breaking down

well my friends. guess wad username i type when i tried to sgin in to blogger. 'breakdown'.

funny rite?!? i also donno why i type tat. but seriously. i realli feel likebreaking down. things seems to be just too hard for me to handle. wads my life like now? wake up, washup, school, break time practice dance, after school go for drama, after drama go to dance practice, go home sleep. with this hetic life, i pray and i wish and i hope and i pray harder that YCS pls don have anyevents near this time. and guess my prayer wasnt heard. dickson sms me tat this sat got a metting with IYCS member, and this thurs need to go pick up 1 IYCS member from the airport and tour him around singapore. i realli realli realli cannot get out from my drama and dance practice. yesterday i was late for dance for 30min and i guess peter was realli unhapy about it. drama? anjana and shida had already gave in so much for me, if i even didnt come for sat, i wonder wad to do for drama nite which is next fri.

so i sms dickson saying that i cannot make it cos i don even have time to study! then he ask me, 'why do u go and find so many commitment when u know u are in YCS exco'. i asked myself tat question...

my friends beside me, as in realli friendS, asked me to quit YCS. and guess wad, my family is so pissed with me to be in YCS. how the hell am i going to committeinto YCS??? my family is like shit now, my sis dosent wan to talk to me, my dad is... , my mum is so stress. further more, i need to work after 2nov cos i seriously need money. rite now im still thinking of ways to get my textbook, notes, and even admin card which is lost in the hands of my friend. MONEY!

saw rene on the way out to sch after dance yesterday. talked to her about my stagearts problem. feel alittle better now, but still veri bad. thanx rene.

was looking at the clouds a min ago. so feel like lying on one of it, and just comfortably rest there and don think of anything. enjoying the wind, feel the sun, have nothing to worrie about. but then there will not be any prata there so, drop tat idea.