today was my 4th dance performance... the crowd was.. veri little i must say.. but still, i did full out. haha.
but the cool thing was, went to eat prata with everyone SHIOK!!! muaha ha. and before that, josh taught us a cheror. 3eights, its nice!!! loved it. then go arcard and play. DAMN NICE! BISHI BASHI! MX DANCE! THE HIT THE PLATE THINGY! MUA HA HA! i noe i shouldnt be spending all these money, and i should save money, but today is SHIOK! realli relaxed. then after tat go eat mos! talk alot of carp and jokes with jess and alision.. and i did something stupid. i asked the same thing for 4 time. braindead.
stomach feeling unwell the whole day,not feeling good the whole day. and i got a new problem in my family tat just pop up. i can pull through this. i believe.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
barbie
OMG!!! THE SONG BARBIE GAL IS STUCKED IN MY HEAD!!
yesteday went back ycs end of year cmap. went there, did prep for 'wanhui' with my team. for the skit they planned of doing deal or no deal, and the mv they doing barbie gal.. for some wierd and i donno wad reason, irwin acctually have the song barbie gal in his phone. i asked him why the hell u have tat song in ur phone? he give me the issnt-it-obvious smile... i was like okay...
so i thought of some dance move(more like poses) for them... then steph be ken(the guy), irwin, reginald, andrew and me be the barbie. LOL!!! okay... so... now the song is still in my head. damn.
and guess wad.. when i doing my cheoro.. i hit on my right knee again.. and this time, not onli the knee. the toe also... blueblack inside the toe... pain.....
reach bk home, eat the cha shao fan tat i da bao... eat finish, i just knocked off, and fell asleep on the living room floor. tillab 530 in the morning i woke up, move to my room, continue to sleep. forgot to bath, cos i eat finish i just knocked off liao...
need do a veri hard graphic desgin thing already.. wan to eat prata also..
yesteday went back ycs end of year cmap. went there, did prep for 'wanhui' with my team. for the skit they planned of doing deal or no deal, and the mv they doing barbie gal.. for some wierd and i donno wad reason, irwin acctually have the song barbie gal in his phone. i asked him why the hell u have tat song in ur phone? he give me the issnt-it-obvious smile... i was like okay...
so i thought of some dance move(more like poses) for them... then steph be ken(the guy), irwin, reginald, andrew and me be the barbie. LOL!!! okay... so... now the song is still in my head. damn.
and guess wad.. when i doing my cheoro.. i hit on my right knee again.. and this time, not onli the knee. the toe also... blueblack inside the toe... pain.....
reach bk home, eat the cha shao fan tat i da bao... eat finish, i just knocked off, and fell asleep on the living room floor. tillab 530 in the morning i woke up, move to my room, continue to sleep. forgot to bath, cos i eat finish i just knocked off liao...
need do a veri hard graphic desgin thing already.. wan to eat prata also..
Sunday, November 25, 2007
im a cock-a-na-than.
GOSH MAN IM SO COCK!
lets start with friday.
end sch at 12, so went to blk e to lepak, slack, rest and enjoy. cos i forgot to bring my admin card and lazy to go through so much trouble to get into sports hall to meet yan. alittle later amin joined me, dough i wanted to rest, in the end i still danced for him. but after like 30 min i realli cannot dahan, cos i hurt my left ankel the day before, when showing peter my cheoro. cant even walk without pain la.. haha. so i stayed at blk e, play hero, read blog, do hmwk, then go home.
reach home at about 4 which is DAMN FREAKING EARLY FOR ME LA! cos im quite shag after the week ( not sleeping for 2 days straight to study and do ycs and dancing everyday for showcase to peter ), first thing i did when i went home is sleep. at about 8 like this my mum came into my room, stand at the door there, and call and wake me up... for some god knows reason the first thing i did is, went up right infront my mum face and did a preperation for jete in front of her. she was like 'WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING LA!?' then i answer, 'ya hor? what am i doing arr?', then i go back to sleep.. then she wake me up again to go eat. so i force myself to wake up and eat then thing tat i tot was my breakfast (it was my dinner but i tot its breakfast), curry. after eating finish, i went online, did finish my ycs report, settle the stuff with the logistic for ycs camp, went back to sleep..
next morning (sat), i woke up, i see the time 0800, i was like fuck.. im late for school again... i change into my go-to-school clothing, take my laptop, ready to head for school. then i think, its sunday wad.. why i go for school for?? THEN IT SNAP TO MY MIND! FUCK!! TODAY SUNDAY! TML YCS CAMP!! I HAVENT COME OUT WITH BURGET! i open my laptop, and start to do the ycs report and try to do the burget. then i found out, aa.. i did it. OOOOOOO!! i did it last nite when im half asleep. i can acctually do my job while sleeping/sleepwalking or wadever u call it. i went through it, okay its nicely done, bravo to me. then i wanted to go back sleep again. then i lie on the bed then i JUMP UP AGAIN! wait, if yesterday is friday, then today is saturday. i look at the time, 0830. FUCK! IM LATE FOR WORK!!!
in the end im late for 15min at my dad's workplace...
cock rite?i noe.
i found tat im quite cock when i just wake up, like went up straight to my mum's face and do a preperation for jete... and at ycs exco camp i went and stood right infront of daph.. and at dance camp, i donno wad am i saying to zelia, and i also donno wad she saying to me..
let me touch on dance camp. zelia she is the time keeper, so she came to tell us that its 630 already, 30min to reporting time. then she was like
'nick arr, 630 already'
'huh?'
'630 already'
'huh? 1130??'
'*stunned* "something something" 630 already'
'*i forgot wad crap i said already"
until awhile, i think she is trying to say somethign to me, but i don understand. so after zee went off, i turn to lexiang who is sleeping beside me. i go
'lexiang, wake up, zelia looking for u'
then once i see him wake up, i went to sleep.
then just before i fell asleep again, i understood wad she say, so i woke up again.
another cock thing that i kept doing onli recently is, i say things tat i don mean to. example.
tat time self practice for dance, then i nth to do so i go buy things from mac for zee and treasa and jess and huifang. then i brought fries for me zee treasa... at first i wanted to eat my fries on the way but then cos the ppl underpack, so i decided to save it till i reach blk e then i enjoy.. but donno why the hell, i go tell zee ' at first i wan to tou chi the frice on the way one' and onli 3 days later then i ask myself, why the HELL did i say that. then i have alot of miscom with germaine lately and i got no idea why?! cos like im braindead recently, and things just don process in my head... so anyone, if i offended u, pls fogiveme. :D
got more cockanathan thing to blog, but tired. shall go rest... bb
lets start with friday.
end sch at 12, so went to blk e to lepak, slack, rest and enjoy. cos i forgot to bring my admin card and lazy to go through so much trouble to get into sports hall to meet yan. alittle later amin joined me, dough i wanted to rest, in the end i still danced for him. but after like 30 min i realli cannot dahan, cos i hurt my left ankel the day before, when showing peter my cheoro. cant even walk without pain la.. haha. so i stayed at blk e, play hero, read blog, do hmwk, then go home.
reach home at about 4 which is DAMN FREAKING EARLY FOR ME LA! cos im quite shag after the week ( not sleeping for 2 days straight to study and do ycs and dancing everyday for showcase to peter ), first thing i did when i went home is sleep. at about 8 like this my mum came into my room, stand at the door there, and call and wake me up... for some god knows reason the first thing i did is, went up right infront my mum face and did a preperation for jete in front of her. she was like 'WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING LA!?' then i answer, 'ya hor? what am i doing arr?', then i go back to sleep.. then she wake me up again to go eat. so i force myself to wake up and eat then thing tat i tot was my breakfast (it was my dinner but i tot its breakfast), curry. after eating finish, i went online, did finish my ycs report, settle the stuff with the logistic for ycs camp, went back to sleep..
next morning (sat), i woke up, i see the time 0800, i was like fuck.. im late for school again... i change into my go-to-school clothing, take my laptop, ready to head for school. then i think, its sunday wad.. why i go for school for?? THEN IT SNAP TO MY MIND! FUCK!! TODAY SUNDAY! TML YCS CAMP!! I HAVENT COME OUT WITH BURGET! i open my laptop, and start to do the ycs report and try to do the burget. then i found out, aa.. i did it. OOOOOOO!! i did it last nite when im half asleep. i can acctually do my job while sleeping/sleepwalking or wadever u call it. i went through it, okay its nicely done, bravo to me. then i wanted to go back sleep again. then i lie on the bed then i JUMP UP AGAIN! wait, if yesterday is friday, then today is saturday. i look at the time, 0830. FUCK! IM LATE FOR WORK!!!
in the end im late for 15min at my dad's workplace...
cock rite?i noe.
i found tat im quite cock when i just wake up, like went up straight to my mum's face and do a preperation for jete... and at ycs exco camp i went and stood right infront of daph.. and at dance camp, i donno wad am i saying to zelia, and i also donno wad she saying to me..
let me touch on dance camp. zelia she is the time keeper, so she came to tell us that its 630 already, 30min to reporting time. then she was like
'nick arr, 630 already'
'huh?'
'630 already'
'huh? 1130??'
'*stunned* "something something" 630 already'
'*i forgot wad crap i said already"
until awhile, i think she is trying to say somethign to me, but i don understand. so after zee went off, i turn to lexiang who is sleeping beside me. i go
'lexiang, wake up, zelia looking for u'
then once i see him wake up, i went to sleep.
then just before i fell asleep again, i understood wad she say, so i woke up again.
another cock thing that i kept doing onli recently is, i say things tat i don mean to. example.
tat time self practice for dance, then i nth to do so i go buy things from mac for zee and treasa and jess and huifang. then i brought fries for me zee treasa... at first i wanted to eat my fries on the way but then cos the ppl underpack, so i decided to save it till i reach blk e then i enjoy.. but donno why the hell, i go tell zee ' at first i wan to tou chi the frice on the way one' and onli 3 days later then i ask myself, why the HELL did i say that. then i have alot of miscom with germaine lately and i got no idea why?! cos like im braindead recently, and things just don process in my head... so anyone, if i offended u, pls fogiveme. :D
got more cockanathan thing to blog, but tired. shall go rest... bb
Friday, November 23, 2007
my cheoro.
talking about my cheoro, i havent named my cheoro! haha. was thinking thinking thinking... thought of naming it the same as my o'level art piece 'sadness of the storyteller', but dosent realli fit, cos i was thinking more to 'sadness + denied'. so, still need to go crack my brain. aiyo, i noe it dosent realli matter to come out with a name for it la, but just trying to realli 'complete' it. like got a whole picture liao, but lack of the title, sad u noe...
acctually, my choero is about a sad person's mindset. sometimes, when people are sad, they just going around finding help from others. but deep down inside, they forgot to help themselves. ended up, when they are alone, they donno wad to do, donno wad choice to make. they will hide themselves into even deeper sorrow to make them feel better, but the truth is it makes them feel worst. the answer to their problems is infront of them, telling them wad is the right thing to do, but they did not follow it, and make the wrong choice, even when they know wad is right deep down in their heart. so they just make the same mistake again.. and again.. and again.. and each time the mistake repeats, it get worst, and worst, and worst. and in my cheoro, i pictured at the end tat the person is stuck inside his own sorrows, and was suck into it and no longer can get away from it. (depression? mental-disabled? blood vessle burst?)
i really donno wad to choose. i realli donno wad to do.
and now i made a choice, i did it. but was wad i did right?
i donno
im still confused about what i did. and what i want. its like what i want to be is so unreachable. i have living proves to tell me its impossible, but still i hanged on for 6mths. now is the clam period, i wonder when is the next wave coming in.
physically drained, from dance
mentally drained, from school
emotionally drained, from those people behind the wall
how i wish was my fats that got drained away instead. then i can be as thin as zelia(last time)
cant wait for april to come. when i will have one thing less to commite to.
and somehow, im dancing out my life in my choero.
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dance practice today, the attendance was like, bad? onli like got 10 people in the studio, FREAKING COLD LA! so there were
-me
-amin
-lexiang
-carla
-jess
-huifang
-germaine
-treasa
-meixian
-zelia
tats all. like so little la.. do basic warm up, splits(like thank god! cos before practice i was praying to do splits for warm-up. for those who saw my cheoro should know why, cos i not as pro as zee and treasa), crunches, hand excersice, then peter came. then he ask us show cheoro, it goes like this
-lexiang
-carla
-meixian & treasa
-germaine
-me
-huifang and jess
-me and amin
-zee and treasa
after germaine then i snap to my mind, onli got 10 ppl lay, then got 2 pair(not counting me and amin), then all the soloist going dance finish, should faster go, or not later dance finish my one then dance amin one, i will die!!!!! in the end peter's comments on all our choero was not bad, but my one i need to work on it la, like alot more... i bang on my left ankle. onli when i not warm already then i felt the strain... shit man.. thinking of cutting short my cheoro or do sth to it, cos peter's feedback is tat mine is draggy, so need to work on it...
then after seeing cheoro, peter told us tat he sack the sch, and the sch sack him. so tues will be his last training with us. dough he is veri strick to us, but its realli his strickness tat make us grow la.. i donno issit to others but it is to me la... but its also the strickness tat make alot ppl quit.. when i join danzinc, i cant even do a pencil turn, and i tot i will fail the audition la.. is like through this 6mths, i realli think that peter made me grow more than i thought i would before i join(dough im still like shit now).
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AND I DAMN COCK U NOE!?
today at DEP was sitting with yana, then talking about drama, then i tell her i not going this wk la, cos its my sis birthday, then i need work in place of her to let her go celebrate. then i think, my sis birthday near my birthday lay, then i took out the calander, i count. OMG! ITS 13DAYS AWAY! I DIDNT NOTICE! like wtf la! i acctually forgot about my OWN birthday.. guess my no-life life realli turning me to no life, my birthday also didnt occour to me. thinking of how to celebrate... but i rather stay in sch, at blk e with my friends, rather with my family lay..
time to go bk to study and doing the report for ycs. not going to sleep again tonite.
p.s. if any one have a good suggestion to the title for my cheoro, feel free to giv me a helping hand ya =D
acctually, my choero is about a sad person's mindset. sometimes, when people are sad, they just going around finding help from others. but deep down inside, they forgot to help themselves. ended up, when they are alone, they donno wad to do, donno wad choice to make. they will hide themselves into even deeper sorrow to make them feel better, but the truth is it makes them feel worst. the answer to their problems is infront of them, telling them wad is the right thing to do, but they did not follow it, and make the wrong choice, even when they know wad is right deep down in their heart. so they just make the same mistake again.. and again.. and again.. and each time the mistake repeats, it get worst, and worst, and worst. and in my cheoro, i pictured at the end tat the person is stuck inside his own sorrows, and was suck into it and no longer can get away from it. (depression? mental-disabled? blood vessle burst?)
i really donno wad to choose. i realli donno wad to do.
and now i made a choice, i did it. but was wad i did right?
i donno
im still confused about what i did. and what i want. its like what i want to be is so unreachable. i have living proves to tell me its impossible, but still i hanged on for 6mths. now is the clam period, i wonder when is the next wave coming in.
physically drained, from dance
mentally drained, from school
emotionally drained, from those people behind the wall
how i wish was my fats that got drained away instead. then i can be as thin as zelia(last time)
cant wait for april to come. when i will have one thing less to commite to.
and somehow, im dancing out my life in my choero.
________________________________________________
dance practice today, the attendance was like, bad? onli like got 10 people in the studio, FREAKING COLD LA! so there were
-me
-amin
-lexiang
-carla
-jess
-huifang
-germaine
-treasa
-meixian
-zelia
tats all. like so little la.. do basic warm up, splits(like thank god! cos before practice i was praying to do splits for warm-up. for those who saw my cheoro should know why, cos i not as pro as zee and treasa), crunches, hand excersice, then peter came. then he ask us show cheoro, it goes like this
-lexiang
-carla
-meixian & treasa
-germaine
-me
-huifang and jess
-me and amin
-zee and treasa
after germaine then i snap to my mind, onli got 10 ppl lay, then got 2 pair(not counting me and amin), then all the soloist going dance finish, should faster go, or not later dance finish my one then dance amin one, i will die!!!!! in the end peter's comments on all our choero was not bad, but my one i need to work on it la, like alot more... i bang on my left ankle. onli when i not warm already then i felt the strain... shit man.. thinking of cutting short my cheoro or do sth to it, cos peter's feedback is tat mine is draggy, so need to work on it...
then after seeing cheoro, peter told us tat he sack the sch, and the sch sack him. so tues will be his last training with us. dough he is veri strick to us, but its realli his strickness tat make us grow la.. i donno issit to others but it is to me la... but its also the strickness tat make alot ppl quit.. when i join danzinc, i cant even do a pencil turn, and i tot i will fail the audition la.. is like through this 6mths, i realli think that peter made me grow more than i thought i would before i join(dough im still like shit now).
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AND I DAMN COCK U NOE!?
today at DEP was sitting with yana, then talking about drama, then i tell her i not going this wk la, cos its my sis birthday, then i need work in place of her to let her go celebrate. then i think, my sis birthday near my birthday lay, then i took out the calander, i count. OMG! ITS 13DAYS AWAY! I DIDNT NOTICE! like wtf la! i acctually forgot about my OWN birthday.. guess my no-life life realli turning me to no life, my birthday also didnt occour to me. thinking of how to celebrate... but i rather stay in sch, at blk e with my friends, rather with my family lay..
time to go bk to study and doing the report for ycs. not going to sleep again tonite.
p.s. if any one have a good suggestion to the title for my cheoro, feel free to giv me a helping hand ya =D
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
my monday
woke up LATE! SHIT MAN! forgot to put alarm clock then go to sleep. how cock can i be?
veri cock~~~
maths test today was easy for me.. finished the test in 15min. then slowly pack my pack, slowly send the file to teacher, then slowly walk of the room. so by right i end sch at 12noon, so now by left i end sch at 1130. then practice my GD at blkE till germaine they all come, then practice dance with amin. guess wad. amin + mine cheoro, i totally fall on my right knee not twice, 3time! pain shit man...after the first time i cannot do full out already.. but tried again and again, then got my 2nd, then 3rd. sadded.
talked alot of cock with zeee today. MUA HA HA HA.. alot of jokes man... inculding the questions arr? i know wad u thinking(the 20 question thingy)... LMAO! and it takes 2 to 'enjoy' a cup~~~ OMG!!! and the rice BALLS!!! ARR!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! LUMSACO!! welcome to beautiful jameka(issit spelt this way?)!! ur son make fun of me??? *side track abit* the dwafs don have place to stay. OMG LA!!
gosh.. don think i will be sleeping today. just don feel like sleeping. so many things bothering me.. guess will take this time to study abit.. PMP lesson coming soon.. better do something before going to the lesson, or not lostin the 3hour lab again.
btw, lum-sa-co means...
laugh until my shit all come off.
veri cock~~~
maths test today was easy for me.. finished the test in 15min. then slowly pack my pack, slowly send the file to teacher, then slowly walk of the room. so by right i end sch at 12noon, so now by left i end sch at 1130. then practice my GD at blkE till germaine they all come, then practice dance with amin. guess wad. amin + mine cheoro, i totally fall on my right knee not twice, 3time! pain shit man...after the first time i cannot do full out already.. but tried again and again, then got my 2nd, then 3rd. sadded.
talked alot of cock with zeee today. MUA HA HA HA.. alot of jokes man... inculding the questions arr? i know wad u thinking(the 20 question thingy)... LMAO! and it takes 2 to 'enjoy' a cup~~~ OMG!!! and the rice BALLS!!! ARR!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! LUMSACO!! welcome to beautiful jameka(issit spelt this way?)!! ur son make fun of me??? *side track abit* the dwafs don have place to stay. OMG LA!!
gosh.. don think i will be sleeping today. just don feel like sleeping. so many things bothering me.. guess will take this time to study abit.. PMP lesson coming soon.. better do something before going to the lesson, or not lostin the 3hour lab again.
btw, lum-sa-co means...
laugh until my shit all come off.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
recharged through the weekends
didnt sleep well for thurs and fri nite, doing my self studies at home cos i seriously missed out alot. sat drama session was fun, play quite a few fun and meaningful game conducted by sara and anjana. WEE~~ 3 CHEERSFOR UR~~~ left early for ycs meeting.. it starts at 1300 and i left drama at 1330. lol.
and now? its sunday for god sake! damn i slept till 1200+ man... and slack through out the whole day... rested, recharger, relexed. if i can get back on track for PMP, IAD, DE and the VB thingy, then will be good. realli need to buck up on my gpa, too freaking low.
havent been stretching for these pass 3 days(including today).. should i go stretch now? cos im kinda lazy todaya dn today suppose to be my lepak day...
aiyo.. see how bah. :D
OH AND AND AND! ATE 1 BANANA PRATA AND 1 NORMAL PRATA LAST NITE! school one tase much nicer... but its still not bad la.... just love pratas~~~
and now? its sunday for god sake! damn i slept till 1200+ man... and slack through out the whole day... rested, recharger, relexed. if i can get back on track for PMP, IAD, DE and the VB thingy, then will be good. realli need to buck up on my gpa, too freaking low.
havent been stretching for these pass 3 days(including today).. should i go stretch now? cos im kinda lazy todaya dn today suppose to be my lepak day...
aiyo.. see how bah. :D
OH AND AND AND! ATE 1 BANANA PRATA AND 1 NORMAL PRATA LAST NITE! school one tase much nicer... but its still not bad la.... just love pratas~~~
Friday, November 16, 2007
assessment over
the pervious post is just to vend out my thoughts. so yea, its okay if u don understand...
OMG ZEEE!! UR TAT SONG SO FREAKING NICE LA!! I KEPT LISTENING LA... OMG!!!
haha.. assessment is over. finally, and guess wad?!? today i acctually reach home at 3!!! first time reach so early man.. still having cold war with my family. shit do happenes..
don feel like blogging liao. come bk tml yea?? =D
OMG ZEEE!! UR TAT SONG SO FREAKING NICE LA!! I KEPT LISTENING LA... OMG!!!
haha.. assessment is over. finally, and guess wad?!? today i acctually reach home at 3!!! first time reach so early man.. still having cold war with my family. shit do happenes..
don feel like blogging liao. come bk tml yea?? =D
did i make the right decision?
did i make the right choice?
what if wad i did was wrong?
but what can show me that what i did was wrong?
i want to stay in that place,
enjoying every moment i'm spending there.
it's okay if i make myself tired,
but is it okay to cause trouble to other?
they are trying to help me so much,
but i believe there is a limit to it.
i cannot be too selfish,
i cannot be too self centered,
i cannot make myself to ask for anything more..
cos i did nothing but creating trouble for them..
and you!
who ever you may be..
please,
show me the way,
lead me to the light,
leave me with no regret.
cos i don wan to be this anymore...
Thursday, November 15, 2007
dance assessment day..
sorri for not blogging for so long. don have the mood plus don have the time.
this week from mon to thurs(today) im dancing... why? for assessment is one thing, don wan to go home is one thing.
i hate going home where by my family will start asking me to quit SA. i don't want to quit! why don they understand.. they asking me why i come home so late this wk, i wish to tell them 'don wan see ur face'. so in the end, quarrle again. shit man.
going to request a break from drama till alumni nite over to forcus on my studies. reason being, i believe drama is easier to catch up then dance. still considering.. but answer need to be out by sat, don wish to delay it any further. for the good of me and my family.
told my sis i going to take a break for drama til alumni nite, guess wad the fuck she say? 'then like this the period u step down is more then the activity time wad. u step down 1mth then u got activity for 2 mth, if u step down one mthmore then u bz for 2 mth again. then ur step down period is less then ur activity period wad' LIKE WTF IS TAT BIMBO THINKING LA! WAD! WAD SHE WAN! BREAK 1 YEAR GO 1 TRAINING THEN BREAK ANOTHER YEAR LA! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
*change topic*
bad luck on tuesday.. normal practice from 1830 till ab 2000+. tried PK double turn but failed... ya ya ya i noe i fell again.. like normal liao lo.. cos im the onli one in class who can turn until fell down one. always.. haiz... haha chee seng was damn damn damn nice. the thing he teach realli work ur mussle la.. haha. alot of nice movements and got one part of my cheoro is jump up then slide on the floor one, he also teach it. finally i learnt how to do it correctly. MUA HA HA HA HA! so nice... mussle ache like shit la...
took bus with julian to go bk home. was such a great time, cos julian just kept helping me with my cheoro and telling me where to improve. sooo nice of him la.... and also because of him i think my chero is a littlebit nicer now. HOHO. and guess wad happen on wed morning?!?!
LAOSAI ARR!! FROM 0500 TO 0800 SIA!!!! with chee sing class mussle ache plus laosai,
leg = jelly
now both my knee got blue black (thanx to nicholas who is not able to hold himself), and my shoulder(thanx to nocholas who is not able to hold himself)...
ZEEEE!! I NEED TO HERO TO DESTRESS LA!!!! BUT I GOT NO TIME!! HOW?!?!?
for some reason, i think im dancing out my life in my choero.
pls. show me the way, lead me to the light, leave me with no regret, cos i don wan to be stay in here anymore.
this week from mon to thurs(today) im dancing... why? for assessment is one thing, don wan to go home is one thing.
i hate going home where by my family will start asking me to quit SA. i don't want to quit! why don they understand.. they asking me why i come home so late this wk, i wish to tell them 'don wan see ur face'. so in the end, quarrle again. shit man.
going to request a break from drama till alumni nite over to forcus on my studies. reason being, i believe drama is easier to catch up then dance. still considering.. but answer need to be out by sat, don wish to delay it any further. for the good of me and my family.
told my sis i going to take a break for drama til alumni nite, guess wad the fuck she say? 'then like this the period u step down is more then the activity time wad. u step down 1mth then u got activity for 2 mth, if u step down one mthmore then u bz for 2 mth again. then ur step down period is less then ur activity period wad' LIKE WTF IS TAT BIMBO THINKING LA! WAD! WAD SHE WAN! BREAK 1 YEAR GO 1 TRAINING THEN BREAK ANOTHER YEAR LA! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
*change topic*
bad luck on tuesday.. normal practice from 1830 till ab 2000+. tried PK double turn but failed... ya ya ya i noe i fell again.. like normal liao lo.. cos im the onli one in class who can turn until fell down one. always.. haiz... haha chee seng was damn damn damn nice. the thing he teach realli work ur mussle la.. haha. alot of nice movements and got one part of my cheoro is jump up then slide on the floor one, he also teach it. finally i learnt how to do it correctly. MUA HA HA HA HA! so nice... mussle ache like shit la...
took bus with julian to go bk home. was such a great time, cos julian just kept helping me with my cheoro and telling me where to improve. sooo nice of him la.... and also because of him i think my chero is a littlebit nicer now. HOHO. and guess wad happen on wed morning?!?!
LAOSAI ARR!! FROM 0500 TO 0800 SIA!!!! with chee sing class mussle ache plus laosai,
leg = jelly
now both my knee got blue black (thanx to nicholas who is not able to hold himself), and my shoulder(thanx to nocholas who is not able to hold himself)...
ZEEEE!! I NEED TO HERO TO DESTRESS LA!!!! BUT I GOT NO TIME!! HOW?!?!?
for some reason, i think im dancing out my life in my choero.
pls. show me the way, lead me to the light, leave me with no regret, cos i don wan to be stay in here anymore.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Friday, November 9, 2007
4days!
OMG OMG OMG!! I BREAK THE RECORD FOR THIS SEM!! I WAS PRESENT IN SCHOOL AND ALL THE CLASSES FOR 4 FREAKING DAYS!! WOOHOO!!!!!
so freakig tired... and i realli hate sitting beside yana, she wont stop looking at my post, and now she is reading out my post... and i think she is having a interner struggle on who to see after this.. so sad.
was realli realli happy today, cos yesterday i realli did some selfstudies myself, and todya, my first friday lesson in this whole sem, i scored 10/10 for my quiz (so do yana she say)!!! OMG!!! so happy la!!
another thing is my choero. MUA HA HA, dough its v.eri cock but i did comeout with somehting more. now its about2 more chours liao. HOHOHO!! SO MANY IDEAS IN MY MIND! but so dissapointed tat my body cannot do it. will train hard to reach it.
gosh today woke up, was at a freaking wierd possition... and that leads to.. my morning back ache.. just now at DE was seriously painful la.. don think today can practice my choero unless i wan to break my back..
shit la.. yesterday cannot go jingwei bd celebration.. freaking working.... haiz....
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
so freakig tired... and i realli hate sitting beside yana, she wont stop looking at my post, and now she is reading out my post... and i think she is having a interner struggle on who to see after this.. so sad.
was realli realli happy today, cos yesterday i realli did some selfstudies myself, and todya, my first friday lesson in this whole sem, i scored 10/10 for my quiz (so do yana she say)!!! OMG!!! so happy la!!
another thing is my choero. MUA HA HA, dough its v.eri cock but i did comeout with somehting more. now its about2 more chours liao. HOHOHO!! SO MANY IDEAS IN MY MIND! but so dissapointed tat my body cannot do it. will train hard to reach it.
gosh today woke up, was at a freaking wierd possition... and that leads to.. my morning back ache.. just now at DE was seriously painful la.. don think today can practice my choero unless i wan to break my back..
shit la.. yesterday cannot go jingwei bd celebration.. freaking working.... haiz....
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
pulling up my socks
i seriously seriously seriously need to buck up my studies. lunchtime and dramanite realli make me lost my way in studies already... yesterday went to class, from lab 2 PEWWW lab5 with a quiz.. today... lab 1 PEWWW lab 4. i was like WTF?!?!? seriously need to do more self study..
for some reason, i hope to do my best in dance assessment but fail the assessment and get kick out.... cos, it feels less hurtful to be 'not good enough to be there', then 'good enough to be in there but cannot be in there'... i don wan to quit dance, nor drama. but my studies, my time... i veri scared alimuin nite... most prob will be stuck between dance and drama again....
mum and sis is already hinting me to work, cos i promised them to work after dramanite... seriously in need of money, and seriously don know wad to do... and seriously don feel like going home..
yesterday choero... i find mine quite orite la... but i donno why i got this habit of closing eyes. drama also close eyes, dance also close eyes... i love abstract too much.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
for some reason, i hope to do my best in dance assessment but fail the assessment and get kick out.... cos, it feels less hurtful to be 'not good enough to be there', then 'good enough to be in there but cannot be in there'... i don wan to quit dance, nor drama. but my studies, my time... i veri scared alimuin nite... most prob will be stuck between dance and drama again....
mum and sis is already hinting me to work, cos i promised them to work after dramanite... seriously in need of money, and seriously don know wad to do... and seriously don feel like going home..
yesterday choero... i find mine quite orite la... but i donno why i got this habit of closing eyes. drama also close eyes, dance also close eyes... i love abstract too much.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
Monday, November 5, 2007
tml i will die
shit.. did my 4eights (alittle more than tat la) already, but u noe wad? IT CRAP! IT LOOK LIKE SHIT! seriouslly la, don think its nice nor good... trying to tell a story but.. SHIT!! STRESS!!! A!!! @__@
FREAKING FLU GO AWAY! know wad? just now i was doing pirouettes and chaines (2slow4fast), my 'bi ti' was like flying around la, majiam tap water, so FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG!!!
some one pls help me,
AAAAAAAAAAAA
next week assessment!!!
AAAAAAAAA
STUDIES CATCHING UP
... X30789812
dead
R.I.P.
nick
help la
aaa
cannot think liao
water still dripping from my nose...
tissue paper using majiam free like this...
no urge for pratamania... no energy to eat
FREAKING FLU GO AWAY! know wad? just now i was doing pirouettes and chaines (2slow4fast), my 'bi ti' was like flying around la, majiam tap water, so FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG!!!
some one pls help me,
AAAAAAAAAAAA
next week assessment!!!
AAAAAAAAA
STUDIES CATCHING UP
... X30789812
dead
R.I.P.
nick
help la
aaa
cannot think liao
water still dripping from my nose...
tissue paper using majiam free like this...
no urge for pratamania... no energy to eat
sick
damn man, i think all those late nite did catch up with me. feeling so sick now. its horrible but still trying to come out with the 4 eights peter wan... got a shity looking 3eights done(like freaking shity and ugly and donno wad to say one. prepraed to get f one)
today was so shity man.. didnt get late for sch, reach at 0750, COOL RITE!?! but was sick the whole freaking day... sickening... chinese got this saying, hao de kai shi ju shi chen gong de yi ban. last wk, wasnt late and went for all classes on monday, tuesday overslept quite alot, wed thurs fri didnt go sch. this wk i had a good start like last wk, i hope my wk don become the same as last or i realli will kanna debarred.
SICKNING LA!!
just ate prata, but hungry for more.
urge for pratamania is 2star! * * * * *
today was so shity man.. didnt get late for sch, reach at 0750, COOL RITE!?! but was sick the whole freaking day... sickening... chinese got this saying, hao de kai shi ju shi chen gong de yi ban. last wk, wasnt late and went for all classes on monday, tuesday overslept quite alot, wed thurs fri didnt go sch. this wk i had a good start like last wk, i hope my wk don become the same as last or i realli will kanna debarred.
SICKNING LA!!
just ate prata, but hungry for more.
urge for pratamania is 2star! * * * * *
Sunday, November 4, 2007
slept for freaking 12hours man!!!
seriously got to rest after such a hetic life. haha. slept at 2100, woke up at 0630 myself but went back to sleep till 0930. shiok like shit man... as in seriously man... man man man... HAHA
woke up feel so like wan to go swim, havent got the time to for like so many mths.. reach the swimming pool, brought the child ticket.. cos the ppl there told me before child is under 18, so all along i brought the child ticket la... after buying the ticket today then i found out that they added thie device at the ticket machine (entrence), where by if u pass using a child ticket, the board will light up a big 'CHILD' and the buzz sound will ring freaking loud. when i was queuing i was like SHIT LA!! then when my turn, i put the card in, it went BUZZZ so freaking loud then everyone was like looking at me la... then the guy came and i told him i under 18, then okay lo... but everyone was like freaking looking at me like donno wad la... legaly im child, but i swear from today on if i ever go again im going to buy a adult ticket. if i ever go again that is...
went to sleep again at 1600.. shiok man... wake up at 1800 to go eat dinner. haha like super pig la.. DIDNT GO CUT HAIR! was to shag to go cut... tml i will go cut i promise!!! haiz.....
okay, now im fully charged and ready for classes. hope it will last long.. pls... i don wan skip classes anymore!!!
i so need prata
urge for pratamania is 5stars * * * * *
seriously got to rest after such a hetic life. haha. slept at 2100, woke up at 0630 myself but went back to sleep till 0930. shiok like shit man... as in seriously man... man man man... HAHA
woke up feel so like wan to go swim, havent got the time to for like so many mths.. reach the swimming pool, brought the child ticket.. cos the ppl there told me before child is under 18, so all along i brought the child ticket la... after buying the ticket today then i found out that they added thie device at the ticket machine (entrence), where by if u pass using a child ticket, the board will light up a big 'CHILD' and the buzz sound will ring freaking loud. when i was queuing i was like SHIT LA!! then when my turn, i put the card in, it went BUZZZ so freaking loud then everyone was like looking at me la... then the guy came and i told him i under 18, then okay lo... but everyone was like freaking looking at me like donno wad la... legaly im child, but i swear from today on if i ever go again im going to buy a adult ticket. if i ever go again that is...
went to sleep again at 1600.. shiok man... wake up at 1800 to go eat dinner. haha like super pig la.. DIDNT GO CUT HAIR! was to shag to go cut... tml i will go cut i promise!!! haiz.....
okay, now im fully charged and ready for classes. hope it will last long.. pls... i don wan skip classes anymore!!!
i so need prata
urge for pratamania is 5stars * * * * *
Saturday, November 3, 2007
rest
finally, lunchtime, dramanite, NEA performance, all finished... finally can take a breath and get myself prepared for the next round.
loved drama nite 2007, it was realli a wonderful experience. feel so good on stage, feel so good to be in the team, feel so good to achrive something with the team... 'sophia', my second script i acted. =)
i must admit tat 'johnny' was a realli tough role for me, but it was realli a great experience for me, thanx to anjana and shida and my teammates... love ur man.. and thanx kaye, for listening to me on tat day itself.
feel so tired... but yet happy.. but when reach home, i just feel like there is another war for me to fight. my mum just keep nagging and i just recieve 1 warning letter. i believe there is more to come for the lesson i just skiped.. its onli wk 3 u noe?! so tired.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
loved drama nite 2007, it was realli a wonderful experience. feel so good on stage, feel so good to be in the team, feel so good to achrive something with the team... 'sophia', my second script i acted. =)
i must admit tat 'johnny' was a realli tough role for me, but it was realli a great experience for me, thanx to anjana and shida and my teammates... love ur man.. and thanx kaye, for listening to me on tat day itself.
feel so tired... but yet happy.. but when reach home, i just feel like there is another war for me to fight. my mum just keep nagging and i just recieve 1 warning letter. i believe there is more to come for the lesson i just skiped.. its onli wk 3 u noe?! so tired.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
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