fuck day

*this is going to be a long post and its a post that i pour out my feelings. if u don like old grandmother story i advice u to skip this post. cos u will sleep*

today, was a total screwed up.
oop i is like, gave up on today's lesson. tried to listen to the 1st 20min, but totally knocked out by the subject. and cos i changed my bag, forgot to bring th damb bloody paper... so gotta borrow the paper from phillip to copy when i reach home..

then COS, another lame shit class. totaly learn nth la... like he is reading out from the book.. and nth much to say already

now. drama. shit man.
today's practice and everything was okay, first time practicing inside TFA. today is like setting the lighting and so.. so hardly train la... but im damn _____ (i donno to use the word pissed, irritated, angry, annoyed, *&^% or other words. hope u noe wad i mean) with a person's attitude.

don bloody come and tell me 'see first la, i will be having a long day tml' when i ask u weather or not u coming for drama, it just make me wanna slap u. it all links down to your commitement level, responsiblity, and effort!!! you think only you are buzy? you think only you having a hard time?? when will YOU bloody wake up and stop being so selfish? only thinking about yourself. and if you are going to think that you are a lousy actor SO BE IT!! it's your choice to work hard and become a good actor OR just use an excuess like 'i will go home and practice' and come back with the same problem, and stay as a loser. and if you feel like quiting drama, so be it... and looking on how things are going, i will not be amazed if you don appear on the production day itself..

so drama ended at about 10 today. reach home like 1030? and then i realise that i might miss the laptop loan again.

as your can see from my previous posts, im acctually quite buzy. on top of that, i didnt post any of my study session.. (who the hell wan to know about it right?) so, i asked my family to settle my note book loan thing for me. but ended up??? NOTHING IS DONE! when is the dead line? 31st july. what is the date now(just now)??? 30th july. sumbiting thoe online stuff was nothing. but then, when it comes to submiting the CPF forms and all these, there were like hack care la! is like, im trying my veri best to solve the problem here, instead of helping my, ur just sit beside me and watch ur fucking cardcaptor sakura?!?!?! and turn to me and tell me'share the laptop for one more term la....'. is like WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUR BRAIN! HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL YOU BOTH ME AND MY SIS NEED OUR OWN LAPTOP! yes we don need to use it every single day, but the fucked up part is you wan to use it on the day i wan to use. and when things screw up, then point the finger to me and say 'who ask you do last min work', and give me that face..

then, the last min flag day on 18th august, its like 4 days b4 exam?? up till now i still don have the time to go settle the email and so. july accounting i also need to start doing, or not i will get realli messy when it reach august. luckliy july onli like got the camp. easier to do.

seriously i feel like breaking apart already, but STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!! work EVEN HARDER!!! FUCK CARE ALL THE FUCKING STUFF!!! STUDY AHHHHHH!!!!!!