swollen hand

my right hand is so cute now... its used to be fat, now its fatter. ITS SWOLLEN! -.- so freaking fat and pain.. hope it get better before monday man... think i over used it during thurs practice.

talking about thurs practice, it was such a WONDERFUL experience... kanna wack at my balls not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES! first is by our dear amin, then is germaine the cutie, then is the stupid me... -,- but i don blame amin and ger cos its realli an accident... haiz.... hope still can give birth sia.

got quite freaking angry with my family.. got quite a small fight with my mum and sis to go to YCS s.d. is like its not totally my fault to not go cover your shift at dad's work place! i know u have a back pain but i agreed others to be their facil! and don give me that ****ing attitude when i tries to explaine to u. and im now searching for jobs, again. wan me to work to feed my self? i can. but wan me to work and quit stage art? **** OFF!!!! i said i don mind having work, ycs, drama, dance, study cos im doing the thing i like. so i don mind being tired if i can dance and drama. but guess wad my mum reply?? 'i mind'. u wan me to have one less comitment and thats y i quited job with u comforming that u can feed me and buy me a laptop. now u say wan me to fed myself im okay, im OKAY with any thing ur wan. but DON DON DON DON DON ASK ME TO QUIT STAGE ART! if u don wan me to be 'tired', issint it a more easier way to giv me YOUR support, which is what i need, rather then pulling me down?! GRRR!!! WHY AM I STILL SO STRESS AFTER EXAM?!?!?!?! and guess wad? chuyuan(hope i spell correctly) say that she (or apple i donno who) proposed for me to dance for youthachivers 1year anniversary party, guess its time to sabo alfred and zishan they all. =D drag them down and we dance some disco type stupid dance XD (imagine alfred doing that make me laugh liao)

my brain is like overloading with thoughts now adays. my that useless full time advisor is like doing nothing... cann be trusted.. HAIZ X5

suppose to go to dragon house for prayer tonite one.. but staied at home instead to please my mum... like just going down and down some more... im getting closer to my ups i hope..