to be abit more ugly word will be boring. HAIZ finished my milk, finish watching onepiece, finish my food, but one thing seem never going to finish, stress and workload. faint.

why is life so unfair.....

i did something stupid

2007-09-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

aaa went for dance practice today. practiced salsa hiphop and alittle bit of across the floor. then practice here practice there, at the last part lexiang got realli realli high and starts to challenge jingwei. was totally funny la. them me and amin start to challenge each other. he say he won but i say i won. so... lets move on. then ppl starts to drama. lol. got realli reali crazy. in my opinion. i will giv the best actor award to lexiang, and best actress to daphne. haha.

on my way home, i did something realli realli realli realli X83294762398 stupid. i chaines all the way from blkE to blkA to the exit. then i giddy all the way from yo chu kang to houngang. i swear i will never do something so stupid again.

reach home. check my result. I PASS!! but gpa 1.9++ onli. not that gd la, but at least i pass. made a promise to my family that next sem will show gd result or they will cut down on my commitment. realli need to pull up my socks. k. i go rest liao. tml i shall visit the gym to train my abs, which is currently a united kindom. shit la my back, cannot do crunches, cannot do this, cannot do that. go die la..

so long didnt post liao

2007-09-18T12:00:00.000+08:00

quite a few days didnt blog liao. haha. cos my sis was rushing her project with the laptop so i didnt get a chance to use com. haha.

okay.... shall start blogging about sun. haha. went practice dance with amin, germaine, jess, jingyi. go to this CC near ang mo kio one la. not angmokio, forgot the name. then hor, its a nice place la. open area with wind... but got the noise of the mrt and the 'fantastic' singing from the aunties and uncles from the karaOK shop just beside us... -.- haha. half way through dex suddenly appeared. then practice practice.. suddenly i spotted o2jam on jingyi's laptop. then i attemp to play, but cannot then she got O2MANIA!!! WOOT!!! then i started playing :P in the mean time amin and germaine they all started filming themselves.

haha. acctually got alot more. this is one of those that we took. but amin onli send us this.... hope ur like it. lol X5

okay! monday... went for cheeka house for some majiong session. alamak. lost $3.90 HAHAHAH lucky la.. not that much.. little bit onli..

later, going for dance practice... gonna practice across the floor. issit it cool? E308. so looooooooooong. can realli practice until siao HOHOHO

first day with my jazz shoes

2007-09-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

back from dance practice.... tired... peter gave us a new across the floor.. im like seeing stars la... @_@ but wad he say is rite la.. we need to practice more and train more... its been ab 5mths since i join SAdance and i still cannot hold through out my launch balance... shame. TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN!! pirouttes lvl 1-9~~ im coming~~~

danced with my brand new jazz shoe today, toe PAIN like shit man...hope to get used to it soon. tml going for training for my job. MONEY MONEY COME!!! MONEY MONEY COME!!! HAHA hopefully by term3 (if i managed to pass this coming assisment la) i will have enough money to get myself a jazz snickel(issit spelled this way?).

I WAN TO GET SOMETHING LIKE THE ONE DEX GOT! GOLD!! SO DAMN SEXY AND HOT LA!!

wad a nice morning..

2007-09-13T11:52:00.000+08:00

YAWN~~

wake up in the late morning 1130... drink my cup of nice nice HL strawberry milk, eat my nice nice cupcakes, listen to some nice nice music, lying on my nice nice bed, posting on my this nice nice blog, slacking to the nice nice weather... shiok.... this is wad i call holiday...

normal sch day i onli get to sleep ab 3-6hour. my this holiday i can sleep 6 - 12 hours(most of the time is more then 8 la). activity wise is still the same, but the sleeping and slacking time is SHIOK sia..... go watch one piece liao... just nice. finish my cup of milk and finish blogging XD

to rab : MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2007-09-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

haha. went to sentosa for interview today. got the job HOHOHO. will be starting work on 21st. so damn long la... still struggling between accepting the jitterbug scholarship or not. my heart tells me yes, but my wallet and family tells me no. haiz..... struggling struggling...

went to celebrae my dad's bd at a thai restruan. quite nice the food. the funny thing is, when we reach tere, they tell us. 'if u want to eat inside the aircon, u need to wait min 1/2hour. if u wan to sit at the non-aircon area, u can start ordering now'. so my family choose the non-aircon one, got fan and quite some nice tree to look at. its also quite cooling la. then eat finish liao, walk off, those ppl who queue befor us is still waiting while we finished eating a good meal in a good environment. issint singaporean strange? tha aircon and non aircon is no much diff la seriously, and because of the aircon they waited at the non aircon place... =.= in the end they spend more time in waiting then eating. u noe the waiting place is so stuffy and crowded... and the non aircon place to eat is like so cooling... stupid ppl sia...

drinking my HL strawberry milk now... YUMMY!

i spraine my left ankle again...

2007-09-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

guess wad? i did it again. suppose to meet amin, germain, syak at 8 in sch. since i got a habit to be alittle late, i made the effort to reach alittle early this time.. but i got so tired, that i slept on the bus72. suppose to stop at blkA there cos nearer, but end up the bus captain wake me up at yck station. i too jangjiong then take my laptop and bag and run la, but my left leg totally numb so i fell to the ground, and that spraine my leg once. then i tried to stand up but lose my balance (still sleepy head) then fell and sprain the 2nd time. both time on my left leg. unlucky...

went to drama t 1000. so damn fun. miss drama sooo much and the peepz there... o0o0o0o0o0o.. i got to try to act as a angry father, not too bad i think...haha.. then...... move on to imh.. i was like sleeping there.. hahaa... laopa acctually treated all of us to pepper lunch cos of chu yuan's bd HOHOHO... too tired. tml still going interview. shall stop blogging here.. bb

slacking day

2007-09-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

WOOOOO

wake up by a morning call from mum, asking me to go help dad at the work place. first thing that comes to my mind is SHIT I SHOULDNT PICK UP THE PHONE! but nvm... went to help cos dad alone wad... k, now the intresting thing. i went to this noodle stall (know those ppl well one la), then i ordered a $2.50 wantan mee.. usually is $2 la, i order for more mee... then i go back to my stall. few min later, the deliver the mee to my dad's stall. WHA KAO! that freaking plate of mee is like $5 worth la! like u buy 2 plates of$2.50 one and put together. the noodle is like oe whole mountian. think is because they know is i eat one, then give the amount to feed pig. =,= cant finish at all. squeeze as much as i can into my stomach but still onli manage to eat half of the noodle onli. the uncle who come and take away the plates still ask still don wan to eat arr? i was like i eat finish liao. cos i eat more then half of it already but still look as if i havent eat de amount la... -_

k, tats all for work. after my work, i went home and bath then go to dragon's house. damn freaking fun. haha.... went there to sleep, slack, play, sing, drink, eat. damn shiok. wad a slacking day. its a day where our gang meet up and just slack.

k la. go rest. meeting amin at 8am tml to practice salsa hiphop with germaine and syak.

jitterbug day

2007-09-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

YAWN!!!

cos yesterday was so tired, i slept until 1125 until im woke up by amin's unexpected morning call.. so with that call i got, we decided to meet at 1645 at bugis to accopany him eat KFC. haha. reach city hall at 1730 to change and answer call for mother nature and all those... then wait for treasa they all. at 1820 all of us reached city hall mrt station who are the preety ladies treasa, daphne, yiyan, jess, and the hunks, dex, amin and me of course.. with the 7 of us... we depart towards jitterbug...

reach there, fill up some form... the there is this coloum asking for our dance experience.. in which styles and how long.. then i tick jazz, cos SA wad... but then, how many year..erm.. 4mths how to write? so we ask the person and in the end, me and amin wrote 1/3year. haha.
then......we start doing warm up by ourselves. i was like aaaaa... ooo....ouch... ahhh... all the way cos i got mussle ache every where..

then the audition starts. they jump straight to across the floor. did sth like battement variation, but alittle bit different. so abit confusing for me cos like used to doing the one peter teach. so.. then they did six-step-pirouttes-turn and je-tay(the split jump la... known as da-tiao in chinese). after that they threw us a 8 eights cheoro to the song 'you can't stop the beat'. love the music like shit man, but auditioning in groups of 4(for my group is number 18-21 which is jess, me, amin, dex) and dance the choero. but after the 8 eights, we need to improm 4 eights. O.o when dancing the improm part got a few point of time where i blank.. haha got this one part i donno why i slide to the floor then i doing nth there. super cock. LOL. the the 4 of us is like runing from one corner of the room to another corner.. going aroung... spin here spin there, chaines here je-tay there, split here, fly there, locking here, salsa there, sexy here, cramping there.. like donno like wad. haha..
we need to dance 2 time, cos need switch row wad.. first time 18 and 19 stand infront then 20 and 21 stand behind. then we dance finish 1st time onli the judges ask, ur tired? i was like 'ya.. *pant*pant*...' then dance the 2nd, energy critical liao... come of the room, middle back starts to pain.. pain like donno wad... in the end i was call for a 'call back' with another 3 gals cos they unsure of puting us through or not... so they wan to see the real us, and like wad we know. so since i tick jazz, i like just dance out everything i know and learned from peter(who is standing at one corner) and i started at the right side of the room... all the other 3 gals was staying at their place there, then onli me the cock, go spin and the jetay in front of them and loved to the left side of the room... then donno wad to do then just dance out all the choero tat peter teach.. then ahh!! my back... then just dance until they say stop then go out liao.. in the end, i was selected. O.O was quite shocked and unbelievable.. in the end me, amin, dex made it through with anothe 6 ppl whom i donno.. haiz... if i take it up, will be about $100 per mth, 8 classes per week min... need to think it over.. and over.. and over..

haiz.... time to go rest liao.. tml got dance again. with the condition of my back, i think tml i cannot do baby lift liao...

still missing HL strawberry milk. no time go buy... and i finishing my HL chocolate milk soo la...

ITS BEEN LIKE 2WK SINCE I LAST ATE PRATA!!!! CRAVING FOR PRATA!!!

energy zero...

2007-09-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

no more energy liao. i spending my last bits of energy into blogging, which is the energy i got from my friend rice and a cup of HL chocolate milk(i finished the bottle of strawberry one liao). haiz....

just now talked to peter about my stupid back... he ask me drink milk, i say i got drink. then he say drink more milk, then i say i drink alot already!! then he say, the maybe u drink too much milk, then ur back like this. but i think hor, realli maybe i drink too much milk you know... is like i can finish 1 whole liter of milk in 1/2 a day... erm..... okay, lets talk about something else...

got dance practice today...

supposed to meet up amin and germaine to practice salsa hiphop at 3, but germaine got held back with sth so we push it back to 4, then went to blkE lvl 3 to practice... but when we reach there germaine wasnt there yet, so instead of doing the whole slasa hiphop, me and amin practice our 'shines' for salsa hiphop(so in love with salsa hiphop) and our locking cheoro 'untouchable' (the action that zelia do realli keeps going round and round in my head... *untouchable~~~*)..

haha.. then soon, we moved on to outside the studio there, and practiced along the pathway.. then when we first started dancing hor, got this uncle walk pass, then keep staring at me and germaine... then i look at him, then he look at me back, then i smile at him la like the hello-we-are-practicing-dance-and-we-don-bite way, then he smile at me back... then i was like blur dao... but then he still keep smiling, then he walk away... after a while i find him damn gay... but never mind, i got a hot chick infront of me, my partner germaineXD

partnering with germaine is such a fun experience.. HOHOHO.. dough we do have some smalll 'fights' going on while dancing some times... things will work well for the both of us, at least in my point of view la... she not scared of breaking my bone, im confidentin not breaking her bone, that dosent mean wil will start wacking each others bone arr... just that feel very comfortable with her. cos that time partner with hui fang, she veri super ultra blatra eltra light! quite scared to break her bones... realli.... sorri hui fang.....

okay, so dance practice offically starts at 1830, but from 1600 - 1800, i dance until i veri tired liao... so..

before dance practice already die
dance practice starts, DIE
do stretching, DIEE
do crunches, DIE X5
do battlments(think its spelled this way), DIE X7 (cos totally no strength liao, and my back pain)
so across the floor, not too bad lo... learn a new one today. quite fun, but hard to do it... THEN HOR, KAO, MY LAST ACTION DO WRONGLY THEN I SAY THE WORD SHIT OUT SO LOUD LA! so paisay....

haiz....

then move on to choero, peter wan to see within, hello & salsa hiphop... out of these 3 i onli dancing out salsa hiphop... gave in my best but not up to peter expection... YET! will try harder! haha BIG BIG thank you to rene for helping me and ger today... and ofcourse zelia and alison la... teaching us so much.. grr.... need to practice more...
then my piroette lvl 1-9 arr.. WHA LAO AAA..... KAA NAA SAI SIA!!! after all 9 lvl i like panting like horse tat ran 500907592078942370481KM la.... -.- realli realli need to drill it... onli did a double turn for lvl 3.... tried to do once for lvl 5, but the become veri blur on wad to do.. need to practice more...

waa.......

k la... i go rest liao.. most prob going for the dance audition tml... to see how the outside audition looks like... HOHOHO... ofcourse need to see mum giving the green light at my house doorstep or not la... =.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

so miss my HL strawberry milk and my roti prata.....

monday

2007-09-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

a normal monday...

haha, went for dance practice from 10 - 4. managed to get the whole salsa hip hop steps down.. or i should say most la. got some parts still not used to it yet.. salsa hiphop is so damn fun la.. HOHOHOHO. the very good thing about today will be, my ball is save XD
after the dance practice veri guai. went home. but cos zelia was talking about yorguht( or issist spelt this way) during practice, make my mouth veri itchy. in the end, aiya... go cheers buy la... the brought a mixed fruit one DAMN NICE!!! meiji one is still as best as ever. HOHOHO tml practicing with germaine again at 3, shall blog more tml =D

swollen hand

2007-09-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

my right hand is so cute now... its used to be fat, now its fatter. ITS SWOLLEN! -.- so freaking fat and pain.. hope it get better before monday man... think i over used it during thurs practice.

talking about thurs practice, it was such a WONDERFUL experience... kanna wack at my balls not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES! first is by our dear amin, then is germaine the cutie, then is the stupid me... -,- but i don blame amin and ger cos its realli an accident... haiz.... hope still can give birth sia.

got quite freaking angry with my family.. got quite a small fight with my mum and sis to go to YCS s.d. is like its not totally my fault to not go cover your shift at dad's work place! i know u have a back pain but i agreed others to be their facil! and don give me that ****ing attitude when i tries to explaine to u. and im now searching for jobs, again. wan me to work to feed my self? i can. but wan me to work and quit stage art? **** OFF!!!! i said i don mind having work, ycs, drama, dance, study cos im doing the thing i like. so i don mind being tired if i can dance and drama. but guess wad my mum reply?? 'i mind'. u wan me to have one less comitment and thats y i quited job with u comforming that u can feed me and buy me a laptop. now u say wan me to fed myself im okay, im OKAY with any thing ur wan. but DON DON DON DON DON ASK ME TO QUIT STAGE ART! if u don wan me to be 'tired', issint it a more easier way to giv me YOUR support, which is what i need, rather then pulling me down?! GRRR!!! WHY AM I STILL SO STRESS AFTER EXAM?!?!?!?! and guess wad? chuyuan(hope i spell correctly) say that she (or apple i donno who) proposed for me to dance for youthachivers 1year anniversary party, guess its time to sabo alfred and zishan they all. =D drag them down and we dance some disco type stupid dance XD (imagine alfred doing that make me laugh liao)

my brain is like overloading with thoughts now adays. my that useless full time advisor is like doing nothing... cann be trusted.. HAIZ X5

suppose to go to dragon house for prayer tonite one.. but staied at home instead to please my mum... like just going down and down some more... im getting closer to my ups i hope..

i got my life back!!

2007-08-30T13:08:00.000+08:00

exam is finally over!!! im freaking happy.. hahahaha.... at cheeka's house now, when dragon reach then we can start our mahjiong SHOWDOWN!!! MUA HA HA HA HA. the later going for dance.. =D i got a live! i got back my live! say goodbye to the no live days. no fun, do drama, no dance, NO LIVE!!!!! dragon should be here any moment. shall go off now =D

milkomania is still inside my body man..... gosh. should i go get another HL strawberry milk??

*p.s. DAMN that 7.11 don have any more already.. sad

YAWN~~~

2007-08-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

im like slept SOOO much yesterday...

15HOURS OF SLEEP YOU KNOW?!?!?!

haiz..

go study liao..

heading towards 2nd paper

2007-08-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

im so dead.

oopp??? grr....

im still not stress. but fasturated. why cant those bloody things get into my head?!? just don understand WHY! WHY! DIE!!!!

went swimming just now at about 1900. lying on the bed whole day, gonna rot if don move abit. after swimming went to buy my dinner.. on the way i passed by 7-11. AAAAAAAA! BUY LA BUY LA! in the end i brought another packet of HL strawberry milk =P so in love with it. my milkomaina is back =D

its been donno how long since i last touch the keyboard... tried playing some songs i used to play. SHIT! my finger become donno like wad liao.. SO SAD!!! after exam must try playing again. at least get my 'tong hua', 'cannon in D' & 'numb'.

dragon called me just now, asking if im advaliable to sing for gab's mass. i agreed. but that means i need to elave early for dance practice.. erm... okay people... this is my timetable tml

0830 - 1030 oopp exam
0900 - 1300 dance practice
1300 - ???? mass

@_@

and time check now.. 1033... haha

k la. go back and study already...

2 more paper. and u will be free.

sunday

2007-08-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

herm... today normal day. just that yesterday studied util 2. wake up at 12 XD. first of all...

ALL THE BEST TO RENE AND MELVIN!!!!

haha..yesterday my lower back veri pain. getting better. today, MY UPPER BACK. WTH. GOSH!! realli donno why... its not because of dance la... think is because of my sleeping possition and so. befor i join dance already had all these problems, some time la... but i think hor, my lower back is fine now, cos yesterday i ate roti prata... maybe today i should go eat too.

i seriously think im addited to HL strawberry milk... morning drink, afternoon drink, evening drink, night drink... within one day i finish 1whole bottle. O.o today will become a day without milk. must controll. or else... will lao sai until donno like wad.

this morning i woke up. finding a place to keep my production script propally. i brought a 30page clead-pge file and slot each page of the script nicely into it. haha. it was a realli realli good experience for me, next time when i go old i will look and the script and think back

~~~~

~~~HOHOHO~~ my 1st script and production~~ PEOPLE~~ NICKY SEXY~~ HOHOHO~~~

~~~~

however, its abit wierd to imagine me getting old u noe... imagine... im old... with kids and grandchild.. and sharing the experience i have to them.... OH! MY FIRST PRODUCTION... i should teach ur this... nicky sexy!!! must learn how to do it arr... -_ LOL can ur imagine it??? i think exam makes me too crazy. I NEED SA ACTIVITY AND SA PEEPZ TO LET ME LET OUT MY CRAZYNESS LA!~!~!~!~!~! IM TRAPED!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!

ENDURE NICHOLAS!! ENUDRE!!! 3more days... 3 more..... 3............

should i get my HL strawberry milk?

my saturday

2007-08-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

in the end didnt sleep last nite. chionging COS.. went out early in the morning 7am to go swim. forgot that weekend open later -.- but nvm, i took a detour and go buy HL strawberry milk XD andcup noddles for breakfast. makan finish rite, lie on sofa to digest... next thing i know is my sister woke me up(with her nagging) at 1030, the time im suppose to meet angelina. quickly bath then choing out of the house and lucklily reach at 1110. stayed for huisuo cleanup. went off at ab 1400. came back to study, but not for long. too tired. took a nap at 1600.
haiz... now heading back into my books...
tml is sunday... meixian didnt call me up... so guess the lion city don need people help anymore... plus mum also not veri happy, so, forcus on studies lo.

keyword --> FORCUS!!!

2more paper to go till 6wk of freedom

2007-08-25T03:48:00.000+08:00

1. The person who tag you is?
---yanrong.....

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
---StageArts mate and normal friend??

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
---stupid, funny, stupidX2, cheerful and virus

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
---sending virus to my com put showing her pic on my desktop?

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
---HI!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~ (with the little but yet big wave she doing)

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
---either laugh to death, or chock to death, or tiok virus till death. conclusion, death... haha jk la... erm... erm.... erm......................... no comment

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
---if anyone gotta be my lover, i will love her the way she is, cos thats her. unless is something bad for her la... tats a different issue.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
---put in all my effort to get her back as my friend. cos she is one good friend you dont want to lose.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
---im infected by her virus?

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
---HI!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! her back with the same old little but yet big wave.

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
---a good friend that you dont want to lose.

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
---stupid and irritating. AND FAT!

13.The character you love of yourself are?
---my nicholas-lish character. cos that makes me nicholas =D

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
---my stupidlity and huge capacity of annoying other people

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
---NICHOLAS LONG!

16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
-1-daphne
-2-eunice
-3-germaine
-4-kaye
-5-kenneth
-6-mcmillan
-7-jokhie
-8-yana
-9-yanrong_____________________________
-10-yiyan(your 2 wont mind doing it again one =P)

11. Who is no.6(mcmillan) having relationship with? (are these question asking about the 10 ppl i mention? im answering according to that arr)
---valerie vanessa bernadette alexandra auther dragon XD

12.Is no.9(yanrong) a male or female?
---im not sure. issit male? of female... i need to think..

13.If no.7(jokhie) and 10(yiyan) are together, will it be a good thing?
---it will be intresting. LOL

14.How about no.8(yana) and 5(kenneth) ?
---LOL X5 i will wan to see that. don think will be good. will have a major height difference.

15.What is no.2(eunice) studying about?
---MIT. same as me

16.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3(germaine) ?
---a few min befor i trying to blog this?

17.What kind of music band does no.8(yana) like?
---i donno lay

18.Does no.1(daphne) has any siblings?
---i donno lay

19.Will you woo no.3(germaine) ?
---erm... not now i think =P

20.How about no.7(jokhie) ?
---GOSH! HELL YEA MAN! COME ON JOKHIE! LOL how the hell its possible....

21.Is no.4(kaye) single?
---i donno lay

22.What's the surname of no.5(kenneth) ?
---i donno lay

23.What's the hobby of no.4(kaye) ?
---DRAMA!! STAGEARTS!! i believe so lol..

24.Do no.5(kenneth) and 9(yanrong) get along well?
---i don think they know each other

25.Where is no.2(eunice) studying at?
---nyp

26.Talk something casually about no.1(daphne)?
---my good senior =)

27.Have you try developing feelings for no.8(yana)
---yes. we were jesters for production. feelings of friends for chemistry. i believe we achived it =D

28.Where does no.9(yanrong) live at?
---dumbdumb land

29.What color does no.4(kaye) like?
---i donno lay.. damn i need to know kaye more sia...

30.Are no.5(kenneth) and 1(daphne) best friends?
---nope

31.Does no.7(jokhie) likes no.2(eunice)?
---they donno each other.. i think.

32.How do you get to know no.2(eunice)?
---stagearts drama

33.Does no.1(daphne) have any pets?
---i donno lay

34.Is no.7(jokhie) the sexiest person in the world?
---im more sexier then him =P sorry jokhie.

2007-08-25T03:08:00.000+08:00

im drinking green tea now. literally 'green tea'... you know green tea is yellow in colour one rite, mine is in green... -,- pokka green tea... 'green' tea...
haha. tats because im using a blue cup la... then like this look like green like this... HOHO. but its kinda cool u noe.

friday

2007-08-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

one exam down...

not that beautifully i think...

exam starts at 430, and the 1st question, im stuck liao. suddenlly forget how to do complement. sianz big time. omving on... haiz.... alot also donno how to do. was studying my COS till now.. eye damn heavy. at first tml onli need to meet angelina at huisuo, to get her the tins ready for HIHS flag day. BUT THEN.... dom came to tok to me in msn...

dom:
hey nick

me:
?

dom:
u noe tmw's the huishou clean up?

me:
no

me:
wad time to wad time?

dom:
10.30am

me:
-,-

me:
ooooooooookay.....

seriously feel like skipping it la. is like i already spent so much time in doing tat flag day, and i flanked one exam already... haiz... furthermore, i cannot run from it. -.- meeting angelina at 1030, they coming at 1030. HOW TO RUN FROM IT?!?!

but then, even dough i say i want to study, i still wanted to go help out at the lioncity thingy on sun... to see a dance compition! international one i think.. hope peter still need ppl and mum will let me go... cos mon is my exam... i will be let off at 1630 to go home and study... realliiiiiiiiiiiii wan to go... a chance not to be missed...

but since i wan to go to the compition... so that also push me to go for huisuo cleanup.. cannot not willing to scrasfice study for one thing, but do so for another wad... so... back to my same old solution. scrasfice my sleep. but this time better. for some reason im able to do it without rebbull and coffee. haha

im feeling much better now, after the talk with kenneth on msn. great senior indeed he is. =D that golden line u teach me will be remembered in my heart,and im sure i will use it in the future.

however, today i also realise something. not realise la, just remind me, again, and that is life is short.

i heard from my friend in HIHS that this guy from 4sin was ran over by a bus this morning and passed away. he is onli 16, a student leader and have a promising future. in actual fact, i don know him personally. but true enough, i think i uderstand how the people beside him will feel. and that message just knock on my head again

treasure all your love ones, while you can.

who knows what will happen tml, or later in an hour, a min, a second..

too all my friends out there, i like ur to know i treasure each and single one of ur. big hug.

2007-08-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

Life is about finding happiness. Some people spend their whole lives finding it, some people never find it at all

2007-08-23T21:04:00.001+08:00

and anyway, im drinking HL strawberry milk now. kinda nice. XD

exam starting..

2007-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

tml is my exam.... com maths. haiz...

one funny thing is. this is the first time im having such a strange feeling for exam. in the past, exam/test time, i will like study like siao la.. okay,most of it. CAN? but still, will be very stress, veri crazy, very tired.

but, donno why,k now adays i feel veri empty. like nothing in my brain lay... group study TOTALLY didnt worked out for me like how it used to be. in the end, only studied when im at home, alone in the room. guess the best time for me to study is still night time. but still after studying i still feel damn empty. not say nth goes into my brain la.. abit la.. but, is like got this do-already-also-meaningless-lay feeling. donno where the feeling come from but just...

these few week i like living veri differently. SERIOUSLY DONNO WHY. like something cocked up in my life BUT DONNO WHY. just don feel anything. and im like veri wierd also. cos im stress. but im stress because im not stress over exam! i feel damn wierd about it! is like, im super not confident in my ability to pass it but im not stress about it?!?!? likw WTF!!!! like my brain is empty like this. empty.

time passes veri slow now adays. even when im sleeping, wake up is like 'still so early...'. wan sleep more cannot sleep more, wan sleep less cannot sleep less. the only thing im doing well is eating more.. FATTER SIA!! grr....

haiz... today got meet up shan, dragon, mc, ber. together we are called the ultra-super-crazy-laughing-laughing-nonstoplaughing-crazyX50-turbo-joke-stilllaughing group(as named by me). they are my all time laughing partner. talking through phone or just saying hi, can make joke until we laugh like shit. but today, didnt realli feel as happy as the past. a bit, empty also. like some point of time i cant realli laugh. and after laughing, i just forgot. i sounds like i got some illness like this... maybe is SSTMS. kanna from ber 100% COMFORM plus garrentee one.

is there a hole in my heart, thats causing my emptiness??

normal tuesday

2007-08-21T16:45:00.000+08:00

exams coming. but still no motivation. im so screwed. heading back into books already. aint going to blog too much.

been so long

2007-08-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

everyone~~

YCS FLAG DAY IS OVER!!!
shiok

haiz, tml go bk huisuo and finish counting the money and SET, ycs flag day will realli comform over...

its been so long since i last blog-ed, cos got flag day, realli getting the hell out of me. didnt realli studies for my exam. will start chionging for it. haiz... life becoming quite meaning less now, no dance... no drama... onli exam..... sianness X20..... missed dance so much... missed drama so much.... missed SA so much......

tried over-split on wed, with a about 8-10cm 'pao pao' (after squashed). supppppppper pain sia... in the end my right side split i did oversplit (still cannot totally square it), left one i just split onli. alamak... cos left one i split cant realli quare liao ma... so get my split 1st then tackel over-split lo... bu quite happy, can do abit over-split.. even if its like 185degree onli la... but still more then 180 rite....

however, aftermatch of attacking oversplit, my leg is like, u should know la... keep getting crampslike anytime one... then my hip bone there also veri pain, cos trying to open it, veri pain.. but, no pain no gain.. so, will endure =D

like wad rene said to me b4 i posted.
prepare hard
work hard
study hard
dance hard
drama hard

photos :P (better verison

2007-08-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

omg... i uploaded all these photos in 1HOUR!!! love the school network at exam break... HAHA

here are some photos for you. a better way to upload it... anjana is like freaked out by me XD she is trying to resist the temptation XD
now now.... wad is wrong with you people........
=D
OUR BELOVED SENIOR!!
m I LOVE DRAMA!! I LOVE STAGE ART!!! u love it too rite..

how i wish im in ilham's shoe man... wanita...... XD
wad in the world is yana doing?
amin is possesed
i have a chrush on the waitress
into the character. yana doing a great job

i just LOVE this
~~~ in the name of god, we fly ~~~
all the oreo in the world unite...
1 is never enough~~~
germaine and jingwei

this is all for our good grades.. i have no choice.. their height is just nice man! yana, great being short!
GATSBY TIME
aftermatch of gatsby
everyone is into fun, but wanita still staying strong and sexy as ever.. woooo

just before the show start..
peter: why did you scold my son?!?!
coach: you wan to know how i kick-some-balls?!?!
coach: OH DAMN! WHO IS THIS? she's too hot for me to get near.. nicky: im going to do anything to get my good grades... come on baby...
ashely: IM NOT ALEX! IM ASHELY!!!
coach: ashely, do NOT tok to me in that tone

amin the mirror mover
our asst stage manager

but i forgot her name

damn...

erny(did i spell it correctly?) our stage manager
i cant resist the temptation... GOSH
the pole.. the pole... pole.. anyone care to dance?

1 is good, 2 is great, 3 is.......
now 4............................
neutural expression happy expression

nicky the stairs mover

its going to be full in another few min....
coach and stage manager
leandra( did i spell correctly?) and kaye
amin: im cool~~

nadira: just fake a smile and take photo with him la

nadia: do i realli need to take photo with him....

why am i the onli one wearing white??? final round!

who will be the onli host tat appear on the stage
hot and sexy~~~ aisha
jingwei
this proves how though production is............

yana stone-ing
the cool peepz
the jesters and the director fazz, he rock.
in the toilet????
peacock showing off...(yana still stone-ing)

and she stone again
er... amin and sanwan???
u cant resist the temptation to see it
the jesters~~~~~~
and yana stone-ing

A.J. trying to be nicky
still trying.........
and stone-ing......
still trying.........
aiya A.J.... giv up la... nicky rocks..... haiz....

nice leg eunice......
u cant see me... u cant see me....
still stone-ing................. and stone-ing...............
our dearest aisha

okay~~ im realli not used to having make up
our sexy make up artist.......................
come on yana follow me!! YEA YANA!! GO YANA
erm amin?
amin look cool here

amin look horny here

amin look retraded here I JUST CANT RESIST THE TEMPTATION TO THOUCH THOSE ARSE
simi stone-ing
full power stone-ing
love the make-up artise

like ilham say, how many years ago?
amin and yana. WHERE IS ME AND SANWAN?!
SA DANCE!!! DANZINC ROCK!!!!!!!!! into character =D

on stage...

HARD WORK PAID OFF me and kenny..
me into character and freak-ed out kenny
me and yanrong the virus

PEOPLE! OFF THIS WINDOW! WHEN U SEE THIS PICTURE U ALREADY HAD VIRUS ON UR DESKTOP! GOSH!! I SHOULDNT POSTED THIS PHOTO! THE FACE! ARR! :P

just for her

2007-08-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

this is for the gal, whom i owe to..

she helped me through the production, alot.

she gave me advice, when i feel lost.

she show me light, when im realli lost.

she asked me to blog about her, but i forgot.

she make me laugh, when my nose is blocked.

she appears in my life, when i hope its a dream

she appears in my dream, when im having nightmare...

i realli thank you alot...
my dear anjana... =D (now i bloged about u already, happy?)

aftermatch of production

2007-08-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

YAWN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

FINALLY GUYS!
IGTR!!!!
(i got to rest)

woke up at 11am+ this morning, which means i got like 9hrs+ of sleep u noe!?!? first time ever since so long.. phew~~ woke up, eat breakfast,blog ab the last entry, do house work, tok to friends on msn abit, go sleep for another 2 hour.. woke up at ab 6, watch ndp abit... at about 7 i sleep again.. for like 1hour... wake up... go buy food and eat.. then come and blog this entry..

SLACKY DAY.

shiok. never felt this way since... donno when, but wad i know is, def not felt it within the 3mth of preparation of production... finally, recharged. ready do give it all out for the up coming adventures for my life..

My simple blog

I MOVED MY BLOG! again..... so sorry..

CNY cum Vday cum EXAM

dreams

fuck my life

PHOTOSHOOT SESSION!!!

gained weight.

so long never post.

my blog moved!!!

emotional day

stress

THANX YANA!!

nipple song.

open house

i will try.

tired

PHOTOMANIA

im sorry.

NEW YEAR WISH!!!

long post.

short post

i hate myself

stupid

L A O S A I I N G A R R ~ ~ ~

fat gay dancer

Win - Brian McKnight

?

alumni nite

a normal post

lunch

need your help

IM SO HAPPY!!

it was so fun~~~

spent money again.

4th dance performance.

barbie

im a cock-a-na-than.

my cheoro.

my monday

recharged through the weekends

assessment over

dance assessment day..

4days!

pulling up my socks

tml i will die

sick

rest

TODAY IS MY DAY!

im screwed.

IM NOT LATE FOR SCHOOL!

IT1844

wierd

breaking down

new colour scheme

STEAMBOAT DAY!

danz inc camp ROCK MAN

a slacky wed

ahh~~ my back~~

my blog is alive

$71.50

my stressless day

sian-ness

i did something stupid

so long didnt post liao

first day with my jazz shoes

wad a nice morning..

i spraine my left ankle again...

slacking day

jitterbug day

energy zero...

monday

swollen hand

i got my life back!!

YAWN~~~

heading towards 2nd paper

sunday

my saturday

friday

exam starting..

normal tuesday

ahh my back