emotional day

i had a damn emotional day on thurs... i must thank all my team mate. thanx for giving me the support, and thanx for helping me that day.

thurs was a super stressed out day for me. start with a veri boring and dry lesson (DCN) where i don know what the teacher is talking about. and the lesson ended with the teacher telling me 'i don think you will make it through the pratical test'.

that was my first strike

then, i totally flunk my GD pratical test. i realli got a mind block and i donno what to desgin for the poster. end up my poster look like shit. and GD is Graphic Desgin.. it was supposed to be my strongest module...

that was my second strike

then i went for IAD. wasnt doing my webpage, cos i cannot show my teacher my webpage yet.. then for the test, dough its MCQ but i still donno how to do... was damn demoralized by my class.. and its also the time i blog my last post.. so...

that was my third strike

went for CCT after 3hours of IAD.. was a huge dissapointment.. as our idea was shoot by the teacher like shit. i felt that i let yana and neera down for coming out with suck ilogical idea.. and i was confident to shoot back any question af first, but my hands was shaking behind my back when i was presenting... and when i shoot back at the teacher, i was also scared to offend him as in the end, our marks depend of him. you wont wan to expect an A if you scold ur teacher 'fuck you la'.. so..

that was my forth strike.

then its time for DEP. it totally crack me down. the teacher gave us 3 week to work on that project (make a circit). so it starts on last week, and till next week la.. last week cos me and yana got open house, so we didnt go for the lesson. which means other teams already 1hour ahead of us. then when we reach there, everyone started doing. when we go get our stuff, there were ALOT of missing stuff. we went to find the teacher asking for help he say 'wait, i finish these stuff then i go get ur replacement'. so all we could do is just sit there and do nothing for 30min. until willson they all finish their project, then we go take their stuff then we start doing (the teacher still doing his stuff). but even when we get the stuff, i tried to do the circuit but i just got no idea. in the end phillip helped us through and i was realli greatful to him.

that was my fifth, and a heavy strike.

so after all those knife that was thrown to me, i went to dance with a bleeding heart. and guess i should not have went(tats what i tot at first. at first..) amin was the understudie for dancecaptain. and he leading was... FAST!!!!!!! cannot breath sia.. not realli warm then split liao. tats why i didnt aim for oversplit that day. then down to jingwei's workshop. it was realli a slap for me cos i realli donno how to pop. and i know its an important work shop cos danceworks cheoro got poping.. but i realli cannot catch. then moved on, zee's cheoro. it was a total slap for me. every one got the steps so fast but onli me, cannot catch it. i almost broke down in the studio but the security guard came to hear the 'okay!', so i didnt.. i got to hold it back.

on the way home i told shaherra how i felt.. cos, im realli scared about my studies and im realli scared to pull the team down. everyone in the team is so good, and so strong in hiphop. onli me... was holding back my tears while talking to shaherra.. until zee saw my teary eye and ask me wads wrong. tat moment on i realli cannot take it any more and i realli cried out when they ask me to let it out. i was realli just letting out tat time and i donno who is beside me.. i didnt even know who passed me the tissue.. i didnt noe wad shaherra told zee.. and i can onli hear 70% of wad zee said.. cos i was realli letting it out tat time..



thanx zee for encouraging me.. and thanx for letting me know i can depend on the team..

thanx shaherra, for listening me and telling me the right things to do.

thanx amin, for being so understanding...

thanx daphne for helping me all along..



thanx to all my teammates, and sorry for tat day. i will promise that i wont pull your down. i will practice to my very best with the time i have left for dance. i will work hard. i promise.





so thats for thurs..

on fri, since i didnt bring my adaptor for my lappie, i couldnt do my project in sch. so i went to meet amin fro dance practice. after the practice we planned the makeup, coustume, timing for the song, idea, concept, story hairstyle and most of the things. haha. i tought of leaving at 1630 or 1700, but i leave at 1800. lol. cos even i reach home i cannot do project since my sis need use...

then today.. drama was fun!! and i got a feeling production will be a blust this year. looking very forward to production.
i will work hard, i will study hard, i will dance hard, i will act hard. i promise