lunch

its just a normal lunch.
duration, 30min.
venue, my house.
date, 11 dec.

the moment my mum step into the house with our lunch, she went to cook something esle for us, and bath at the same time. i donno why. they complained that they havent being seeing me much. and today, i showed them my face. my sis woke up onli after my mum got home and she was like


' WHA! nick is at home.'

'no la, just hardly see his face'
okay... i didnt noe u wanted to see it. seriously. tats wad i wan to shoot back. but cannot. i noe they care about me. but from wad they say? i donno..

then cos im so hungry, i open my rice and eat 2 spoon of rice first.


'mum cooking something wad? ask u not ot eat first already rite?? tell u already still keep eating and eating and eating'.
im fucking hungry la. please, im not like some people tat wake up at 12 or 1. i need breakfast.. and my bread spoil liao lo. don wan waste money eating magi mee also. save it for time like after dance go home, dinner turn smelly cos of gravey, then eat.

i look to my right, i saw my elder sis rice, its 1/3 eaten aready. i look at mine.. nvm, don start a war again.

mum bath finish, come to living room, knock over my drink..


'who put the drink here one??'

'just speaking for justic lo, drink finish drink put back la(havent drink much yet, put where?).'


while eating, tension all over.

after eating,went bk to my room.


they saying that hardly see my face. giv me reasons why i should show them my face. the few reason i can think of is onli

-tats my home, i need to stay there.
-make them happy

what about me? i go there make them happy by letting them scold? they just keep shooting at me. keep shooting. i can shoot back, but tats means i will start a war with my mum, again. i don want tat to happen. but yet i don wan to stay in this situation. this issit the rite time to talk to them.


come on. please. its just 30min. and it have so many tension, so many shooting. so many things going on. 30 min... not say 30days. 30min.. issit because of me? or them. i donno. i hope to noe oo.cos if its because of me, i will change. but deft not by quiting SA. so u, shut up.