oooo i wish i wish... FOR SO MANY THING!! new year is coming and i got so many many wishes tat i can fill up 2 roll of toilet paper! (i noe im greedy)
-good results
-good effort in studies (to fufill my last wish)
-good modules to study (to make my last wish possible)
-good teachers for my modules (to help my last wish)
-better finacial (who dont wish for this, stop breathing)
-better relationship with my family
-better time managment (realli need this)
-do much much better in StageArts!!
-own a jazz sneaker
-dye my hair to flame orange (not so bright one la..)
-to hold my leg at 135degree
-do better in my turns (much better)
-gain more flexibility
-be able to get into character more in drama
-work on my articulation!!!!!
-more good/pleasant looking (hope this will come true)
-GPA at least 2.7 (if possible 3, which is highly unpossible. acctually 2.5 i super happy liao. but aim higher to be saver.)
-don get PHD (neither 'Poly Halfway Dropout' nor 'Permernant Head Damage')
-SLIM DOWN!!!
-world peace?
-and a GOOD 2008!! MUA HA HA!!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
long post.
let me start with the most past past event. StageArts DanzInc Juice PARTY!!! mua ha ha. i took place at zeeeee's house and it was so much fun. im like sell fruits one cos i keep cuting fruits. they say i cut like shit, aa... don like this la.. artistic way of cutting okay... the juice that i make was.. erm.. lets talk about other ppl's juice. haha. lazy to uploas all the photos and find all the photos la. don like to spam photos (since when u see my post like full of photos? other then production post).
moving on.. it was the party at dragon house. to be frank, i enjoied onli till 3am. cos thats the time when dragon got knocked out, and start vomiting everywhere. so from 3 onwards i didnt sleep and took care of him. shortly after dragon's KO, his good friend, also my good friend, bernadette, joined him! she vomited too.. and when i was like trying to get dragon to vomit into the bucket, she like a merlion vomit from behind me, and over my head. lucky didnt hit a single drop on me sia. taking care of 2 drunk people is not easy. especially one is wearing dress (and refuse to change to a shorts when supllied with one) and another guy with onli his boxers on (cos his whole body is covered with his vomit). and whats the best? sleeping on the same bed. not onli to take care of them not to get chocked by their own vomit, also need to take care of them not to do those ERHEM ERHEM stuff..
afterthat, was damn tired with YCS and stuff.. and dance... this week, was damn hiong. dance on wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun(today la). 5days straight. and wats best? i pulled my right inner thigh liao. hope tml will get better. wan to noe why?? i think is cos of my stupidlity for thinking that my body does not need to rest. wed's dance session was at E308, went through our jazz cheoro, and did out jazz basic training.. but before that, i went to work in the morning, immediatelly after tat i went to meet kaye and amin to pracitce our dance for kaye's birthday party, immediatelly went for dance practice. after practice went to dragon's party. next morning went to YCS, then immediatelly went to dance practice. went home, laosai like shit (as posted on last post). fri morning, laosai-ing like laosai. so i skipped YCS. just when i though i got better, i went to chinatown together with Zelia, Amin, Daphne, Jess and we head to this dance studio called Rythem'N'Moves.. but then.. when im out of my house. laosai 3 times. like eat wad shit wad u noe?!?
so, they having free class on fri and sat. then since amin they all going, and i realli realli wan to go see other style of dance and explore this work of art, i went for both days. friday classes were 'vocal training', 'jazz' and 'ballet'. yes yes yes.. i went for a ballet class if u are asking... ya ya ya... i went fo all 3. vocal training I HEARD ZEEE SING!! LOL!! shall stop before she kills me. jazz.. was quite fun. its the same cheoro that jerine taught us. since she was the one who is teaching the class there. lol.. ballet.. WAS HELL! OMG! that guy is crazy! 90-120min of ballet lay!! kao... do PK turns... jete... do a ron on the air some more!!! wha lao.. inner thigh damn pain when i go home lo.... but it was fun la the classes.
so on sat. suppose to meet amin and kaye at yeu tee again at 10am. but i cannot get out of my house cos im laosai-ing at home. so.. was late for treasa's ballet performance by 15min. the performance was nice. see all the little gals dancing.. was so cute.. and the ladies dancing was like. wow... after tat.. went to eat lunch.. then head back to chinatown again for the classes. when i reach there they already finishing break-dancing. so i missed the breakdancing and beat-boxing class. in the end i went for the hip-hop, raggae and salsa.. hip-hop got julian accopany me.. the song they use is BECAUSE OF YOU!! lol.. me and julian (more like me la) is like there.. ooooooo0o0o0o0oooooooo0o0o0o.... shit man... if onli zelia was there. LOL! OOOOOOOO000O0O0O0O0OOOOOOOOOOOOOO0O0O0O0O0O~~~LOL!!!
raggae was fun.. just tat the teacher is realli abit gay... salsa is fun too. haha. the teacher is veri funny. is jason and jerine.
after salsa.. got another impromtu class. like last min the teacher willing to teach. its derrick, the actor tat everytime act as ah long one. at first i see allison is still there, then i also not rushing home. so i stay on... then do his stretching. like hell la.. after the stretching, i turn around and see. allison is gone. so im the onli person whom is not derrick's student (the owner of the studio if im not wrong, not the instrustor teaching). damn wierd. his lesson was damn tough le.. did like alot of across the floor.. like
side battlement kick then run then side split then roll on the floor then center split the roll up.
PK turns. again single-single-single-double
attitude jump (the excersice where i pulled my right iner thigh)
a la seconde chaines (change sides one!!)
chaines to a jump (donno the real term but is like on odd count u chaines, even count u jump)
jumps (alot of jia-pa-lang jump inside la..)
the easiest one i believe*
battlement kicks to the front one.. just kicks. the easiest...
waa~~~ quite long liao la my post.. shall end here(hope my laosai willl also end here. 3days le lay) sorry for not updating for so long. as u can see, im buzy. =D
moving on.. it was the party at dragon house. to be frank, i enjoied onli till 3am. cos thats the time when dragon got knocked out, and start vomiting everywhere. so from 3 onwards i didnt sleep and took care of him. shortly after dragon's KO, his good friend, also my good friend, bernadette, joined him! she vomited too.. and when i was like trying to get dragon to vomit into the bucket, she like a merlion vomit from behind me, and over my head. lucky didnt hit a single drop on me sia. taking care of 2 drunk people is not easy. especially one is wearing dress (and refuse to change to a shorts when supllied with one) and another guy with onli his boxers on (cos his whole body is covered with his vomit). and whats the best? sleeping on the same bed. not onli to take care of them not to get chocked by their own vomit, also need to take care of them not to do those ERHEM ERHEM stuff..
afterthat, was damn tired with YCS and stuff.. and dance... this week, was damn hiong. dance on wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun(today la). 5days straight. and wats best? i pulled my right inner thigh liao. hope tml will get better. wan to noe why?? i think is cos of my stupidlity for thinking that my body does not need to rest. wed's dance session was at E308, went through our jazz cheoro, and did out jazz basic training.. but before that, i went to work in the morning, immediatelly after tat i went to meet kaye and amin to pracitce our dance for kaye's birthday party, immediatelly went for dance practice. after practice went to dragon's party. next morning went to YCS, then immediatelly went to dance practice. went home, laosai like shit (as posted on last post). fri morning, laosai-ing like laosai. so i skipped YCS. just when i though i got better, i went to chinatown together with Zelia, Amin, Daphne, Jess and we head to this dance studio called Rythem'N'Moves.. but then.. when im out of my house. laosai 3 times. like eat wad shit wad u noe?!?
so, they having free class on fri and sat. then since amin they all going, and i realli realli wan to go see other style of dance and explore this work of art, i went for both days. friday classes were 'vocal training', 'jazz' and 'ballet'. yes yes yes.. i went for a ballet class if u are asking... ya ya ya... i went fo all 3. vocal training I HEARD ZEEE SING!! LOL!! shall stop before she kills me. jazz.. was quite fun. its the same cheoro that jerine taught us. since she was the one who is teaching the class there. lol.. ballet.. WAS HELL! OMG! that guy is crazy! 90-120min of ballet lay!! kao... do PK turns... jete... do a ron on the air some more!!! wha lao.. inner thigh damn pain when i go home lo.... but it was fun la the classes.
so on sat. suppose to meet amin and kaye at yeu tee again at 10am. but i cannot get out of my house cos im laosai-ing at home. so.. was late for treasa's ballet performance by 15min. the performance was nice. see all the little gals dancing.. was so cute.. and the ladies dancing was like. wow... after tat.. went to eat lunch.. then head back to chinatown again for the classes. when i reach there they already finishing break-dancing. so i missed the breakdancing and beat-boxing class. in the end i went for the hip-hop, raggae and salsa.. hip-hop got julian accopany me.. the song they use is BECAUSE OF YOU!! lol.. me and julian (more like me la) is like there.. ooooooo0o0o0o0oooooooo0o0o0o.... shit man... if onli zelia was there. LOL! OOOOOOOO000O0O0O0O0OOOOOOOOOOOOOO0O0O0O0O0O~~~LOL!!!
raggae was fun.. just tat the teacher is realli abit gay... salsa is fun too. haha. the teacher is veri funny. is jason and jerine.
after salsa.. got another impromtu class. like last min the teacher willing to teach. its derrick, the actor tat everytime act as ah long one. at first i see allison is still there, then i also not rushing home. so i stay on... then do his stretching. like hell la.. after the stretching, i turn around and see. allison is gone. so im the onli person whom is not derrick's student (the owner of the studio if im not wrong, not the instrustor teaching). damn wierd. his lesson was damn tough le.. did like alot of across the floor.. like
side battlement kick then run then side split then roll on the floor then center split the roll up.
PK turns. again single-single-single-double
attitude jump (the excersice where i pulled my right iner thigh)
a la seconde chaines (change sides one!!)
chaines to a jump (donno the real term but is like on odd count u chaines, even count u jump)
jumps (alot of jia-pa-lang jump inside la..)
the easiest one i believe*
battlement kicks to the front one.. just kicks. the easiest...
waa~~~ quite long liao la my post.. shall end here(hope my laosai willl also end here. 3days le lay) sorry for not updating for so long. as u can see, im buzy. =D
Friday, December 28, 2007
short post
no time to post much. just that i fucking spent $17.55 on cab today, like shit la.. and im loasai ing now. donno tml can go out or not. shit la~~ will update soon
Friday, December 21, 2007
i hate myself
IAD sent me warning letter. saying that i've skipped FIVE lect... the worst thing is, my mum is asking me to quit SA again. she said i promised her that if another warning letter come, i will need to quit both dance and drama immediatally. is like, i didnt skip la! why the hell should i quit?!?
went to eat lucnh with my mum and sis. then they were nagging about me again.
seriously, i don think im asking alot of money from your. i know that our family is not veri rich, so im also trying to work for ur. if im still asking too much money from your, i will ask for less, i will want for less. but i want my passion, so please don take it away from me.. your tell me 'play also play shiok already la'. but im not playing, im serious in what im doing.
tears just cant stop coming out of my eyes. i know my mum is veri tired with all the problems in the family. i want to help as well.. but i realli cant giv up my passion. what should i do? what CAN I do? i hate myself.
i hate myself.
i realli hate myself.
went to eat lucnh with my mum and sis. then they were nagging about me again.
seriously, i don think im asking alot of money from your. i know that our family is not veri rich, so im also trying to work for ur. if im still asking too much money from your, i will ask for less, i will want for less. but i want my passion, so please don take it away from me.. your tell me 'play also play shiok already la'. but im not playing, im serious in what im doing.
tears just cant stop coming out of my eyes. i know my mum is veri tired with all the problems in the family. i want to help as well.. but i realli cant giv up my passion. what should i do? what CAN I do? i hate myself.
i hate myself.
i realli hate myself.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
stupid
seriously, my life is intresting. some time too intresting.
as i was walking on the road, got this car zoom pass the zebra crossing. i was like, WTH, almost hit me.. then suddenly ' H E R O E S ' come into my mind.. as i was walking home from that zebra crossing, i was thinking.. if tat happened to one of the hero.. who can make what she say comes true~~~
zooooom~~~
'HEY! DAMMIT! curse u go bang wall...'
eeeeeeeeeeeeeee````
**BOOM**
'.. OMG! this... this cant be true...'
*car go back to orginal form and get back on track*
i cant stop laughing at myself. how stupid can i get. i almost died and i think about things like this.. erm.. the car is not that close la.. but if i didnt stop to see the car i will be dead la...
when can i not do stupid stuff...
i too away my nick MR RUBBERBAND. i feel that im not up to that name. from today on, i will train hard. and onli when im up to that name, i will put it back again. wait for me people. MR RUBBERBAND will be back =D
as i was walking on the road, got this car zoom pass the zebra crossing. i was like, WTH, almost hit me.. then suddenly ' H E R O E S ' come into my mind.. as i was walking home from that zebra crossing, i was thinking.. if tat happened to one of the hero.. who can make what she say comes true~~~
zooooom~~~
'HEY! DAMMIT! curse u go bang wall...'
eeeeeeeeeeeeeee````
**BOOM**
'.. OMG! this... this cant be true...'
*car go back to orginal form and get back on track*
i cant stop laughing at myself. how stupid can i get. i almost died and i think about things like this.. erm.. the car is not that close la.. but if i didnt stop to see the car i will be dead la...
when can i not do stupid stuff...
i too away my nick MR RUBBERBAND. i feel that im not up to that name. from today on, i will train hard. and onli when im up to that name, i will put it back again. wait for me people. MR RUBBERBAND will be back =D
L A O S A I I N G A R R ~ ~ ~
my stomach is sooooo pain.... partly because of crunches, mostly cos of my laosai... damn man, through out the dance practice today my stomach pain like shit la.. like realli shit. reach home first thing i do is?? LAO SAI ARR!!! butt damn pain lo... after tat let toilet vantilate awhile, then go bath, then looking for dinner.. shit, nth. onli got jack n jii potato chip..
I LAO SAI ARR! HOW TO EAT!!
leg jelly, stomach pain, butt killing...
i hate it man... think is the KFC tat i ate. cos tats the onli thing i ate before dance ( other then the lunch i had at home). damn the chicken
I LAO SAI ARR! HOW TO EAT!!
leg jelly, stomach pain, butt killing...
i hate it man... think is the KFC tat i ate. cos tats the onli thing i ate before dance ( other then the lunch i had at home). damn the chicken
Monday, December 17, 2007
fat gay dancer
as i was youtubing for some dance video, i came pass this video. i noe i dance abit soft, and im fat. this video make me determind to dance more strongly, and cut down my weight. (but this guy he dance not bad wow tell u first)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7wov5Ro9Vo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7wov5Ro9Vo&feature=related
Win - Brian McKnight
lovely song im listening to right now.
and telling myself to reflect to it..
Dark is the night, I can weather the storm.
Never say die, I've been down this road before.
I'll never quit, I'll never lay down.
See, I've promised myself that I'd never let me down, so,
I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.A
nd if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.
I'm not looking for plays to show,
I'm gonna win.
No stopping now, there's still a ways to go.
Ohh, someway, somehow.
Whatever it takes, I know,
I'll never quit, no, no.I'll never go down.
I'll make sure they remember my name.
A hundred years from now.
I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.
And if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.
I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win.
When it's all said and done,
My once in a lifetime won back again.
Now is the time, to take a stand.
Here is my chance, that's why,
I'll never give up, never give in.
Never let a ray of doubt slip in.
And if I fall, I'll never faint,
I'll just get up and try again.
Never lose hope, never lose faith,
There's much too much at stake,
Upon myself I must depend.I'm not looking for plays to show, I'm gonna win.
I'm gonna win.
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if u say that you dont realli understand what i posted at my last post, i will have to say, i don blame u. i was typing with my half awake brainand i found out alot of the thing i type is... erm.. how to say? not relli understandable?
add on-
do you know, i used one whole roll of toilet paper for my nose in one nite?(save money la, don waste tissue)!? like scary u noe...
recently, alot of things geting through my head. what is my goal in life. is it reachable. is it true. should i reach for what i want? even if it upset someone. i want someone in my life, to brighten up my life. but im scared, scared from the failure i've been through. it was a long wait that time, but guess it didnt paid off.
is two and half year long?
nick.... are u sure u got over her?
add on-
do you know, i used one whole roll of toilet paper for my nose in one nite?(save money la, don waste tissue)!? like scary u noe...
recently, alot of things geting through my head. what is my goal in life. is it reachable. is it true. should i reach for what i want? even if it upset someone. i want someone in my life, to brighten up my life. but im scared, scared from the failure i've been through. it was a long wait that time, but guess it didnt paid off.
is two and half year long?
nick.... are u sure u got over her?
Saturday, December 15, 2007
alumni nite
alumni nite is finally over, so now i can announce to all, and also to myself..
IM SICK!!
i noe i don look like, but i had flu, slight cough, slight fever, headache.. luckily, my body condition onli get veri veri bad at nite. think cos of all the late nites, and lack of water (realli tried to drink alot, but i will say its not enough. have u got the feeling of not having enough time to drink water in sch?)
these pass few days had been, super hetic to me. my first big thankyou will go to,
meixian - thanx for being so understanding to my dance-drama issue. it really lighten alot of my stress.
of course..
YANA! - my drama mate plus class mate.. always there for me.
kaye - u and yana are always there for me when i need help. thanx alot.
your 2 are realli wonderful.
so... i experience from being a hip-hop-er, gay, china sissy, victim for a vampire, high school kids, cool guy, in one performance. and this is the first time i ook my laugage for my camp to put my coustume. like damn lot? my head is like having thunderstorm already la.. so i will finish my post asap.
hosting wise, got alot of cock up. but then, we managed to pull through. especiall the hasli speach part. it was so hetic, we onli like have 1-2 min to think out of ways to clean the shit. sorry for those who were concern about us but i shu away ur, cos it was realli hetic for us. sorry for my rude-ness.
dance.. i would say i did fine, and i realli did enjoied myself while dancing.... senior act.. i hope i didnt pull them down.. se-senior act, i hope i have been helpful and useful for amin and kaye.
and then the handing down part. WOOW! ANJANA AND SHYDIA!!!! yes!!! i was dreaming and hoping for them to be it la!! head and vice head for drama. my dreams and hope did com true.. i hoped farhana to be president ( come on la she year 2 asst for dept already.. ), then rabia and sara to be in SA commite (such wonderful ppl), then anjana and shydia ( don care who head or asst la, just be can already, they will work well =D) and in the end. IT CAME TRUE!!
but at the same time, its sad to say goodbye to hasli they all. i realli thank hasli and fazz alot. they helped me through so much through people production and dramanite.. and shankee taught mehow to be a man!
my knee hurts, alot. i donno why.
i shall go rest. my head kills. my body feels weak....
IM SICK!!
i noe i don look like, but i had flu, slight cough, slight fever, headache.. luckily, my body condition onli get veri veri bad at nite. think cos of all the late nites, and lack of water (realli tried to drink alot, but i will say its not enough. have u got the feeling of not having enough time to drink water in sch?)
these pass few days had been, super hetic to me. my first big thankyou will go to,
meixian - thanx for being so understanding to my dance-drama issue. it really lighten alot of my stress.
of course..
YANA! - my drama mate plus class mate.. always there for me.
kaye - u and yana are always there for me when i need help. thanx alot.
your 2 are realli wonderful.
so... i experience from being a hip-hop-er, gay, china sissy, victim for a vampire, high school kids, cool guy, in one performance. and this is the first time i ook my laugage for my camp to put my coustume. like damn lot? my head is like having thunderstorm already la.. so i will finish my post asap.
hosting wise, got alot of cock up. but then, we managed to pull through. especiall the hasli speach part. it was so hetic, we onli like have 1-2 min to think out of ways to clean the shit. sorry for those who were concern about us but i shu away ur, cos it was realli hetic for us. sorry for my rude-ness.
dance.. i would say i did fine, and i realli did enjoied myself while dancing.... senior act.. i hope i didnt pull them down.. se-senior act, i hope i have been helpful and useful for amin and kaye.
and then the handing down part. WOOW! ANJANA AND SHYDIA!!!! yes!!! i was dreaming and hoping for them to be it la!! head and vice head for drama. my dreams and hope did com true.. i hoped farhana to be president ( come on la she year 2 asst for dept already.. ), then rabia and sara to be in SA commite (such wonderful ppl), then anjana and shydia ( don care who head or asst la, just be can already, they will work well =D) and in the end. IT CAME TRUE!!
but at the same time, its sad to say goodbye to hasli they all. i realli thank hasli and fazz alot. they helped me through so much through people production and dramanite.. and shankee taught mehow to be a man!
my knee hurts, alot. i donno why.
i shall go rest. my head kills. my body feels weak....
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
a normal post
* i promise this entry will be a normal one *
omg, im like so tired la... didnt sleep the whole nite to study for GD. or should say attempted to study GD. did studied la, but some time is watching the movie 'freedom writers'. damn kaye, curse kaye, for sending me that nice movie.
i wont say that i cried for that movie, but some parts im realli realli touched. as in realli realli touched. realli.. realli...
so. i still managed to register some graphic desgin into my brain anyway so.. * tap on my shoulder * good job nicky
lets think back a little.. tues dance practice. was... a little brain dead for me. im doing alot of stupid thing. i did cart-wheel(issit spelt this way) and fall on my butt donno how many times.. seriously nick, do more crunchers and hold ur weight.
the one who do pencil turn and fall is who? NICK!
the one who do pirouette and fall is who? NICK!
the one who walk and fall is who? NICK! (spraine my pig leg 22hr before performance somemore)
then one who do pas de bourree and fall? NICK!
" " " did cart-wheel and fall? NICK!
HEY EVERYONE! WAN NOE STH STUPID I DID?!?! zee ask us to sing the song while dancing because of ur rite.. after singing for like one whole week, then i realise i have been singing to the wrong lyric. like totally wrong la... like super wrong la... but anyway, i did sing la. just didnt sing correctly. but still. cockanathan i must say
now adays i damn damn damn super ultra broke la... shit man.... anyone wan donate money to me???
omg, im like so tired la... didnt sleep the whole nite to study for GD. or should say attempted to study GD. did studied la, but some time is watching the movie 'freedom writers'. damn kaye, curse kaye, for sending me that nice movie.
i wont say that i cried for that movie, but some parts im realli realli touched. as in realli realli touched. realli.. realli...
so. i still managed to register some graphic desgin into my brain anyway so.. * tap on my shoulder * good job nicky
lets think back a little.. tues dance practice. was... a little brain dead for me. im doing alot of stupid thing. i did cart-wheel(issit spelt this way) and fall on my butt donno how many times.. seriously nick, do more crunchers and hold ur weight.
the one who do pencil turn and fall is who? NICK!
the one who do pirouette and fall is who? NICK!
the one who walk and fall is who? NICK! (spraine my pig leg 22hr before performance somemore)
then one who do pas de bourree and fall? NICK!
" " " did cart-wheel and fall? NICK!
HEY EVERYONE! WAN NOE STH STUPID I DID?!?! zee ask us to sing the song while dancing because of ur rite.. after singing for like one whole week, then i realise i have been singing to the wrong lyric. like totally wrong la... like super wrong la... but anyway, i did sing la. just didnt sing correctly. but still. cockanathan i must say
now adays i damn damn damn super ultra broke la... shit man.... anyone wan donate money to me???
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
lunch
its just a normal lunch.
duration, 30min.
venue, my house.
date, 11 dec.
the moment my mum step into the house with our lunch, she went to cook something esle for us, and bath at the same time. i donno why. they complained that they havent being seeing me much. and today, i showed them my face. my sis woke up onli after my mum got home and she was like
' WHA! nick is at home.'
'no la, just hardly see his face'
okay... i didnt noe u wanted to see it. seriously. tats wad i wan to shoot back. but cannot. i noe they care about me. but from wad they say? i donno..
then cos im so hungry, i open my rice and eat 2 spoon of rice first.
'mum cooking something wad? ask u not ot eat first already rite?? tell u already still keep eating and eating and eating'.
im fucking hungry la. please, im not like some people tat wake up at 12 or 1. i need breakfast.. and my bread spoil liao lo. don wan waste money eating magi mee also. save it for time like after dance go home, dinner turn smelly cos of gravey, then eat.
i look to my right, i saw my elder sis rice, its 1/3 eaten aready. i look at mine.. nvm, don start a war again.
mum bath finish, come to living room, knock over my drink..
'who put the drink here one??'
'just speaking for justic lo, drink finish drink put back la(havent drink much yet, put where?).'
while eating, tension all over.
after eating,went bk to my room.
they saying that hardly see my face. giv me reasons why i should show them my face. the few reason i can think of is onli
-tats my home, i need to stay there.
-make them happy
what about me? i go there make them happy by letting them scold? they just keep shooting at me. keep shooting. i can shoot back, but tats means i will start a war with my mum, again. i don want tat to happen. but yet i don wan to stay in this situation. this issit the rite time to talk to them.
come on. please. its just 30min. and it have so many tension, so many shooting. so many things going on. 30 min... not say 30days. 30min.. issit because of me? or them. i donno. i hope to noe oo.cos if its because of me, i will change. but deft not by quiting SA. so u, shut up.
duration, 30min.
venue, my house.
date, 11 dec.
the moment my mum step into the house with our lunch, she went to cook something esle for us, and bath at the same time. i donno why. they complained that they havent being seeing me much. and today, i showed them my face. my sis woke up onli after my mum got home and she was like
' WHA! nick is at home.'
'no la, just hardly see his face'
okay... i didnt noe u wanted to see it. seriously. tats wad i wan to shoot back. but cannot. i noe they care about me. but from wad they say? i donno..
then cos im so hungry, i open my rice and eat 2 spoon of rice first.
'mum cooking something wad? ask u not ot eat first already rite?? tell u already still keep eating and eating and eating'.
im fucking hungry la. please, im not like some people tat wake up at 12 or 1. i need breakfast.. and my bread spoil liao lo. don wan waste money eating magi mee also. save it for time like after dance go home, dinner turn smelly cos of gravey, then eat.
i look to my right, i saw my elder sis rice, its 1/3 eaten aready. i look at mine.. nvm, don start a war again.
mum bath finish, come to living room, knock over my drink..
'who put the drink here one??'
'just speaking for justic lo, drink finish drink put back la(havent drink much yet, put where?).'
while eating, tension all over.
after eating,went bk to my room.
they saying that hardly see my face. giv me reasons why i should show them my face. the few reason i can think of is onli
-tats my home, i need to stay there.
-make them happy
what about me? i go there make them happy by letting them scold? they just keep shooting at me. keep shooting. i can shoot back, but tats means i will start a war with my mum, again. i don want tat to happen. but yet i don wan to stay in this situation. this issit the rite time to talk to them.
come on. please. its just 30min. and it have so many tension, so many shooting. so many things going on. 30 min... not say 30days. 30min.. issit because of me? or them. i donno. i hope to noe oo.cos if its because of me, i will change. but deft not by quiting SA. so u, shut up.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
nicholas, you need to be more disciplined.
nicholas, you need to be more responsible.
nicholas, you need to grow up.
nicholas, you need to be a man.
nicholas, you need to do the right thing.
nicholas, you need to show you are what you are.
i seriously need a mroe disciplined life. i seriously need time management. i seriously need finance management. i seriously need to be more harsh. i seriously need to face the reality of this world.
nicholas,
wake up your idea.
open your eyes and look carefully..
straine your ears and listen carefully..
and know whats happening beside you..
i hate myself.
why am i not as talented as you, did i work not hard enough? did i not improve enough?
i hate you.
why am i always behind you?!? be it acting, dancing, art or studies. im always behind you. WHY!?
i hate reality.
why must i see the real side my best friend. it suck!! why is ur character like this?!?
i hate it.
i hate. i hate. i hate. i hate the things going on. why are u crashing me like shit but i still need to smile to it to secure this friendship. WHY?!?!
i hate tears.
im sick of crying. i want to cry no more. i cried enoguh for my family, my problems. i cried too much. too much.
get me out of this. get me out of this life. let me start a new life. a new nicholas. a better nicholas. im just not good enough.
im not good enough as a dancer. im not good enough as a singer. im not good enough as an actor. im not good enoguh as a performer. im not good enough as a student.im not good enough as a friend. im not good enough as a brother. im not good enough as a child.. im good for nothing..
its hard...
its really hard to fake a smile to hide my tears. its really hard to act as nothing happen where it hurt so much in my heart.
but i really treasure..
i really treasure you as a friend. really..
but i have so much problem. who can i turn to? who can i realli trust.. how to make a right choice? which i wont regret. why? why is decsion so hard. why issnt my brain processing? im just too stupid.
nick. pull up your socks.
nicholas, you need to be more responsible.
nicholas, you need to grow up.
nicholas, you need to be a man.
nicholas, you need to do the right thing.
nicholas, you need to show you are what you are.
i seriously need a mroe disciplined life. i seriously need time management. i seriously need finance management. i seriously need to be more harsh. i seriously need to face the reality of this world.
nicholas,
wake up your idea.
open your eyes and look carefully..
straine your ears and listen carefully..
and know whats happening beside you..
i hate myself.
why am i not as talented as you, did i work not hard enough? did i not improve enough?
i hate you.
why am i always behind you?!? be it acting, dancing, art or studies. im always behind you. WHY!?
i hate reality.
why must i see the real side my best friend. it suck!! why is ur character like this?!?
i hate it.
i hate. i hate. i hate. i hate the things going on. why are u crashing me like shit but i still need to smile to it to secure this friendship. WHY?!?!
i hate tears.
im sick of crying. i want to cry no more. i cried enoguh for my family, my problems. i cried too much. too much.
get me out of this. get me out of this life. let me start a new life. a new nicholas. a better nicholas. im just not good enough.
im not good enough as a dancer. im not good enough as a singer. im not good enough as an actor. im not good enoguh as a performer. im not good enough as a student.im not good enough as a friend. im not good enough as a brother. im not good enough as a child.. im good for nothing..
its hard...
its really hard to fake a smile to hide my tears. its really hard to act as nothing happen where it hurt so much in my heart.
but i really treasure..
i really treasure you as a friend. really..
but i have so much problem. who can i turn to? who can i realli trust.. how to make a right choice? which i wont regret. why? why is decsion so hard. why issnt my brain processing? im just too stupid.
nick. pull up your socks.
Friday, December 7, 2007
need your help
please help to play the game in this website. post some good coment or vote is possible. its some games that my sis created. if possible support her k?
http://www.games.icreations.sg/ -> her webbie
http://www.kongregate.com/search?q=icreations
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/search/author/zijian60 -> some game webbie where she posted her game
thanx
http://www.games.icreations.sg/ -> her webbie
http://www.kongregate.com/search?q=icreations
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/search/author/zijian60 -> some game webbie where she posted her game
thanx
IM SO HAPPY!!
haha. as i posted eariler, i went out on mon to celebrate with mc and peeps, was damn happy. then on 0125 5th dec, my sis came into my room with a small ice cream cake WOOT!! NICE SIA AHAH!
starting of my day wasnt realli good. forgot to bring money and left myself with $2.50. shit man. and forgot to bring my handphone. no materials for my op[en bk test (in the end i score 0 ). bu was happy la. haha. thanx to all who wished my happy birthday. thank you veri much.
yesterday dance practice. WHA HA HA HA!! they celebrated my bd by everyone feeding me frice.. erm... and lexiang.. lol.thanx so much dancers!!
feeling so sick and tired lately. thank god holiday is here. onli need do project, SA. no class. at least one less stress for 2 wk. just work out something for GD comment test.
will come bk later for a longer post. now in lesson.need listen. HOHO
starting of my day wasnt realli good. forgot to bring money and left myself with $2.50. shit man. and forgot to bring my handphone. no materials for my op[en bk test (in the end i score 0 ). bu was happy la. haha. thanx to all who wished my happy birthday. thank you veri much.
yesterday dance practice. WHA HA HA HA!! they celebrated my bd by everyone feeding me frice.. erm... and lexiang.. lol.thanx so much dancers!!
feeling so sick and tired lately. thank god holiday is here. onli need do project, SA. no class. at least one less stress for 2 wk. just work out something for GD comment test.
will come bk later for a longer post. now in lesson.need listen. HOHO
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
it was so fun~~~
OMG!!! LIKE W-O-W!~!~!~!(learn from josh)
gosh yesterday was so fun. went to eat dinner yesterday with my friends to celebrate my bd(i noe it sound pathetic. OH I WENT DINNER TO CELEBRATE MY BD!. but tats it la..)
was quite shocked with the amount of people who turned up, thanks to mcmillan, draon, val, shuxian, claudia, phyllis, jackson, faith, her bf, leon, ben, luoer. went to eat at chom chom and it was F***ING NICE!!! GOD!! HEAVEN!! PARADISE!!!! it was realli nice la. spent alot of money but its worth it. my table(me dragon mc val), we ate alot la.. haha.. porridge, stingray(bang he), 'or jian'(or 'or nua' as said by mc and val, egg cook with oystel), lala, 60satay(for 2 table la. haha.), carrot cake and SUGAR CANE DRINK ( 3DOLLAR FOR FREAKING BIG CUP MAN).
spent roughtly 10dollar plus each. but its worth it man. plus taxi and some money that went missing.. i spent 25. LOL. donno go to which part of my stomach. but its all worth it. damn nice. got a few slip of vodka from dragon... play cs again... then go home.. sleep. so tired. haha
i need prata.
gosh yesterday was so fun. went to eat dinner yesterday with my friends to celebrate my bd(i noe it sound pathetic. OH I WENT DINNER TO CELEBRATE MY BD!. but tats it la..)
was quite shocked with the amount of people who turned up, thanks to mcmillan, draon, val, shuxian, claudia, phyllis, jackson, faith, her bf, leon, ben, luoer. went to eat at chom chom and it was F***ING NICE!!! GOD!! HEAVEN!! PARADISE!!!! it was realli nice la. spent alot of money but its worth it. my table(me dragon mc val), we ate alot la.. haha.. porridge, stingray(bang he), 'or jian'(or 'or nua' as said by mc and val, egg cook with oystel), lala, 60satay(for 2 table la. haha.), carrot cake and SUGAR CANE DRINK ( 3DOLLAR FOR FREAKING BIG CUP MAN).
spent roughtly 10dollar plus each. but its worth it man. plus taxi and some money that went missing.. i spent 25. LOL. donno go to which part of my stomach. but its all worth it. damn nice. got a few slip of vodka from dragon... play cs again... then go home.. sleep. so tired. haha
i need prata.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
spent money again.
OMG! LIKE TOTALLY?! (learn from josh. lumsaco.)
went to play lan with dragon and mcmillan today. and guess how much i spent on lan? $9.30!! first time in my whole entire life i spent so much in lan, cos im not a lan person(don play lan, and not guai lan. LMAO). play almost 5hours fo CS!!! OMG LA!!! haha. i suck at cs, don realli play, and onli play a few times onli. the reason i go (even dough im sick) is beacause, realli stressed about my life, and i noe going out with them realli take away all my stress. they are realli friends whom i can truned to.
and mc! thanx for getting me out of all the shity situation i have been through all these time. i am realli lucky to have u as my friend.
another reason why i went with them is also... guilty la... realli want to go out with them for even just one day. ever since i joined stagearts, i never realli went out with my friends. this, i should say is the first - third time in half a year, cant realli remember the exect amount.. and they came to my production. suppose to go home together and chit-chat on the bus, the pathetic amount of time for us to clique together, i wasnt able to do so... they wanted to have lunch with me after my lunchtime performance, and waited for me for about 3-4 hours, but i wasnt able to meet them, didnt even get to say goodbye to them, or thank them for coming...
SO!!! back to topic.. today was fun. laughed like shit, play like shit, eat like shit, shit like shit. and mc became p**n*n*. MUA HA HA HA! play CS until we headache. pros of the pros. also played many rounds of magic. hate MC's deck. HATE IT!! HATE THE GIANT DECK!! EVEN MORE HATE THE UNDERWARE DECK!! but it was fun. reali reali. after playing cs a while at the lan shop, daryl the real giant appeared. i noe im veri mean, but the first reaction i got is, 'wow he grew fatter, and he dyed his hair... and fatter..' and i tell myself, must slim down more. MUA HA HA HA. evil i noe..
tml going out with mc and cliques again.. the Ultimate Laughing Group. behold my next post. hope to get some photos for the next post. cos its going to be fun tml.
went to play lan with dragon and mcmillan today. and guess how much i spent on lan? $9.30!! first time in my whole entire life i spent so much in lan, cos im not a lan person(don play lan, and not guai lan. LMAO). play almost 5hours fo CS!!! OMG LA!!! haha. i suck at cs, don realli play, and onli play a few times onli. the reason i go (even dough im sick) is beacause, realli stressed about my life, and i noe going out with them realli take away all my stress. they are realli friends whom i can truned to.
and mc! thanx for getting me out of all the shity situation i have been through all these time. i am realli lucky to have u as my friend.
another reason why i went with them is also... guilty la... realli want to go out with them for even just one day. ever since i joined stagearts, i never realli went out with my friends. this, i should say is the first - third time in half a year, cant realli remember the exect amount.. and they came to my production. suppose to go home together and chit-chat on the bus, the pathetic amount of time for us to clique together, i wasnt able to do so... they wanted to have lunch with me after my lunchtime performance, and waited for me for about 3-4 hours, but i wasnt able to meet them, didnt even get to say goodbye to them, or thank them for coming...
SO!!! back to topic.. today was fun. laughed like shit, play like shit, eat like shit, shit like shit. and mc became p**n*n*. MUA HA HA HA! play CS until we headache. pros of the pros. also played many rounds of magic. hate MC's deck. HATE IT!! HATE THE GIANT DECK!! EVEN MORE HATE THE UNDERWARE DECK!! but it was fun. reali reali. after playing cs a while at the lan shop, daryl the real giant appeared. i noe im veri mean, but the first reaction i got is, 'wow he grew fatter, and he dyed his hair... and fatter..' and i tell myself, must slim down more. MUA HA HA HA. evil i noe..
tml going out with mc and cliques again.. the Ultimate Laughing Group. behold my next post. hope to get some photos for the next post. cos its going to be fun tml.
Friday, November 30, 2007
4th dance performance.
today was my 4th dance performance... the crowd was.. veri little i must say.. but still, i did full out. haha.
but the cool thing was, went to eat prata with everyone SHIOK!!! muaha ha. and before that, josh taught us a cheror. 3eights, its nice!!! loved it. then go arcard and play. DAMN NICE! BISHI BASHI! MX DANCE! THE HIT THE PLATE THINGY! MUA HA HA! i noe i shouldnt be spending all these money, and i should save money, but today is SHIOK! realli relaxed. then after tat go eat mos! talk alot of carp and jokes with jess and alision.. and i did something stupid. i asked the same thing for 4 time. braindead.
stomach feeling unwell the whole day,not feeling good the whole day. and i got a new problem in my family tat just pop up. i can pull through this. i believe.
but the cool thing was, went to eat prata with everyone SHIOK!!! muaha ha. and before that, josh taught us a cheror. 3eights, its nice!!! loved it. then go arcard and play. DAMN NICE! BISHI BASHI! MX DANCE! THE HIT THE PLATE THINGY! MUA HA HA! i noe i shouldnt be spending all these money, and i should save money, but today is SHIOK! realli relaxed. then after tat go eat mos! talk alot of carp and jokes with jess and alision.. and i did something stupid. i asked the same thing for 4 time. braindead.
stomach feeling unwell the whole day,not feeling good the whole day. and i got a new problem in my family tat just pop up. i can pull through this. i believe.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
barbie
OMG!!! THE SONG BARBIE GAL IS STUCKED IN MY HEAD!!
yesteday went back ycs end of year cmap. went there, did prep for 'wanhui' with my team. for the skit they planned of doing deal or no deal, and the mv they doing barbie gal.. for some wierd and i donno wad reason, irwin acctually have the song barbie gal in his phone. i asked him why the hell u have tat song in ur phone? he give me the issnt-it-obvious smile... i was like okay...
so i thought of some dance move(more like poses) for them... then steph be ken(the guy), irwin, reginald, andrew and me be the barbie. LOL!!! okay... so... now the song is still in my head. damn.
and guess wad.. when i doing my cheoro.. i hit on my right knee again.. and this time, not onli the knee. the toe also... blueblack inside the toe... pain.....
reach bk home, eat the cha shao fan tat i da bao... eat finish, i just knocked off, and fell asleep on the living room floor. tillab 530 in the morning i woke up, move to my room, continue to sleep. forgot to bath, cos i eat finish i just knocked off liao...
need do a veri hard graphic desgin thing already.. wan to eat prata also..
yesteday went back ycs end of year cmap. went there, did prep for 'wanhui' with my team. for the skit they planned of doing deal or no deal, and the mv they doing barbie gal.. for some wierd and i donno wad reason, irwin acctually have the song barbie gal in his phone. i asked him why the hell u have tat song in ur phone? he give me the issnt-it-obvious smile... i was like okay...
so i thought of some dance move(more like poses) for them... then steph be ken(the guy), irwin, reginald, andrew and me be the barbie. LOL!!! okay... so... now the song is still in my head. damn.
and guess wad.. when i doing my cheoro.. i hit on my right knee again.. and this time, not onli the knee. the toe also... blueblack inside the toe... pain.....
reach bk home, eat the cha shao fan tat i da bao... eat finish, i just knocked off, and fell asleep on the living room floor. tillab 530 in the morning i woke up, move to my room, continue to sleep. forgot to bath, cos i eat finish i just knocked off liao...
need do a veri hard graphic desgin thing already.. wan to eat prata also..
Sunday, November 25, 2007
im a cock-a-na-than.
GOSH MAN IM SO COCK!
lets start with friday.
end sch at 12, so went to blk e to lepak, slack, rest and enjoy. cos i forgot to bring my admin card and lazy to go through so much trouble to get into sports hall to meet yan. alittle later amin joined me, dough i wanted to rest, in the end i still danced for him. but after like 30 min i realli cannot dahan, cos i hurt my left ankel the day before, when showing peter my cheoro. cant even walk without pain la.. haha. so i stayed at blk e, play hero, read blog, do hmwk, then go home.
reach home at about 4 which is DAMN FREAKING EARLY FOR ME LA! cos im quite shag after the week ( not sleeping for 2 days straight to study and do ycs and dancing everyday for showcase to peter ), first thing i did when i went home is sleep. at about 8 like this my mum came into my room, stand at the door there, and call and wake me up... for some god knows reason the first thing i did is, went up right infront my mum face and did a preperation for jete in front of her. she was like 'WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING LA!?' then i answer, 'ya hor? what am i doing arr?', then i go back to sleep.. then she wake me up again to go eat. so i force myself to wake up and eat then thing tat i tot was my breakfast (it was my dinner but i tot its breakfast), curry. after eating finish, i went online, did finish my ycs report, settle the stuff with the logistic for ycs camp, went back to sleep..
next morning (sat), i woke up, i see the time 0800, i was like fuck.. im late for school again... i change into my go-to-school clothing, take my laptop, ready to head for school. then i think, its sunday wad.. why i go for school for?? THEN IT SNAP TO MY MIND! FUCK!! TODAY SUNDAY! TML YCS CAMP!! I HAVENT COME OUT WITH BURGET! i open my laptop, and start to do the ycs report and try to do the burget. then i found out, aa.. i did it. OOOOOOO!! i did it last nite when im half asleep. i can acctually do my job while sleeping/sleepwalking or wadever u call it. i went through it, okay its nicely done, bravo to me. then i wanted to go back sleep again. then i lie on the bed then i JUMP UP AGAIN! wait, if yesterday is friday, then today is saturday. i look at the time, 0830. FUCK! IM LATE FOR WORK!!!
in the end im late for 15min at my dad's workplace...
cock rite?i noe.
i found tat im quite cock when i just wake up, like went up straight to my mum's face and do a preperation for jete... and at ycs exco camp i went and stood right infront of daph.. and at dance camp, i donno wad am i saying to zelia, and i also donno wad she saying to me..
let me touch on dance camp. zelia she is the time keeper, so she came to tell us that its 630 already, 30min to reporting time. then she was like
'nick arr, 630 already'
'huh?'
'630 already'
'huh? 1130??'
'*stunned* "something something" 630 already'
'*i forgot wad crap i said already"
until awhile, i think she is trying to say somethign to me, but i don understand. so after zee went off, i turn to lexiang who is sleeping beside me. i go
'lexiang, wake up, zelia looking for u'
then once i see him wake up, i went to sleep.
then just before i fell asleep again, i understood wad she say, so i woke up again.
another cock thing that i kept doing onli recently is, i say things tat i don mean to. example.
tat time self practice for dance, then i nth to do so i go buy things from mac for zee and treasa and jess and huifang. then i brought fries for me zee treasa... at first i wanted to eat my fries on the way but then cos the ppl underpack, so i decided to save it till i reach blk e then i enjoy.. but donno why the hell, i go tell zee ' at first i wan to tou chi the frice on the way one' and onli 3 days later then i ask myself, why the HELL did i say that. then i have alot of miscom with germaine lately and i got no idea why?! cos like im braindead recently, and things just don process in my head... so anyone, if i offended u, pls fogiveme. :D
got more cockanathan thing to blog, but tired. shall go rest... bb
lets start with friday.
end sch at 12, so went to blk e to lepak, slack, rest and enjoy. cos i forgot to bring my admin card and lazy to go through so much trouble to get into sports hall to meet yan. alittle later amin joined me, dough i wanted to rest, in the end i still danced for him. but after like 30 min i realli cannot dahan, cos i hurt my left ankel the day before, when showing peter my cheoro. cant even walk without pain la.. haha. so i stayed at blk e, play hero, read blog, do hmwk, then go home.
reach home at about 4 which is DAMN FREAKING EARLY FOR ME LA! cos im quite shag after the week ( not sleeping for 2 days straight to study and do ycs and dancing everyday for showcase to peter ), first thing i did when i went home is sleep. at about 8 like this my mum came into my room, stand at the door there, and call and wake me up... for some god knows reason the first thing i did is, went up right infront my mum face and did a preperation for jete in front of her. she was like 'WAD THE HELL ARE U DOING LA!?' then i answer, 'ya hor? what am i doing arr?', then i go back to sleep.. then she wake me up again to go eat. so i force myself to wake up and eat then thing tat i tot was my breakfast (it was my dinner but i tot its breakfast), curry. after eating finish, i went online, did finish my ycs report, settle the stuff with the logistic for ycs camp, went back to sleep..
next morning (sat), i woke up, i see the time 0800, i was like fuck.. im late for school again... i change into my go-to-school clothing, take my laptop, ready to head for school. then i think, its sunday wad.. why i go for school for?? THEN IT SNAP TO MY MIND! FUCK!! TODAY SUNDAY! TML YCS CAMP!! I HAVENT COME OUT WITH BURGET! i open my laptop, and start to do the ycs report and try to do the burget. then i found out, aa.. i did it. OOOOOOO!! i did it last nite when im half asleep. i can acctually do my job while sleeping/sleepwalking or wadever u call it. i went through it, okay its nicely done, bravo to me. then i wanted to go back sleep again. then i lie on the bed then i JUMP UP AGAIN! wait, if yesterday is friday, then today is saturday. i look at the time, 0830. FUCK! IM LATE FOR WORK!!!
in the end im late for 15min at my dad's workplace...
cock rite?i noe.
i found tat im quite cock when i just wake up, like went up straight to my mum's face and do a preperation for jete... and at ycs exco camp i went and stood right infront of daph.. and at dance camp, i donno wad am i saying to zelia, and i also donno wad she saying to me..
let me touch on dance camp. zelia she is the time keeper, so she came to tell us that its 630 already, 30min to reporting time. then she was like
'nick arr, 630 already'
'huh?'
'630 already'
'huh? 1130??'
'*stunned* "something something" 630 already'
'*i forgot wad crap i said already"
until awhile, i think she is trying to say somethign to me, but i don understand. so after zee went off, i turn to lexiang who is sleeping beside me. i go
'lexiang, wake up, zelia looking for u'
then once i see him wake up, i went to sleep.
then just before i fell asleep again, i understood wad she say, so i woke up again.
another cock thing that i kept doing onli recently is, i say things tat i don mean to. example.
tat time self practice for dance, then i nth to do so i go buy things from mac for zee and treasa and jess and huifang. then i brought fries for me zee treasa... at first i wanted to eat my fries on the way but then cos the ppl underpack, so i decided to save it till i reach blk e then i enjoy.. but donno why the hell, i go tell zee ' at first i wan to tou chi the frice on the way one' and onli 3 days later then i ask myself, why the HELL did i say that. then i have alot of miscom with germaine lately and i got no idea why?! cos like im braindead recently, and things just don process in my head... so anyone, if i offended u, pls fogiveme. :D
got more cockanathan thing to blog, but tired. shall go rest... bb
Friday, November 23, 2007
my cheoro.
talking about my cheoro, i havent named my cheoro! haha. was thinking thinking thinking... thought of naming it the same as my o'level art piece 'sadness of the storyteller', but dosent realli fit, cos i was thinking more to 'sadness + denied'. so, still need to go crack my brain. aiyo, i noe it dosent realli matter to come out with a name for it la, but just trying to realli 'complete' it. like got a whole picture liao, but lack of the title, sad u noe...
acctually, my choero is about a sad person's mindset. sometimes, when people are sad, they just going around finding help from others. but deep down inside, they forgot to help themselves. ended up, when they are alone, they donno wad to do, donno wad choice to make. they will hide themselves into even deeper sorrow to make them feel better, but the truth is it makes them feel worst. the answer to their problems is infront of them, telling them wad is the right thing to do, but they did not follow it, and make the wrong choice, even when they know wad is right deep down in their heart. so they just make the same mistake again.. and again.. and again.. and each time the mistake repeats, it get worst, and worst, and worst. and in my cheoro, i pictured at the end tat the person is stuck inside his own sorrows, and was suck into it and no longer can get away from it. (depression? mental-disabled? blood vessle burst?)
i really donno wad to choose. i realli donno wad to do.
and now i made a choice, i did it. but was wad i did right?
i donno
im still confused about what i did. and what i want. its like what i want to be is so unreachable. i have living proves to tell me its impossible, but still i hanged on for 6mths. now is the clam period, i wonder when is the next wave coming in.
physically drained, from dance
mentally drained, from school
emotionally drained, from those people behind the wall
how i wish was my fats that got drained away instead. then i can be as thin as zelia(last time)
cant wait for april to come. when i will have one thing less to commite to.
and somehow, im dancing out my life in my choero.
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dance practice today, the attendance was like, bad? onli like got 10 people in the studio, FREAKING COLD LA! so there were
-me
-amin
-lexiang
-carla
-jess
-huifang
-germaine
-treasa
-meixian
-zelia
tats all. like so little la.. do basic warm up, splits(like thank god! cos before practice i was praying to do splits for warm-up. for those who saw my cheoro should know why, cos i not as pro as zee and treasa), crunches, hand excersice, then peter came. then he ask us show cheoro, it goes like this
-lexiang
-carla
-meixian & treasa
-germaine
-me
-huifang and jess
-me and amin
-zee and treasa
after germaine then i snap to my mind, onli got 10 ppl lay, then got 2 pair(not counting me and amin), then all the soloist going dance finish, should faster go, or not later dance finish my one then dance amin one, i will die!!!!! in the end peter's comments on all our choero was not bad, but my one i need to work on it la, like alot more... i bang on my left ankle. onli when i not warm already then i felt the strain... shit man.. thinking of cutting short my cheoro or do sth to it, cos peter's feedback is tat mine is draggy, so need to work on it...
then after seeing cheoro, peter told us tat he sack the sch, and the sch sack him. so tues will be his last training with us. dough he is veri strick to us, but its realli his strickness tat make us grow la.. i donno issit to others but it is to me la... but its also the strickness tat make alot ppl quit.. when i join danzinc, i cant even do a pencil turn, and i tot i will fail the audition la.. is like through this 6mths, i realli think that peter made me grow more than i thought i would before i join(dough im still like shit now).
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AND I DAMN COCK U NOE!?
today at DEP was sitting with yana, then talking about drama, then i tell her i not going this wk la, cos its my sis birthday, then i need work in place of her to let her go celebrate. then i think, my sis birthday near my birthday lay, then i took out the calander, i count. OMG! ITS 13DAYS AWAY! I DIDNT NOTICE! like wtf la! i acctually forgot about my OWN birthday.. guess my no-life life realli turning me to no life, my birthday also didnt occour to me. thinking of how to celebrate... but i rather stay in sch, at blk e with my friends, rather with my family lay..
time to go bk to study and doing the report for ycs. not going to sleep again tonite.
p.s. if any one have a good suggestion to the title for my cheoro, feel free to giv me a helping hand ya =D
acctually, my choero is about a sad person's mindset. sometimes, when people are sad, they just going around finding help from others. but deep down inside, they forgot to help themselves. ended up, when they are alone, they donno wad to do, donno wad choice to make. they will hide themselves into even deeper sorrow to make them feel better, but the truth is it makes them feel worst. the answer to their problems is infront of them, telling them wad is the right thing to do, but they did not follow it, and make the wrong choice, even when they know wad is right deep down in their heart. so they just make the same mistake again.. and again.. and again.. and each time the mistake repeats, it get worst, and worst, and worst. and in my cheoro, i pictured at the end tat the person is stuck inside his own sorrows, and was suck into it and no longer can get away from it. (depression? mental-disabled? blood vessle burst?)
i really donno wad to choose. i realli donno wad to do.
and now i made a choice, i did it. but was wad i did right?
i donno
im still confused about what i did. and what i want. its like what i want to be is so unreachable. i have living proves to tell me its impossible, but still i hanged on for 6mths. now is the clam period, i wonder when is the next wave coming in.
physically drained, from dance
mentally drained, from school
emotionally drained, from those people behind the wall
how i wish was my fats that got drained away instead. then i can be as thin as zelia(last time)
cant wait for april to come. when i will have one thing less to commite to.
and somehow, im dancing out my life in my choero.
________________________________________________
dance practice today, the attendance was like, bad? onli like got 10 people in the studio, FREAKING COLD LA! so there were
-me
-amin
-lexiang
-carla
-jess
-huifang
-germaine
-treasa
-meixian
-zelia
tats all. like so little la.. do basic warm up, splits(like thank god! cos before practice i was praying to do splits for warm-up. for those who saw my cheoro should know why, cos i not as pro as zee and treasa), crunches, hand excersice, then peter came. then he ask us show cheoro, it goes like this
-lexiang
-carla
-meixian & treasa
-germaine
-me
-huifang and jess
-me and amin
-zee and treasa
after germaine then i snap to my mind, onli got 10 ppl lay, then got 2 pair(not counting me and amin), then all the soloist going dance finish, should faster go, or not later dance finish my one then dance amin one, i will die!!!!! in the end peter's comments on all our choero was not bad, but my one i need to work on it la, like alot more... i bang on my left ankle. onli when i not warm already then i felt the strain... shit man.. thinking of cutting short my cheoro or do sth to it, cos peter's feedback is tat mine is draggy, so need to work on it...
then after seeing cheoro, peter told us tat he sack the sch, and the sch sack him. so tues will be his last training with us. dough he is veri strick to us, but its realli his strickness tat make us grow la.. i donno issit to others but it is to me la... but its also the strickness tat make alot ppl quit.. when i join danzinc, i cant even do a pencil turn, and i tot i will fail the audition la.. is like through this 6mths, i realli think that peter made me grow more than i thought i would before i join(dough im still like shit now).
________________________________________________
AND I DAMN COCK U NOE!?
today at DEP was sitting with yana, then talking about drama, then i tell her i not going this wk la, cos its my sis birthday, then i need work in place of her to let her go celebrate. then i think, my sis birthday near my birthday lay, then i took out the calander, i count. OMG! ITS 13DAYS AWAY! I DIDNT NOTICE! like wtf la! i acctually forgot about my OWN birthday.. guess my no-life life realli turning me to no life, my birthday also didnt occour to me. thinking of how to celebrate... but i rather stay in sch, at blk e with my friends, rather with my family lay..
time to go bk to study and doing the report for ycs. not going to sleep again tonite.
p.s. if any one have a good suggestion to the title for my cheoro, feel free to giv me a helping hand ya =D
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
my monday
woke up LATE! SHIT MAN! forgot to put alarm clock then go to sleep. how cock can i be?
veri cock~~~
maths test today was easy for me.. finished the test in 15min. then slowly pack my pack, slowly send the file to teacher, then slowly walk of the room. so by right i end sch at 12noon, so now by left i end sch at 1130. then practice my GD at blkE till germaine they all come, then practice dance with amin. guess wad. amin + mine cheoro, i totally fall on my right knee not twice, 3time! pain shit man...after the first time i cannot do full out already.. but tried again and again, then got my 2nd, then 3rd. sadded.
talked alot of cock with zeee today. MUA HA HA HA.. alot of jokes man... inculding the questions arr? i know wad u thinking(the 20 question thingy)... LMAO! and it takes 2 to 'enjoy' a cup~~~ OMG!!! and the rice BALLS!!! ARR!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! LUMSACO!! welcome to beautiful jameka(issit spelt this way?)!! ur son make fun of me??? *side track abit* the dwafs don have place to stay. OMG LA!!
gosh.. don think i will be sleeping today. just don feel like sleeping. so many things bothering me.. guess will take this time to study abit.. PMP lesson coming soon.. better do something before going to the lesson, or not lostin the 3hour lab again.
btw, lum-sa-co means...
laugh until my shit all come off.
veri cock~~~
maths test today was easy for me.. finished the test in 15min. then slowly pack my pack, slowly send the file to teacher, then slowly walk of the room. so by right i end sch at 12noon, so now by left i end sch at 1130. then practice my GD at blkE till germaine they all come, then practice dance with amin. guess wad. amin + mine cheoro, i totally fall on my right knee not twice, 3time! pain shit man...after the first time i cannot do full out already.. but tried again and again, then got my 2nd, then 3rd. sadded.
talked alot of cock with zeee today. MUA HA HA HA.. alot of jokes man... inculding the questions arr? i know wad u thinking(the 20 question thingy)... LMAO! and it takes 2 to 'enjoy' a cup~~~ OMG!!! and the rice BALLS!!! ARR!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! LUMSACO!! welcome to beautiful jameka(issit spelt this way?)!! ur son make fun of me??? *side track abit* the dwafs don have place to stay. OMG LA!!
gosh.. don think i will be sleeping today. just don feel like sleeping. so many things bothering me.. guess will take this time to study abit.. PMP lesson coming soon.. better do something before going to the lesson, or not lostin the 3hour lab again.
btw, lum-sa-co means...
laugh until my shit all come off.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
recharged through the weekends
didnt sleep well for thurs and fri nite, doing my self studies at home cos i seriously missed out alot. sat drama session was fun, play quite a few fun and meaningful game conducted by sara and anjana. WEE~~ 3 CHEERSFOR UR~~~ left early for ycs meeting.. it starts at 1300 and i left drama at 1330. lol.
and now? its sunday for god sake! damn i slept till 1200+ man... and slack through out the whole day... rested, recharger, relexed. if i can get back on track for PMP, IAD, DE and the VB thingy, then will be good. realli need to buck up on my gpa, too freaking low.
havent been stretching for these pass 3 days(including today).. should i go stretch now? cos im kinda lazy todaya dn today suppose to be my lepak day...
aiyo.. see how bah. :D
OH AND AND AND! ATE 1 BANANA PRATA AND 1 NORMAL PRATA LAST NITE! school one tase much nicer... but its still not bad la.... just love pratas~~~
and now? its sunday for god sake! damn i slept till 1200+ man... and slack through out the whole day... rested, recharger, relexed. if i can get back on track for PMP, IAD, DE and the VB thingy, then will be good. realli need to buck up on my gpa, too freaking low.
havent been stretching for these pass 3 days(including today).. should i go stretch now? cos im kinda lazy todaya dn today suppose to be my lepak day...
aiyo.. see how bah. :D
OH AND AND AND! ATE 1 BANANA PRATA AND 1 NORMAL PRATA LAST NITE! school one tase much nicer... but its still not bad la.... just love pratas~~~
Friday, November 16, 2007
assessment over
the pervious post is just to vend out my thoughts. so yea, its okay if u don understand...
OMG ZEEE!! UR TAT SONG SO FREAKING NICE LA!! I KEPT LISTENING LA... OMG!!!
haha.. assessment is over. finally, and guess wad?!? today i acctually reach home at 3!!! first time reach so early man.. still having cold war with my family. shit do happenes..
don feel like blogging liao. come bk tml yea?? =D
OMG ZEEE!! UR TAT SONG SO FREAKING NICE LA!! I KEPT LISTENING LA... OMG!!!
haha.. assessment is over. finally, and guess wad?!? today i acctually reach home at 3!!! first time reach so early man.. still having cold war with my family. shit do happenes..
don feel like blogging liao. come bk tml yea?? =D
did i make the right decision?
did i make the right choice?
what if wad i did was wrong?
but what can show me that what i did was wrong?
i want to stay in that place,
enjoying every moment i'm spending there.
it's okay if i make myself tired,
but is it okay to cause trouble to other?
they are trying to help me so much,
but i believe there is a limit to it.
i cannot be too selfish,
i cannot be too self centered,
i cannot make myself to ask for anything more..
cos i did nothing but creating trouble for them..
and you!
who ever you may be..
please,
show me the way,
lead me to the light,
leave me with no regret.
cos i don wan to be this anymore...
Thursday, November 15, 2007
dance assessment day..
sorri for not blogging for so long. don have the mood plus don have the time.
this week from mon to thurs(today) im dancing... why? for assessment is one thing, don wan to go home is one thing.
i hate going home where by my family will start asking me to quit SA. i don't want to quit! why don they understand.. they asking me why i come home so late this wk, i wish to tell them 'don wan see ur face'. so in the end, quarrle again. shit man.
going to request a break from drama till alumni nite over to forcus on my studies. reason being, i believe drama is easier to catch up then dance. still considering.. but answer need to be out by sat, don wish to delay it any further. for the good of me and my family.
told my sis i going to take a break for drama til alumni nite, guess wad the fuck she say? 'then like this the period u step down is more then the activity time wad. u step down 1mth then u got activity for 2 mth, if u step down one mthmore then u bz for 2 mth again. then ur step down period is less then ur activity period wad' LIKE WTF IS TAT BIMBO THINKING LA! WAD! WAD SHE WAN! BREAK 1 YEAR GO 1 TRAINING THEN BREAK ANOTHER YEAR LA! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
*change topic*
bad luck on tuesday.. normal practice from 1830 till ab 2000+. tried PK double turn but failed... ya ya ya i noe i fell again.. like normal liao lo.. cos im the onli one in class who can turn until fell down one. always.. haiz... haha chee seng was damn damn damn nice. the thing he teach realli work ur mussle la.. haha. alot of nice movements and got one part of my cheoro is jump up then slide on the floor one, he also teach it. finally i learnt how to do it correctly. MUA HA HA HA HA! so nice... mussle ache like shit la...
took bus with julian to go bk home. was such a great time, cos julian just kept helping me with my cheoro and telling me where to improve. sooo nice of him la.... and also because of him i think my chero is a littlebit nicer now. HOHO. and guess wad happen on wed morning?!?!
LAOSAI ARR!! FROM 0500 TO 0800 SIA!!!! with chee sing class mussle ache plus laosai,
leg = jelly
now both my knee got blue black (thanx to nicholas who is not able to hold himself), and my shoulder(thanx to nocholas who is not able to hold himself)...
ZEEEE!! I NEED TO HERO TO DESTRESS LA!!!! BUT I GOT NO TIME!! HOW?!?!?
for some reason, i think im dancing out my life in my choero.
pls. show me the way, lead me to the light, leave me with no regret, cos i don wan to be stay in here anymore.
this week from mon to thurs(today) im dancing... why? for assessment is one thing, don wan to go home is one thing.
i hate going home where by my family will start asking me to quit SA. i don't want to quit! why don they understand.. they asking me why i come home so late this wk, i wish to tell them 'don wan see ur face'. so in the end, quarrle again. shit man.
going to request a break from drama till alumni nite over to forcus on my studies. reason being, i believe drama is easier to catch up then dance. still considering.. but answer need to be out by sat, don wish to delay it any further. for the good of me and my family.
told my sis i going to take a break for drama til alumni nite, guess wad the fuck she say? 'then like this the period u step down is more then the activity time wad. u step down 1mth then u got activity for 2 mth, if u step down one mthmore then u bz for 2 mth again. then ur step down period is less then ur activity period wad' LIKE WTF IS TAT BIMBO THINKING LA! WAD! WAD SHE WAN! BREAK 1 YEAR GO 1 TRAINING THEN BREAK ANOTHER YEAR LA! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
*change topic*
bad luck on tuesday.. normal practice from 1830 till ab 2000+. tried PK double turn but failed... ya ya ya i noe i fell again.. like normal liao lo.. cos im the onli one in class who can turn until fell down one. always.. haiz... haha chee seng was damn damn damn nice. the thing he teach realli work ur mussle la.. haha. alot of nice movements and got one part of my cheoro is jump up then slide on the floor one, he also teach it. finally i learnt how to do it correctly. MUA HA HA HA HA! so nice... mussle ache like shit la...
took bus with julian to go bk home. was such a great time, cos julian just kept helping me with my cheoro and telling me where to improve. sooo nice of him la.... and also because of him i think my chero is a littlebit nicer now. HOHO. and guess wad happen on wed morning?!?!
LAOSAI ARR!! FROM 0500 TO 0800 SIA!!!! with chee sing class mussle ache plus laosai,
leg = jelly
now both my knee got blue black (thanx to nicholas who is not able to hold himself), and my shoulder(thanx to nocholas who is not able to hold himself)...
ZEEEE!! I NEED TO HERO TO DESTRESS LA!!!! BUT I GOT NO TIME!! HOW?!?!?
for some reason, i think im dancing out my life in my choero.
pls. show me the way, lead me to the light, leave me with no regret, cos i don wan to be stay in here anymore.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Friday, November 9, 2007
4days!
OMG OMG OMG!! I BREAK THE RECORD FOR THIS SEM!! I WAS PRESENT IN SCHOOL AND ALL THE CLASSES FOR 4 FREAKING DAYS!! WOOHOO!!!!!
so freakig tired... and i realli hate sitting beside yana, she wont stop looking at my post, and now she is reading out my post... and i think she is having a interner struggle on who to see after this.. so sad.
was realli realli happy today, cos yesterday i realli did some selfstudies myself, and todya, my first friday lesson in this whole sem, i scored 10/10 for my quiz (so do yana she say)!!! OMG!!! so happy la!!
another thing is my choero. MUA HA HA, dough its v.eri cock but i did comeout with somehting more. now its about2 more chours liao. HOHOHO!! SO MANY IDEAS IN MY MIND! but so dissapointed tat my body cannot do it. will train hard to reach it.
gosh today woke up, was at a freaking wierd possition... and that leads to.. my morning back ache.. just now at DE was seriously painful la.. don think today can practice my choero unless i wan to break my back..
shit la.. yesterday cannot go jingwei bd celebration.. freaking working.... haiz....
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
so freakig tired... and i realli hate sitting beside yana, she wont stop looking at my post, and now she is reading out my post... and i think she is having a interner struggle on who to see after this.. so sad.
was realli realli happy today, cos yesterday i realli did some selfstudies myself, and todya, my first friday lesson in this whole sem, i scored 10/10 for my quiz (so do yana she say)!!! OMG!!! so happy la!!
another thing is my choero. MUA HA HA, dough its v.eri cock but i did comeout with somehting more. now its about2 more chours liao. HOHOHO!! SO MANY IDEAS IN MY MIND! but so dissapointed tat my body cannot do it. will train hard to reach it.
gosh today woke up, was at a freaking wierd possition... and that leads to.. my morning back ache.. just now at DE was seriously painful la.. don think today can practice my choero unless i wan to break my back..
shit la.. yesterday cannot go jingwei bd celebration.. freaking working.... haiz....
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
pulling up my socks
i seriously seriously seriously need to buck up my studies. lunchtime and dramanite realli make me lost my way in studies already... yesterday went to class, from lab 2 PEWWW lab5 with a quiz.. today... lab 1 PEWWW lab 4. i was like WTF?!?!? seriously need to do more self study..
for some reason, i hope to do my best in dance assessment but fail the assessment and get kick out.... cos, it feels less hurtful to be 'not good enough to be there', then 'good enough to be in there but cannot be in there'... i don wan to quit dance, nor drama. but my studies, my time... i veri scared alimuin nite... most prob will be stuck between dance and drama again....
mum and sis is already hinting me to work, cos i promised them to work after dramanite... seriously in need of money, and seriously don know wad to do... and seriously don feel like going home..
yesterday choero... i find mine quite orite la... but i donno why i got this habit of closing eyes. drama also close eyes, dance also close eyes... i love abstract too much.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
for some reason, i hope to do my best in dance assessment but fail the assessment and get kick out.... cos, it feels less hurtful to be 'not good enough to be there', then 'good enough to be in there but cannot be in there'... i don wan to quit dance, nor drama. but my studies, my time... i veri scared alimuin nite... most prob will be stuck between dance and drama again....
mum and sis is already hinting me to work, cos i promised them to work after dramanite... seriously in need of money, and seriously don know wad to do... and seriously don feel like going home..
yesterday choero... i find mine quite orite la... but i donno why i got this habit of closing eyes. drama also close eyes, dance also close eyes... i love abstract too much.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
Monday, November 5, 2007
tml i will die
shit.. did my 4eights (alittle more than tat la) already, but u noe wad? IT CRAP! IT LOOK LIKE SHIT! seriouslly la, don think its nice nor good... trying to tell a story but.. SHIT!! STRESS!!! A!!! @__@
FREAKING FLU GO AWAY! know wad? just now i was doing pirouettes and chaines (2slow4fast), my 'bi ti' was like flying around la, majiam tap water, so FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG!!!
some one pls help me,
AAAAAAAAAAAA
next week assessment!!!
AAAAAAAAA
STUDIES CATCHING UP
... X30789812
dead
R.I.P.
nick
help la
aaa
cannot think liao
water still dripping from my nose...
tissue paper using majiam free like this...
no urge for pratamania... no energy to eat
FREAKING FLU GO AWAY! know wad? just now i was doing pirouettes and chaines (2slow4fast), my 'bi ti' was like flying around la, majiam tap water, so FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG!!!
some one pls help me,
AAAAAAAAAAAA
next week assessment!!!
AAAAAAAAA
STUDIES CATCHING UP
... X30789812
dead
R.I.P.
nick
help la
aaa
cannot think liao
water still dripping from my nose...
tissue paper using majiam free like this...
no urge for pratamania... no energy to eat
sick
damn man, i think all those late nite did catch up with me. feeling so sick now. its horrible but still trying to come out with the 4 eights peter wan... got a shity looking 3eights done(like freaking shity and ugly and donno wad to say one. prepraed to get f one)
today was so shity man.. didnt get late for sch, reach at 0750, COOL RITE!?! but was sick the whole freaking day... sickening... chinese got this saying, hao de kai shi ju shi chen gong de yi ban. last wk, wasnt late and went for all classes on monday, tuesday overslept quite alot, wed thurs fri didnt go sch. this wk i had a good start like last wk, i hope my wk don become the same as last or i realli will kanna debarred.
SICKNING LA!!
just ate prata, but hungry for more.
urge for pratamania is 2star! * * * * *
today was so shity man.. didnt get late for sch, reach at 0750, COOL RITE!?! but was sick the whole freaking day... sickening... chinese got this saying, hao de kai shi ju shi chen gong de yi ban. last wk, wasnt late and went for all classes on monday, tuesday overslept quite alot, wed thurs fri didnt go sch. this wk i had a good start like last wk, i hope my wk don become the same as last or i realli will kanna debarred.
SICKNING LA!!
just ate prata, but hungry for more.
urge for pratamania is 2star! * * * * *
Sunday, November 4, 2007
slept for freaking 12hours man!!!
seriously got to rest after such a hetic life. haha. slept at 2100, woke up at 0630 myself but went back to sleep till 0930. shiok like shit man... as in seriously man... man man man... HAHA
woke up feel so like wan to go swim, havent got the time to for like so many mths.. reach the swimming pool, brought the child ticket.. cos the ppl there told me before child is under 18, so all along i brought the child ticket la... after buying the ticket today then i found out that they added thie device at the ticket machine (entrence), where by if u pass using a child ticket, the board will light up a big 'CHILD' and the buzz sound will ring freaking loud. when i was queuing i was like SHIT LA!! then when my turn, i put the card in, it went BUZZZ so freaking loud then everyone was like looking at me la... then the guy came and i told him i under 18, then okay lo... but everyone was like freaking looking at me like donno wad la... legaly im child, but i swear from today on if i ever go again im going to buy a adult ticket. if i ever go again that is...
went to sleep again at 1600.. shiok man... wake up at 1800 to go eat dinner. haha like super pig la.. DIDNT GO CUT HAIR! was to shag to go cut... tml i will go cut i promise!!! haiz.....
okay, now im fully charged and ready for classes. hope it will last long.. pls... i don wan skip classes anymore!!!
i so need prata
urge for pratamania is 5stars * * * * *
seriously got to rest after such a hetic life. haha. slept at 2100, woke up at 0630 myself but went back to sleep till 0930. shiok like shit man... as in seriously man... man man man... HAHA
woke up feel so like wan to go swim, havent got the time to for like so many mths.. reach the swimming pool, brought the child ticket.. cos the ppl there told me before child is under 18, so all along i brought the child ticket la... after buying the ticket today then i found out that they added thie device at the ticket machine (entrence), where by if u pass using a child ticket, the board will light up a big 'CHILD' and the buzz sound will ring freaking loud. when i was queuing i was like SHIT LA!! then when my turn, i put the card in, it went BUZZZ so freaking loud then everyone was like looking at me la... then the guy came and i told him i under 18, then okay lo... but everyone was like freaking looking at me like donno wad la... legaly im child, but i swear from today on if i ever go again im going to buy a adult ticket. if i ever go again that is...
went to sleep again at 1600.. shiok man... wake up at 1800 to go eat dinner. haha like super pig la.. DIDNT GO CUT HAIR! was to shag to go cut... tml i will go cut i promise!!! haiz.....
okay, now im fully charged and ready for classes. hope it will last long.. pls... i don wan skip classes anymore!!!
i so need prata
urge for pratamania is 5stars * * * * *
Saturday, November 3, 2007
rest
finally, lunchtime, dramanite, NEA performance, all finished... finally can take a breath and get myself prepared for the next round.
loved drama nite 2007, it was realli a wonderful experience. feel so good on stage, feel so good to be in the team, feel so good to achrive something with the team... 'sophia', my second script i acted. =)
i must admit tat 'johnny' was a realli tough role for me, but it was realli a great experience for me, thanx to anjana and shida and my teammates... love ur man.. and thanx kaye, for listening to me on tat day itself.
feel so tired... but yet happy.. but when reach home, i just feel like there is another war for me to fight. my mum just keep nagging and i just recieve 1 warning letter. i believe there is more to come for the lesson i just skiped.. its onli wk 3 u noe?! so tired.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
loved drama nite 2007, it was realli a wonderful experience. feel so good on stage, feel so good to be in the team, feel so good to achrive something with the team... 'sophia', my second script i acted. =)
i must admit tat 'johnny' was a realli tough role for me, but it was realli a great experience for me, thanx to anjana and shida and my teammates... love ur man.. and thanx kaye, for listening to me on tat day itself.
feel so tired... but yet happy.. but when reach home, i just feel like there is another war for me to fight. my mum just keep nagging and i just recieve 1 warning letter. i believe there is more to come for the lesson i just skiped.. its onli wk 3 u noe?! so tired.
urge for pratamania is 5stars! * * * * *
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
TODAY IS MY DAY!
LUNCHTIME ON TODAY!! PEOPLE COME WATCH!!!
1255 AT ATRIUM NYP!!!
MUSH COME!!!
DON BE LATE!!! 1ST ITEM ROCK!!!
miss it u cry..
was late for dance for 15min! lucky peter didnt scold.. this is how it went
1812 - aisha began run through (onli sences with my sences)
1830 - finish runthrough
1836 - finish comments
1836 - germain called, saying we are in trouble, ask me faster go
1841 - finish packing my back.l i got freaking 8 mounting board, 2 styrophone board, 4 plasti/paper bag, my own bag to carry
1844 - reach outside studio, spent 30sec trying to open the freaking door, too many thing in hand.
1845 - reach studio(ran like shit. everyone turn and lok at me as i run pass them. i like so wierd la)
so when i reach studio they just finish running, and i did mine too with additional 10kg on, from blk E to blk A.
banner was approved, so now i onli hoping that tml our admin don screw up, our logistic don screw up, our planning don screw up, my performance don screw up. cos just now when doing 'giv it to me' i felt faint 2time. before the octopus one is damn obvious. i like totally damn weak suddenly ad damn giddy.. final run through i realli gave in all the energy i got, don think its gd enough.. today i gave 100%, later im gonna giv 150%!!!! NICHOLAS CAN DO IT! then after 3pm will head off to do full dress rehearsal for dramanite. WOOT!
seriously need go sleep. my shirt was finish le. can go sleep le. BB! damn its raining.. gonna be freaking nice to sleep man...
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
1255 AT ATRIUM NYP!!!
MUSH COME!!!
DON BE LATE!!! 1ST ITEM ROCK!!!
miss it u cry..
was late for dance for 15min! lucky peter didnt scold.. this is how it went
1812 - aisha began run through (onli sences with my sences)
1830 - finish runthrough
1836 - finish comments
1836 - germain called, saying we are in trouble, ask me faster go
1841 - finish packing my back.l i got freaking 8 mounting board, 2 styrophone board, 4 plasti/paper bag, my own bag to carry
1844 - reach outside studio, spent 30sec trying to open the freaking door, too many thing in hand.
1845 - reach studio(ran like shit. everyone turn and lok at me as i run pass them. i like so wierd la)
so when i reach studio they just finish running, and i did mine too with additional 10kg on, from blk E to blk A.
banner was approved, so now i onli hoping that tml our admin don screw up, our logistic don screw up, our planning don screw up, my performance don screw up. cos just now when doing 'giv it to me' i felt faint 2time. before the octopus one is damn obvious. i like totally damn weak suddenly ad damn giddy.. final run through i realli gave in all the energy i got, don think its gd enough.. today i gave 100%, later im gonna giv 150%!!!! NICHOLAS CAN DO IT! then after 3pm will head off to do full dress rehearsal for dramanite. WOOT!
seriously need go sleep. my shirt was finish le. can go sleep le. BB! damn its raining.. gonna be freaking nice to sleep man...
urge for pratamania is 3stars! * * * * *
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
my attendance is realli realli realli veri bad.... today i didnt went for 3hours of class, onli went for 2 hour... wed thurs fri not going whole day...
thurs.. big headache. heard aisha wan runthrough but shida and anjana say rest? but anyway got rehersal at bishan park so got excuess letter... need take up ninja class and leard duplication skill.... then i can do dance\drama and go to class, sleep and study at same time, ISSINT TAT COOL?!?
sitting at the same spot as me last few post S476.............. nice place man........ dough the cloud look quite dark, but the sky look nice. realli wish to rest on one of it, wa........ think of it realli damn shiok sai.....
later going for drama, then go for dance. can onli breath after 3nov. pls, let me breath, i need some air....
lastly, thanx too all the people who helped me out (and the one peeping now), and thanx to my drama group, sorry for wad i did yesterday..
will go and try to liisten to the boring lect... -.-.
YANA!!!! STOP PEEPING!!!!
urge for pratamania is 3 star! * * * * *
thurs.. big headache. heard aisha wan runthrough but shida and anjana say rest? but anyway got rehersal at bishan park so got excuess letter... need take up ninja class and leard duplication skill.... then i can do dance\drama and go to class, sleep and study at same time, ISSINT TAT COOL?!?
sitting at the same spot as me last few post S476.............. nice place man........ dough the cloud look quite dark, but the sky look nice. realli wish to rest on one of it, wa........ think of it realli damn shiok sai.....
later going for drama, then go for dance. can onli breath after 3nov. pls, let me breath, i need some air....
lastly, thanx too all the people who helped me out (and the one peeping now), and thanx to my drama group, sorry for wad i did yesterday..
will go and try to liisten to the boring lect... -.-.
YANA!!!! STOP PEEPING!!!!
urge for pratamania is 3 star! * * * * *
Monday, October 29, 2007
im screwed.
wed thurs fri all got excuess letter. im so going to die. seriously scared i will get debarred. seriously need to go tok to my teachers, seriously need a rest.
IM NOT LATE FOR SCHOOL!
MUA HA HA HA HA! today i acctually made it for my morning class. monday 0800 graphic desgin. made it for the first time (week3 le lay).
GD i not tat scared, cos dough i missed 3 out of 5 lesson (today pluys the last 2wk, 2 lesson per wk), i didnt miss out much and i still can cope with it veri well. the thing tat i scared the most is just my attendance.haiz..... miss my prata, hope later before drama got time go eat.
come to talk about prata, zee was saying that i have a prataddition... the word looks kinda cool and i kinda agree to it. HOHOHO. trying illustrator just now and come out with something quite funny....
oh god im so tired.............. banner going to finish soon, just hope tat everything don screw up.
GD i not tat scared, cos dough i missed 3 out of 5 lesson (today pluys the last 2wk, 2 lesson per wk), i didnt miss out much and i still can cope with it veri well. the thing tat i scared the most is just my attendance.haiz..... miss my prata, hope later before drama got time go eat.
come to talk about prata, zee was saying that i have a prataddition... the word looks kinda cool and i kinda agree to it. HOHOHO. trying illustrator just now and come out with something quite funny....
oh god im so tired.............. banner going to finish soon, just hope tat everything don screw up.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
IT1844
first row on the lef side, msn-ing. first role on the right side, watching one piece,
second row on the left side is semi listening, so as the second row right side.
thrid row leftside, day dreaming, counter strike, blogging (me), racing game, getting horny.
third row right side, donno wad they doing, habing fun i think.
tat is the lesson im in now. super boring. HELPI WANNA SLEEP LE!
second row on the left side is semi listening, so as the second row right side.
thrid row leftside, day dreaming, counter strike, blogging (me), racing game, getting horny.
third row right side, donno wad they doing, habing fun i think.
tat is the lesson im in now. super boring. HELPI WANNA SLEEP LE!
wierd
tired. all i have to say. tml 630 reach airport get the guy rom IYCS, 1000 reach school for class, 1300-1400 break time go drama, end sch 1800, meet mum to pass her laptop to bring home for sis at 1800, sxyback start at 1800, dance end2230 (got feeling its going to be 2300 again).
but then im so busy, i was questioning myself. have i been improving? from wad i see is no lo. my salsa hiphop and hiphop is like shit. like no matter how sharp i tried to be i still so soft and wudong. sickening.my pointing of leg is still suck. my strength, don wan tok about it. the onli thing that i can at least be alittle bit happy is my pirouettes. can finally do double liao. few time triple (ankle cannot dahan), and at least it shows tat all the ankle excersise is working. my back issint doing any good, so i seriously need to go see doc after lunchtime. AAAAA
not sleeping to study, so pls. giv me the energy
but then im so busy, i was questioning myself. have i been improving? from wad i see is no lo. my salsa hiphop and hiphop is like shit. like no matter how sharp i tried to be i still so soft and wudong. sickening.my pointing of leg is still suck. my strength, don wan tok about it. the onli thing that i can at least be alittle bit happy is my pirouettes. can finally do double liao. few time triple (ankle cannot dahan), and at least it shows tat all the ankle excersise is working. my back issint doing any good, so i seriously need to go see doc after lunchtime. AAAAA
not sleeping to study, so pls. giv me the energy
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
breaking down
well my friends. guess wad username i type when i tried to sgin in to blogger. 'breakdown'.
funny rite?!? i also donno why i type tat. but seriously. i realli feel likebreaking down. things seems to be just too hard for me to handle. wads my life like now? wake up, washup, school, break time practice dance, after school go for drama, after drama go to dance practice, go home sleep. with this hetic life, i pray and i wish and i hope and i pray harder that YCS pls don have anyevents near this time. and guess my prayer wasnt heard. dickson sms me tat this sat got a metting with IYCS member, and this thurs need to go pick up 1 IYCS member from the airport and tour him around singapore. i realli realli realli cannot get out from my drama and dance practice. yesterday i was late for dance for 30min and i guess peter was realli unhapy about it. drama? anjana and shida had already gave in so much for me, if i even didnt come for sat, i wonder wad to do for drama nite which is next fri.
so i sms dickson saying that i cannot make it cos i don even have time to study! then he ask me, 'why do u go and find so many commitment when u know u are in YCS exco'. i asked myself tat question...
my friends beside me, as in realli friendS, asked me to quit YCS. and guess wad, my family is so pissed with me to be in YCS. how the hell am i going to committeinto YCS??? my family is like shit now, my sis dosent wan to talk to me, my dad is... , my mum is so stress. further more, i need to work after 2nov cos i seriously need money. rite now im still thinking of ways to get my textbook, notes, and even admin card which is lost in the hands of my friend. MONEY!
saw rene on the way out to sch after dance yesterday. talked to her about my stagearts problem. feel alittle better now, but still veri bad. thanx rene.
was looking at the clouds a min ago. so feel like lying on one of it, and just comfortably rest there and don think of anything. enjoying the wind, feel the sun, have nothing to worrie about. but then there will not be any prata there so, drop tat idea.
funny rite?!? i also donno why i type tat. but seriously. i realli feel likebreaking down. things seems to be just too hard for me to handle. wads my life like now? wake up, washup, school, break time practice dance, after school go for drama, after drama go to dance practice, go home sleep. with this hetic life, i pray and i wish and i hope and i pray harder that YCS pls don have anyevents near this time. and guess my prayer wasnt heard. dickson sms me tat this sat got a metting with IYCS member, and this thurs need to go pick up 1 IYCS member from the airport and tour him around singapore. i realli realli realli cannot get out from my drama and dance practice. yesterday i was late for dance for 30min and i guess peter was realli unhapy about it. drama? anjana and shida had already gave in so much for me, if i even didnt come for sat, i wonder wad to do for drama nite which is next fri.
so i sms dickson saying that i cannot make it cos i don even have time to study! then he ask me, 'why do u go and find so many commitment when u know u are in YCS exco'. i asked myself tat question...
my friends beside me, as in realli friendS, asked me to quit YCS. and guess wad, my family is so pissed with me to be in YCS. how the hell am i going to committeinto YCS??? my family is like shit now, my sis dosent wan to talk to me, my dad is... , my mum is so stress. further more, i need to work after 2nov cos i seriously need money. rite now im still thinking of ways to get my textbook, notes, and even admin card which is lost in the hands of my friend. MONEY!
saw rene on the way out to sch after dance yesterday. talked to her about my stagearts problem. feel alittle better now, but still veri bad. thanx rene.
was looking at the clouds a min ago. so feel like lying on one of it, and just comfortably rest there and don think of anything. enjoying the wind, feel the sun, have nothing to worrie about. but then there will not be any prata there so, drop tat idea.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
OMG!! IM SO BORED!!! SOME ONE PLEASE HELP ME!!! I CAN BELIEVE THAT IM IN THIS CLASS!!!
class is so freaking boring and i dont know wad the hell the teacher is toking about. i don even noe wad the name is la.. starting of the lesson i was like asking yana, ' wad is tha name of this module? '. LIKE WAD THE HELL LA.. so freeeeeeeeeasking boring... but after class, i will be so freaking stress.... its 8days to lunchtime performance, 10days to dramanite, 14days to dance assessment.
A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A H ! ! ! ! ! !
damn... i seriously hope to get the father chatacter into me, and get the technics into me.... PK turn.... jete!! CHAINES!! PIROUETTE!! battlement... die! and lunchtime.... veri scared lay... my salsa hiphop still ka-na-sai... hiphop item 'give it to me' is ka-na-ji-pu-sai.....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I NEED PRATA!!!! dough i just ate a milky prata 90min ago before i post. I NEED MORE PRATA!!
long time never drink milk liao. my back.
class is so freaking boring and i dont know wad the hell the teacher is toking about. i don even noe wad the name is la.. starting of the lesson i was like asking yana, ' wad is tha name of this module? '. LIKE WAD THE HELL LA.. so freeeeeeeeeasking boring... but after class, i will be so freaking stress.... its 8days to lunchtime performance, 10days to dramanite, 14days to dance assessment.
A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A H ! ! ! ! ! !
damn... i seriously hope to get the father chatacter into me, and get the technics into me.... PK turn.... jete!! CHAINES!! PIROUETTE!! battlement... die! and lunchtime.... veri scared lay... my salsa hiphop still ka-na-sai... hiphop item 'give it to me' is ka-na-ji-pu-sai.....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I NEED PRATA!!!! dough i just ate a milky prata 90min ago before i post. I NEED MORE PRATA!!
long time never drink milk liao. my back.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
new colour scheme
haha. changed my tag board...
i find this one better cos i can choose my own colour combi, but then when i tried to make it bule (my ex-colour scheme, its abit gay). so i come out with black and red, then with my black ground white like majiam danzinc logo red white black. but it look nice to me, so giv me some coments ya!
i find this one better cos i can choose my own colour combi, but then when i tried to make it bule (my ex-colour scheme, its abit gay). so i come out with black and red, then with my black ground white like majiam danzinc logo red white black. but it look nice to me, so giv me some coments ya!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
sorry for not posting for so long my dear friends haha,
daph acctually asked me on msn to post so, yea.
gosh this wk is realli a long and busy week, and guess wad?! its onli my first wk of school. didnt attend a single class for the 1st two day (as explained on the last post), wed i over slept, thurs didnt skip lesson, fri overslept. next week onwrads i cannot oversleep at all, nor to be late. cos my attendance will be veri bad with all the excuess letters tat im going to recieve. HAIZ.. so pratically im present in NYP for more then 12hours every weekdays, but weekends is onli a few hours. why? activity are clashing like nobody business now...
31st oct-dance lunchtime performance
2nd nov- drama nite
so every single day i will be either dramaing, or dancing, or dramaing and dancing. its tough and i can feel the pressure. but i do believe that i can pull through this. after all, im doing wad i like, and im enjoying the moments. im trying to invite my family to drama nite. for them to understand me more. my mm she agreed, but my sis, not too sure. i havent got a chance to ask them. cos when i asked them to come for my lunchtime they said no immidatelly. cos tat time production i didnt managed to get enough tickets, so they cant go. but nvm, i will get my ticket first, then i ask them this time round.
then again on msn, fir told me something. 'preassure is good'. i guess wad he say is rite, =D thanx fir! i will make it through his time. family, finacial, friends, time, studies. i will manage it will i promise.
daph acctually asked me on msn to post so, yea.
gosh this wk is realli a long and busy week, and guess wad?! its onli my first wk of school. didnt attend a single class for the 1st two day (as explained on the last post), wed i over slept, thurs didnt skip lesson, fri overslept. next week onwrads i cannot oversleep at all, nor to be late. cos my attendance will be veri bad with all the excuess letters tat im going to recieve. HAIZ.. so pratically im present in NYP for more then 12hours every weekdays, but weekends is onli a few hours. why? activity are clashing like nobody business now...
31st oct-dance lunchtime performance
2nd nov- drama nite
so every single day i will be either dramaing, or dancing, or dramaing and dancing. its tough and i can feel the pressure. but i do believe that i can pull through this. after all, im doing wad i like, and im enjoying the moments. im trying to invite my family to drama nite. for them to understand me more. my mm she agreed, but my sis, not too sure. i havent got a chance to ask them. cos when i asked them to come for my lunchtime they said no immidatelly. cos tat time production i didnt managed to get enough tickets, so they cant go. but nvm, i will get my ticket first, then i ask them this time round.
then again on msn, fir told me something. 'preassure is good'. i guess wad he say is rite, =D thanx fir! i will make it through his time. family, finacial, friends, time, studies. i will manage it will i promise.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
STEAMBOAT DAY!
GOSH! BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST BLOG PROPALLY!
okay this will be a loooooooooooooooooooooong blog to keep my blog alive.
went to eat steamboat at ZhiPing's (BE v.p) house. it was SOOOOOOO FUN!! the most fun part is to see yeeshan botak! MUA HA HA HA. i noe i veri mean la, but realli veri funny. die, 2years later become me, sad. haha. anyway, i was late for the meet up, suppose to meet at 1830 but i reach at ab 1845... same train as terry but he dao me la.. listen to his songs... haiz, dissapointing... quite a number of ppl went there i cant realli remember everyone's name, got a few be gals, dc gals, terry and... another guy i forgot his name suddenly im so sorry, erm, germaine, treasa, jess, zelia, yeeshan, fir, alision, brian, jingyi, benji, peter, rene(the one who bite me and pinch me and hit me which realli hurts. ESPECIALLY THE BITE, win meixian..).. erm.. think tat much ppl lo... quite many ppl.. (sorry if i miss out anyone)
got ALOT of food sia, we all see the amount of food first thing come to our mind is 'SINFUL'. gosh! lunchtime coming soon la! grr... then treasa they all was like keep telling me beyond ledgen wear singlet lay... salsa hiphop wear singlet lay... then must slim down la! AAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I NOE I FAT LA!!!!!! grr.. need slim down or not everyone wear singlet nice nice onli i so fat... then when i bring take the food everyone went WAHHHHHHHH then so paisay la.. in the end i onli ate 3 serving of food(look at my size pls), and a few vege that i kapo from kind benji(thanz so much T_T)... then reach home i still abit hungry, cos don dare eat so much. =>.<= STOP LAUGHING! grr...). at first tot will burst over 80kg one..
got some photos but is with rene they all, if i got it i will post la. *still havent post the camp one... lazy..*
oh ya... today they also celebrated benji(belated one) and erm.. and another gal who they call panda(advance one).. forgot her name.. ya so they celebrated their birthday. after singing the song, i go toilet pang sai, come back, the cake is gone... so... nvm, on diet anyway....
okay another topic. IM SO GREAT! COS IM GOING TO SKIP MY LESSON ON THE FIRST 2DAY OF SCH! haha.. cos of SEG open house, then got performance, so i got excuess letter from 9-1 for firstg 2 day of sch. abit sad and happy. can skip those jiao intro from the teacher, but on the other hand those intro are quite important. so need find out from friend le lo. HAIZ... but my first dance performance... I WILL JIAYOU DE!! *pls pls pls don spraine my leg again like last time youth culture brazza pls pls pls*
okay this will be a loooooooooooooooooooooong blog to keep my blog alive.
went to eat steamboat at ZhiPing's (BE v.p) house. it was SOOOOOOO FUN!! the most fun part is to see yeeshan botak! MUA HA HA HA. i noe i veri mean la, but realli veri funny. die, 2years later become me, sad. haha. anyway, i was late for the meet up, suppose to meet at 1830 but i reach at ab 1845... same train as terry but he dao me la.. listen to his songs... haiz, dissapointing... quite a number of ppl went there i cant realli remember everyone's name, got a few be gals, dc gals, terry and... another guy i forgot his name suddenly im so sorry, erm, germaine, treasa, jess, zelia, yeeshan, fir, alision, brian, jingyi, benji, peter, rene(the one who bite me and pinch me and hit me which realli hurts. ESPECIALLY THE BITE, win meixian..).. erm.. think tat much ppl lo... quite many ppl.. (sorry if i miss out anyone)
got ALOT of food sia, we all see the amount of food first thing come to our mind is 'SINFUL'. gosh! lunchtime coming soon la! grr... then treasa they all was like keep telling me beyond ledgen wear singlet lay... salsa hiphop wear singlet lay... then must slim down la! AAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I NOE I FAT LA!!!!!! grr.. need slim down or not everyone wear singlet nice nice onli i so fat... then when i bring take the food everyone went WAHHHHHHHH then so paisay la.. in the end i onli ate 3 serving of food(look at my size pls), and a few vege that i kapo from kind benji(thanz so much T_T)... then reach home i still abit hungry, cos don dare eat so much. =>.<= STOP LAUGHING! grr...). at first tot will burst over 80kg one..
got some photos but is with rene they all, if i got it i will post la. *still havent post the camp one... lazy..*
oh ya... today they also celebrated benji(belated one) and erm.. and another gal who they call panda(advance one).. forgot her name.. ya so they celebrated their birthday. after singing the song, i go toilet pang sai, come back, the cake is gone... so... nvm, on diet anyway....
okay another topic. IM SO GREAT! COS IM GOING TO SKIP MY LESSON ON THE FIRST 2DAY OF SCH! haha.. cos of SEG open house, then got performance, so i got excuess letter from 9-1 for firstg 2 day of sch. abit sad and happy. can skip those jiao intro from the teacher, but on the other hand those intro are quite important. so need find out from friend le lo. HAIZ... but my first dance performance... I WILL JIAYOU DE!! *pls pls pls don spraine my leg again like last time youth culture brazza pls pls pls*
Monday, October 8, 2007
danz inc camp ROCK MAN
danz inc camp rock!
learn more about choero-ing, reggae, studio, coustume shop, peter(lol).
have alot of fun
too tired thinking of camp le HAHA
post until here
had ALOT of fun la
learn more about choero-ing, reggae, studio, coustume shop, peter(lol).
have alot of fun
too tired thinking of camp le HAHA
post until here
had ALOT of fun la
Thursday, October 4, 2007
tagged by Noorasyakirah Binte Rahmat.
Layer 1: On the outside
Name: nicholas long jiyong
date: 05-12-1990
Current Status: single as usual
Eye colour: black
Hair Colour: orange-y brown i will say (supposed to be la)
Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: pure chinese
My fears: lonelyness
My weaknesses: brainless
My perfect pizza: any pizza. can eat, i like =D
Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow My first thought of
waking up: YAWN~~~
My bedtime: get some energy for tml
My most missed memories: that day when i have alot of money.
Layer 4: My pick.
Pepsi or Coke: coke
Single or group dates: donno... depends i think
Adidas or Nike: nike
Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
Layer 5: Do you?
Smoke: nah~
Do you Curse: like ya..
Have a crush: ya..
Go to school: ya...
Believe in yourself: ya..
Think you're a health freak: no. LOOK AT THE WAY I EAT!
Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol: a little
Gone to the mall: ya
Dyed your hair: ya
Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game: nah. don mind to try one dough :P
Change who you were to fit in: in the past in pri sch.
Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: think so.
Layer 9: In a partner
Best eye colour: any eye will look gd on her
Best hair colour: any colour will look gd on her
Long or short hair: any hair will look gd on her
Layer 10: What were you doing?
A minute ago: finishing this survey
An hour ago: waching one piece
A Month ago: don remember. got SSTMS.
Layer 11: Finish the sentences..
I love: my life.
I hide: *im hiding it*
I need: a life
Layer 12: Tag 5
kenneth
kaye
germaine
yiyan
daphne
=D
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
a slacky wed
today when i wake up i feel veri strange cos of my back. then try to get of my bed, AIYA. back pain. move to the right, AIYA. back pain. move the the left, AIYA. back pain. so in the end i lie on my bed for 10mins to think of how to get off my bed. cos i put my leg down when lying, AIYA. back pain. so i flip over, do a child hold, roll up(not roll la, just come up la, roll i will die), then sit up, then walk down my bed.
after that i went to see doctor. waited for like 40min and it feels so wierd. cos u see, everyone there is like slauching and dying like this, onli me sit until super straight. so, veri wierd.
go home, eat some bread, take med, play some game, sleep, wake up go aunt house with family to makan, come back take med, blog, later sleep. tml go for the nyaa thingy and dance pract(daph allow me to sitin YA!). haiz...
okay, this is a veri funny thing, for the pass 3 wk im super free and i wan to teach zishan they all dance, some stupid shit i come out for them for YouthAchiver anniversary la.. must contribute abit as a member wad.... but they don wan, wan play majiong instead. nvm... this sat they wan practice but im all the way in nyp having dance camp. after camp need prepare for oct 31st lunchtime performance (seriously need to train alot cos i now kanasai. as in realli sai, sai u noe? SAI!). somewhere near performance also got dance assessment, donno when la but need to work veri hard starting from NOW, cos i like SAI. then followed my drama nite, which i think need alot of my commitment, then will be ycs EOY camp and carolling and so.... blahblahblah... and it think the anniversary is somewhere after dramanite onli... so.... ya. seriously need to dig time. and i seriously think that i need do more CIP if i realli want to get my NYAAgold award next year(which i dought i have the heart and time la)i think i have about 20-30 hours already, need to hit 80hours. its easy! if i don have this much commitments..... oh well, thats just nicholas-y rite?
okay. time to go slack some more. WOOOOOOOO
after that i went to see doctor. waited for like 40min and it feels so wierd. cos u see, everyone there is like slauching and dying like this, onli me sit until super straight. so, veri wierd.
go home, eat some bread, take med, play some game, sleep, wake up go aunt house with family to makan, come back take med, blog, later sleep. tml go for the nyaa thingy and dance pract(daph allow me to sitin YA!). haiz...
okay, this is a veri funny thing, for the pass 3 wk im super free and i wan to teach zishan they all dance, some stupid shit i come out for them for YouthAchiver anniversary la.. must contribute abit as a member wad.... but they don wan, wan play majiong instead. nvm... this sat they wan practice but im all the way in nyp having dance camp. after camp need prepare for oct 31st lunchtime performance (seriously need to train alot cos i now kanasai. as in realli sai, sai u noe? SAI!). somewhere near performance also got dance assessment, donno when la but need to work veri hard starting from NOW, cos i like SAI. then followed my drama nite, which i think need alot of my commitment, then will be ycs EOY camp and carolling and so.... blahblahblah... and it think the anniversary is somewhere after dramanite onli... so.... ya. seriously need to dig time. and i seriously think that i need do more CIP if i realli want to get my NYAAgold award next year(which i dought i have the heart and time la)i think i have about 20-30 hours already, need to hit 80hours. its easy! if i don have this much commitments..... oh well, thats just nicholas-y rite?
okay. time to go slack some more. WOOOOOOOO
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
ahh~~ my back~~
my back pi-jia today during dance practice...
for the whole story, lets go back to 4days ago~~~
playing majiong at chee ka house, then was slauching, not sleeping properly.. then suddenly see my tiles i go PONG and suddenly sit up straight. so, for that, i hurt my back...
then today, everything was fine cos stretching i didnt do those i cannot do one and crunches i do abit onli(dough meixian ask me not to do). then do battlement kicks.. front was okay, then do side one my back PA. gone. then sitin the studio for ab 3hours... sian.....
DANCE CAMP COMING!! DEAR BACK! PLS LET ME BE ABLE TO GO!!!
for the whole story, lets go back to 4days ago~~~
playing majiong at chee ka house, then was slauching, not sleeping properly.. then suddenly see my tiles i go PONG and suddenly sit up straight. so, for that, i hurt my back...
then today, everything was fine cos stretching i didnt do those i cannot do one and crunches i do abit onli(dough meixian ask me not to do). then do battlement kicks.. front was okay, then do side one my back PA. gone. then sitin the studio for ab 3hours... sian.....
DANCE CAMP COMING!! DEAR BACK! PLS LET ME BE ABLE TO GO!!!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
lets go straight down to business. im going to talk about discipline. i seriously think that i need a more discipline life or things will just get very very screwed up and i have a long list of stuff i make myself to do when i think about it. just to share with ur, this is the list.
-not to be late in anything
(i keep being late in drama, meeting friends, message, replying, and alot of stuff lately. kinda annoying even for myself
-not to oversleep anymore
(most of the reason why im late)
-stretch more!
(i seriously think i need to buck up my flexiblity)
-practice my pointing everyday
(cos my pointing realli sucks. point majiam no point)
-eat less
(this one need to explain? need slim down la... so fat)
-spend less money
(realli super broke)
-keep the house clean
(more like wad mum ask me to do rather then myself)
-be more kind to jingyi
(since she keep saying i bully her. so...)
-go to gym at least once a week
(train my abs area *the place with no abs* since i cant do crunches so cannot train there)
-resume my visit to IMH
(i've been missing out alot of visit to there to help in YouthAchivers. they are kind enough to understand my timetable but i still feel veri bad la. attatendance not veri consistence)
-do everything i owe!
(i still owe my YCS report, and lot of other stuff. havent get key from ex-treasure also. so manything havent go do where i should do. ALAMAK)
acctually. still got alot more. just i don think ur wan to see. =D
haiz... hope i can lead a more less hetic life. but not that peaceful too, or not i will rot to death
-not to be late in anything
(i keep being late in drama, meeting friends, message, replying, and alot of stuff lately. kinda annoying even for myself
-not to oversleep anymore
(most of the reason why im late)
-stretch more!
(i seriously think i need to buck up my flexiblity)
-practice my pointing everyday
(cos my pointing realli sucks. point majiam no point)
-eat less
(this one need to explain? need slim down la... so fat)
-spend less money
(realli super broke)
-keep the house clean
(more like wad mum ask me to do rather then myself)
-be more kind to jingyi
(since she keep saying i bully her. so...)
-go to gym at least once a week
(train my abs area *the place with no abs* since i cant do crunches so cannot train there)
-resume my visit to IMH
(i've been missing out alot of visit to there to help in YouthAchivers. they are kind enough to understand my timetable but i still feel veri bad la. attatendance not veri consistence)
-do everything i owe!
(i still owe my YCS report, and lot of other stuff. havent get key from ex-treasure also. so manything havent go do where i should do. ALAMAK)
acctually. still got alot more. just i don think ur wan to see. =D
haiz... hope i can lead a more less hetic life. but not that peaceful too, or not i will rot to death
Friday, September 28, 2007
my blog is alive
gosh its been so long since i last blogged. haiz. alot of things happened and u won want to know.it will take 2 hours to read finish so ya.... just posting to tell ur this blog is still alive. i will blog more when i have time. going to work in ab 1hr time.. hahaha MISS ME and miss my post ya! =D
Sunday, September 23, 2007
$71.50
woooot. came bk from my good, fun, tired job. hahaha. but the sad thing is, i miss the last train. so i need to take night bus... which take like 1hr from HF to houngang. =.= u cant expect me to earn $71.50 then spen $10++ at taxi rite.. siao sia... so reach home at ab 130am... haiz... leg so pain now.. quite cool rite? work 2 days $71.50.. i yesterday work from 5-930, today 4-11... 1st day and 1st half of 2nd day is quite slacky... but once the wedding starts, hetic sia! gosh... tired la, go sleep liao. anyone wan hear story can call me :D i can tell u ALOT hahaha.. HD some nore WOOT
Thursday, September 20, 2007
my stressless day
seriously, things are damn wierd for me. others are enjoying their holiday, im not. why? cos im not used to having holiday. like got nothing to do. all i do everyday is sleep then wake up then eat then shit the play com then sleep. the first few wk of holiday was paradise for me... seriously, i finally got to rest. but now i think i rest too much. like rotting at home liao. all i can do is stretch here, stretch there, try to train up some mussle, talk to friend, watch anime.. the only time i go out is dance practice, drana practice, self dance practice...
i cant wait for work to start, then i will have more things to do. i cant wait for oct to come, got dance assessment, dance camp,dance performance, and the soon-will-be-coming drama night. AAAAA fee;ing that im leading a no-ife life now, so freaking nothing to do. want to know how nothing to do i can get? i even thought of going back to play maple story....
i cant wait for work to start, then i will have more things to do. i cant wait for oct to come, got dance assessment, dance camp,dance performance, and the soon-will-be-coming drama night. AAAAA fee;ing that im leading a no-ife life now, so freaking nothing to do. want to know how nothing to do i can get? i even thought of going back to play maple story....
sian-ness
don realli have anything to blog about. these few days life is rather peaceful to put it in good words, to be abit more ugly word will be boring. HAIZ finished my milk, finish watching onepiece, finish my food, but one thing seem never going to finish, stress and workload. faint.
why is life so unfair.....
why is life so unfair.....
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
i did something stupid
aaa went for dance practice today. practiced salsa hiphop and alittle bit of across the floor. then practice here practice there, at the last part lexiang got realli realli high and starts to challenge jingwei. was totally funny la. them me and amin start to challenge each other. he say he won but i say i won. so... lets move on. then ppl starts to drama. lol. got realli reali crazy. in my opinion. i will giv the best actor award to lexiang, and best actress to daphne. haha.
on my way home, i did something realli realli realli realli X83294762398 stupid. i chaines all the way from blkE to blkA to the exit. then i giddy all the way from yo chu kang to houngang. i swear i will never do something so stupid again.
reach home. check my result. I PASS!! but gpa 1.9++ onli. not that gd la, but at least i pass. made a promise to my family that next sem will show gd result or they will cut down on my commitment. realli need to pull up my socks. k. i go rest liao. tml i shall visit the gym to train my abs, which is currently a united kindom. shit la my back, cannot do crunches, cannot do this, cannot do that. go die la..
on my way home, i did something realli realli realli realli X83294762398 stupid. i chaines all the way from blkE to blkA to the exit. then i giddy all the way from yo chu kang to houngang. i swear i will never do something so stupid again.
reach home. check my result. I PASS!! but gpa 1.9++ onli. not that gd la, but at least i pass. made a promise to my family that next sem will show gd result or they will cut down on my commitment. realli need to pull up my socks. k. i go rest liao. tml i shall visit the gym to train my abs, which is currently a united kindom. shit la my back, cannot do crunches, cannot do this, cannot do that. go die la..
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
so long didnt post liao
quite a few days didnt blog liao. haha. cos my sis was rushing her project with the laptop so i didnt get a chance to use com. haha.
okay.... shall start blogging about sun. haha. went practice dance with amin, germaine, jess, jingyi. go to this CC near ang mo kio one la. not angmokio, forgot the name. then hor, its a nice place la. open area with wind... but got the noise of the mrt and the 'fantastic' singing from the aunties and uncles from the karaOK shop just beside us... -.- haha. half way through dex suddenly appeared. then practice practice.. suddenly i spotted o2jam on jingyi's laptop. then i attemp to play, but cannot then she got O2MANIA!!! WOOT!!! then i started playing :P in the mean time amin and germaine they all started filming themselves.
okay.... shall start blogging about sun. haha. went practice dance with amin, germaine, jess, jingyi. go to this CC near ang mo kio one la. not angmokio, forgot the name. then hor, its a nice place la. open area with wind... but got the noise of the mrt and the 'fantastic' singing from the aunties and uncles from the karaOK shop just beside us... -.- haha. half way through dex suddenly appeared. then practice practice.. suddenly i spotted o2jam on jingyi's laptop. then i attemp to play, but cannot then she got O2MANIA!!! WOOT!!! then i started playing :P in the mean time amin and germaine they all started filming themselves.
haha. acctually got alot more. this is one of those that we took. but amin onli send us this.... hope ur like it. lol X5
okay! monday... went for cheeka house for some majiong session. alamak. lost $3.90 HAHAHAH lucky la.. not that much.. little bit onli..
later, going for dance practice... gonna practice across the floor. issit it cool? E308. so looooooooooong. can realli practice until siao HOHOHO
Friday, September 14, 2007
first day with my jazz shoes
back from dance practice.... tired... peter gave us a new across the floor.. im like seeing stars la... @_@ but wad he say is rite la.. we need to practice more and train more... its been ab 5mths since i join SAdance and i still cannot hold through out my launch balance... shame. TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN!! pirouttes lvl 1-9~~ im coming~~~
danced with my brand new jazz shoe today, toe PAIN like shit man...hope to get used to it soon. tml going for training for my job. MONEY MONEY COME!!! MONEY MONEY COME!!! HAHA hopefully by term3 (if i managed to pass this coming assisment la) i will have enough money to get myself a jazz snickel(issit spelled this way?).
I WAN TO GET SOMETHING LIKE THE ONE DEX GOT! GOLD!! SO DAMN SEXY AND HOT LA!!
danced with my brand new jazz shoe today, toe PAIN like shit man...hope to get used to it soon. tml going for training for my job. MONEY MONEY COME!!! MONEY MONEY COME!!! HAHA hopefully by term3 (if i managed to pass this coming assisment la) i will have enough money to get myself a jazz snickel(issit spelled this way?).
I WAN TO GET SOMETHING LIKE THE ONE DEX GOT! GOLD!! SO DAMN SEXY AND HOT LA!!
Thursday, September 13, 2007
wad a nice morning..
YAWN~~
wake up in the late morning 1130... drink my cup of nice nice HL strawberry milk, eat my nice nice cupcakes, listen to some nice nice music, lying on my nice nice bed, posting on my this nice nice blog, slacking to the nice nice weather... shiok.... this is wad i call holiday...
normal sch day i onli get to sleep ab 3-6hour. my this holiday i can sleep 6 - 12 hours(most of the time is more then 8 la). activity wise is still the same, but the sleeping and slacking time is SHIOK sia..... go watch one piece liao... just nice. finish my cup of milk and finish blogging XD
to rab : MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
wake up in the late morning 1130... drink my cup of nice nice HL strawberry milk, eat my nice nice cupcakes, listen to some nice nice music, lying on my nice nice bed, posting on my this nice nice blog, slacking to the nice nice weather... shiok.... this is wad i call holiday...
normal sch day i onli get to sleep ab 3-6hour. my this holiday i can sleep 6 - 12 hours(most of the time is more then 8 la). activity wise is still the same, but the sleeping and slacking time is SHIOK sia..... go watch one piece liao... just nice. finish my cup of milk and finish blogging XD
to rab : MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Sunday, September 9, 2007
haha. went to sentosa for interview today. got the job HOHOHO. will be starting work on 21st. so damn long la... still struggling between accepting the jitterbug scholarship or not. my heart tells me yes, but my wallet and family tells me no. haiz..... struggling struggling...
went to celebrae my dad's bd at a thai restruan. quite nice the food. the funny thing is, when we reach tere, they tell us. 'if u want to eat inside the aircon, u need to wait min 1/2hour. if u wan to sit at the non-aircon area, u can start ordering now'. so my family choose the non-aircon one, got fan and quite some nice tree to look at. its also quite cooling la. then eat finish liao, walk off, those ppl who queue befor us is still waiting while we finished eating a good meal in a good environment. issint singaporean strange? tha aircon and non aircon is no much diff la seriously, and because of the aircon they waited at the non aircon place... =.= in the end they spend more time in waiting then eating. u noe the waiting place is so stuffy and crowded... and the non aircon place to eat is like so cooling... stupid ppl sia...
drinking my HL strawberry milk now... YUMMY!
went to celebrae my dad's bd at a thai restruan. quite nice the food. the funny thing is, when we reach tere, they tell us. 'if u want to eat inside the aircon, u need to wait min 1/2hour. if u wan to sit at the non-aircon area, u can start ordering now'. so my family choose the non-aircon one, got fan and quite some nice tree to look at. its also quite cooling la. then eat finish liao, walk off, those ppl who queue befor us is still waiting while we finished eating a good meal in a good environment. issint singaporean strange? tha aircon and non aircon is no much diff la seriously, and because of the aircon they waited at the non aircon place... =.= in the end they spend more time in waiting then eating. u noe the waiting place is so stuffy and crowded... and the non aircon place to eat is like so cooling... stupid ppl sia...
drinking my HL strawberry milk now... YUMMY!
Saturday, September 8, 2007
i spraine my left ankle again...
guess wad? i did it again. suppose to meet amin, germain, syak at 8 in sch. since i got a habit to be alittle late, i made the effort to reach alittle early this time.. but i got so tired, that i slept on the bus72. suppose to stop at blkA there cos nearer, but end up the bus captain wake me up at yck station. i too jangjiong then take my laptop and bag and run la, but my left leg totally numb so i fell to the ground, and that spraine my leg once. then i tried to stand up but lose my balance (still sleepy head) then fell and sprain the 2nd time. both time on my left leg. unlucky...
went to drama t 1000. so damn fun. miss drama sooo much and the peepz there... o0o0o0o0o0o.. i got to try to act as a angry father, not too bad i think...haha.. then...... move on to imh.. i was like sleeping there.. hahaa... laopa acctually treated all of us to pepper lunch cos of chu yuan's bd HOHOHO... too tired. tml still going interview. shall stop blogging here.. bb
went to drama t 1000. so damn fun. miss drama sooo much and the peepz there... o0o0o0o0o0o.. i got to try to act as a angry father, not too bad i think...haha.. then...... move on to imh.. i was like sleeping there.. hahaa... laopa acctually treated all of us to pepper lunch cos of chu yuan's bd HOHOHO... too tired. tml still going interview. shall stop blogging here.. bb
Friday, September 7, 2007
slacking day
WOOOOO
wake up by a morning call from mum, asking me to go help dad at the work place. first thing that comes to my mind is SHIT I SHOULDNT PICK UP THE PHONE! but nvm... went to help cos dad alone wad... k, now the intresting thing. i went to this noodle stall (know those ppl well one la), then i ordered a $2.50 wantan mee.. usually is $2 la, i order for more mee... then i go back to my stall. few min later, the deliver the mee to my dad's stall. WHA KAO! that freaking plate of mee is like $5 worth la! like u buy 2 plates of$2.50 one and put together. the noodle is like oe whole mountian. think is because they know is i eat one, then give the amount to feed pig. =,= cant finish at all. squeeze as much as i can into my stomach but still onli manage to eat half of the noodle onli. the uncle who come and take away the plates still ask still don wan to eat arr? i was like i eat finish liao. cos i eat more then half of it already but still look as if i havent eat de amount la... -_
k, tats all for work. after my work, i went home and bath then go to dragon's house. damn freaking fun. haha.... went there to sleep, slack, play, sing, drink, eat. damn shiok. wad a slacking day. its a day where our gang meet up and just slack.
k la. go rest. meeting amin at 8am tml to practice salsa hiphop with germaine and syak.
wake up by a morning call from mum, asking me to go help dad at the work place. first thing that comes to my mind is SHIT I SHOULDNT PICK UP THE PHONE! but nvm... went to help cos dad alone wad... k, now the intresting thing. i went to this noodle stall (know those ppl well one la), then i ordered a $2.50 wantan mee.. usually is $2 la, i order for more mee... then i go back to my stall. few min later, the deliver the mee to my dad's stall. WHA KAO! that freaking plate of mee is like $5 worth la! like u buy 2 plates of$2.50 one and put together. the noodle is like oe whole mountian. think is because they know is i eat one, then give the amount to feed pig. =,= cant finish at all. squeeze as much as i can into my stomach but still onli manage to eat half of the noodle onli. the uncle who come and take away the plates still ask still don wan to eat arr? i was like i eat finish liao. cos i eat more then half of it already but still look as if i havent eat de amount la... -_
k, tats all for work. after my work, i went home and bath then go to dragon's house. damn freaking fun. haha.... went there to sleep, slack, play, sing, drink, eat. damn shiok. wad a slacking day. its a day where our gang meet up and just slack.
k la. go rest. meeting amin at 8am tml to practice salsa hiphop with germaine and syak.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
jitterbug day
YAWN!!!
cos yesterday was so tired, i slept until 1125 until im woke up by amin's unexpected morning call.. so with that call i got, we decided to meet at 1645 at bugis to accopany him eat KFC. haha. reach city hall at 1730 to change and answer call for mother nature and all those... then wait for treasa they all. at 1820 all of us reached city hall mrt station who are the preety ladies treasa, daphne, yiyan, jess, and the hunks, dex, amin and me of course.. with the 7 of us... we depart towards jitterbug...
reach there, fill up some form... the there is this coloum asking for our dance experience.. in which styles and how long.. then i tick jazz, cos SA wad... but then, how many year..erm.. 4mths how to write? so we ask the person and in the end, me and amin wrote 1/3year. haha.
then......we start doing warm up by ourselves. i was like aaaaa... ooo....ouch... ahhh... all the way cos i got mussle ache every where..
then the audition starts. they jump straight to across the floor. did sth like battement variation, but alittle bit different. so abit confusing for me cos like used to doing the one peter teach. so.. then they did six-step-pirouttes-turn and je-tay(the split jump la... known as da-tiao in chinese). after that they threw us a 8 eights cheoro to the song 'you can't stop the beat'. love the music like shit man, but auditioning in groups of 4(for my group is number 18-21 which is jess, me, amin, dex) and dance the choero. but after the 8 eights, we need to improm 4 eights. O.o when dancing the improm part got a few point of time where i blank.. haha got this one part i donno why i slide to the floor then i doing nth there. super cock. LOL. the the 4 of us is like runing from one corner of the room to another corner.. going aroung... spin here spin there, chaines here je-tay there, split here, fly there, locking here, salsa there, sexy here, cramping there.. like donno like wad. haha..
we need to dance 2 time, cos need switch row wad.. first time 18 and 19 stand infront then 20 and 21 stand behind. then we dance finish 1st time onli the judges ask, ur tired? i was like 'ya.. *pant*pant*...' then dance the 2nd, energy critical liao... come of the room, middle back starts to pain.. pain like donno wad... in the end i was call for a 'call back' with another 3 gals cos they unsure of puting us through or not... so they wan to see the real us, and like wad we know. so since i tick jazz, i like just dance out everything i know and learned from peter(who is standing at one corner) and i started at the right side of the room... all the other 3 gals was staying at their place there, then onli me the cock, go spin and the jetay in front of them and loved to the left side of the room... then donno wad to do then just dance out all the choero tat peter teach.. then ahh!! my back... then just dance until they say stop then go out liao.. in the end, i was selected. O.O was quite shocked and unbelievable.. in the end me, amin, dex made it through with anothe 6 ppl whom i donno.. haiz... if i take it up, will be about $100 per mth, 8 classes per week min... need to think it over.. and over.. and over..
haiz.... time to go rest liao.. tml got dance again. with the condition of my back, i think tml i cannot do baby lift liao...
still missing HL strawberry milk. no time go buy... and i finishing my HL chocolate milk soo la...
ITS BEEN LIKE 2WK SINCE I LAST ATE PRATA!!!! CRAVING FOR PRATA!!!
cos yesterday was so tired, i slept until 1125 until im woke up by amin's unexpected morning call.. so with that call i got, we decided to meet at 1645 at bugis to accopany him eat KFC. haha. reach city hall at 1730 to change and answer call for mother nature and all those... then wait for treasa they all. at 1820 all of us reached city hall mrt station who are the preety ladies treasa, daphne, yiyan, jess, and the hunks, dex, amin and me of course.. with the 7 of us... we depart towards jitterbug...
reach there, fill up some form... the there is this coloum asking for our dance experience.. in which styles and how long.. then i tick jazz, cos SA wad... but then, how many year..erm.. 4mths how to write? so we ask the person and in the end, me and amin wrote 1/3year. haha.
then......we start doing warm up by ourselves. i was like aaaaa... ooo....ouch... ahhh... all the way cos i got mussle ache every where..
then the audition starts. they jump straight to across the floor. did sth like battement variation, but alittle bit different. so abit confusing for me cos like used to doing the one peter teach. so.. then they did six-step-pirouttes-turn and je-tay(the split jump la... known as da-tiao in chinese). after that they threw us a 8 eights cheoro to the song 'you can't stop the beat'. love the music like shit man, but auditioning in groups of 4(for my group is number 18-21 which is jess, me, amin, dex) and dance the choero. but after the 8 eights, we need to improm 4 eights. O.o when dancing the improm part got a few point of time where i blank.. haha got this one part i donno why i slide to the floor then i doing nth there. super cock. LOL. the the 4 of us is like runing from one corner of the room to another corner.. going aroung... spin here spin there, chaines here je-tay there, split here, fly there, locking here, salsa there, sexy here, cramping there.. like donno like wad. haha..
we need to dance 2 time, cos need switch row wad.. first time 18 and 19 stand infront then 20 and 21 stand behind. then we dance finish 1st time onli the judges ask, ur tired? i was like 'ya.. *pant*pant*...' then dance the 2nd, energy critical liao... come of the room, middle back starts to pain.. pain like donno wad... in the end i was call for a 'call back' with another 3 gals cos they unsure of puting us through or not... so they wan to see the real us, and like wad we know. so since i tick jazz, i like just dance out everything i know and learned from peter(who is standing at one corner) and i started at the right side of the room... all the other 3 gals was staying at their place there, then onli me the cock, go spin and the jetay in front of them and loved to the left side of the room... then donno wad to do then just dance out all the choero tat peter teach.. then ahh!! my back... then just dance until they say stop then go out liao.. in the end, i was selected. O.O was quite shocked and unbelievable.. in the end me, amin, dex made it through with anothe 6 ppl whom i donno.. haiz... if i take it up, will be about $100 per mth, 8 classes per week min... need to think it over.. and over.. and over..
haiz.... time to go rest liao.. tml got dance again. with the condition of my back, i think tml i cannot do baby lift liao...
still missing HL strawberry milk. no time go buy... and i finishing my HL chocolate milk soo la...
ITS BEEN LIKE 2WK SINCE I LAST ATE PRATA!!!! CRAVING FOR PRATA!!!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
energy zero...
no more energy liao. i spending my last bits of energy into blogging, which is the energy i got from my friend rice and a cup of HL chocolate milk(i finished the bottle of strawberry one liao). haiz....
just now talked to peter about my stupid back... he ask me drink milk, i say i got drink. then he say drink more milk, then i say i drink alot already!! then he say, the maybe u drink too much milk, then ur back like this. but i think hor, realli maybe i drink too much milk you know... is like i can finish 1 whole liter of milk in 1/2 a day... erm..... okay, lets talk about something else...
got dance practice today...
supposed to meet up amin and germaine to practice salsa hiphop at 3, but germaine got held back with sth so we push it back to 4, then went to blkE lvl 3 to practice... but when we reach there germaine wasnt there yet, so instead of doing the whole slasa hiphop, me and amin practice our 'shines' for salsa hiphop(so in love with salsa hiphop) and our locking cheoro 'untouchable' (the action that zelia do realli keeps going round and round in my head... *untouchable~~~*)..
haha.. then soon, we moved on to outside the studio there, and practiced along the pathway.. then when we first started dancing hor, got this uncle walk pass, then keep staring at me and germaine... then i look at him, then he look at me back, then i smile at him la like the hello-we-are-practicing-dance-and-we-don-bite way, then he smile at me back... then i was like blur dao... but then he still keep smiling, then he walk away... after a while i find him damn gay... but never mind, i got a hot chick infront of me, my partner germaineXD
partnering with germaine is such a fun experience.. HOHOHO.. dough we do have some smalll 'fights' going on while dancing some times... things will work well for the both of us, at least in my point of view la... she not scared of breaking my bone, im confidentin not breaking her bone, that dosent mean wil will start wacking each others bone arr... just that feel very comfortable with her. cos that time partner with hui fang, she veri super ultra blatra eltra light! quite scared to break her bones... realli.... sorri hui fang.....
okay, so dance practice offically starts at 1830, but from 1600 - 1800, i dance until i veri tired liao... so..
before dance practice already die
dance practice starts, DIE
do stretching, DIEE
do crunches, DIE X5
do battlments(think its spelled this way), DIE X7 (cos totally no strength liao, and my back pain)
so across the floor, not too bad lo... learn a new one today. quite fun, but hard to do it... THEN HOR, KAO, MY LAST ACTION DO WRONGLY THEN I SAY THE WORD SHIT OUT SO LOUD LA! so paisay....
haiz....
then move on to choero, peter wan to see within, hello & salsa hiphop... out of these 3 i onli dancing out salsa hiphop... gave in my best but not up to peter expection... YET! will try harder! haha BIG BIG thank you to rene for helping me and ger today... and ofcourse zelia and alison la... teaching us so much.. grr.... need to practice more...
then my piroette lvl 1-9 arr.. WHA LAO AAA..... KAA NAA SAI SIA!!! after all 9 lvl i like panting like horse tat ran 500907592078942370481KM la.... -.- realli realli need to drill it... onli did a double turn for lvl 3.... tried to do once for lvl 5, but the become veri blur on wad to do.. need to practice more...
waa.......
k la... i go rest liao.. most prob going for the dance audition tml... to see how the outside audition looks like... HOHOHO... ofcourse need to see mum giving the green light at my house doorstep or not la... =.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
so miss my HL strawberry milk and my roti prata.....
just now talked to peter about my stupid back... he ask me drink milk, i say i got drink. then he say drink more milk, then i say i drink alot already!! then he say, the maybe u drink too much milk, then ur back like this. but i think hor, realli maybe i drink too much milk you know... is like i can finish 1 whole liter of milk in 1/2 a day... erm..... okay, lets talk about something else...
got dance practice today...
supposed to meet up amin and germaine to practice salsa hiphop at 3, but germaine got held back with sth so we push it back to 4, then went to blkE lvl 3 to practice... but when we reach there germaine wasnt there yet, so instead of doing the whole slasa hiphop, me and amin practice our 'shines' for salsa hiphop(so in love with salsa hiphop) and our locking cheoro 'untouchable' (the action that zelia do realli keeps going round and round in my head... *untouchable~~~*)..
haha.. then soon, we moved on to outside the studio there, and practiced along the pathway.. then when we first started dancing hor, got this uncle walk pass, then keep staring at me and germaine... then i look at him, then he look at me back, then i smile at him la like the hello-we-are-practicing-dance-and-we-don-bite way, then he smile at me back... then i was like blur dao... but then he still keep smiling, then he walk away... after a while i find him damn gay... but never mind, i got a hot chick infront of me, my partner germaineXD
partnering with germaine is such a fun experience.. HOHOHO.. dough we do have some smalll 'fights' going on while dancing some times... things will work well for the both of us, at least in my point of view la... she not scared of breaking my bone, im confidentin not breaking her bone, that dosent mean wil will start wacking each others bone arr... just that feel very comfortable with her. cos that time partner with hui fang, she veri super ultra blatra eltra light! quite scared to break her bones... realli.... sorri hui fang.....
okay, so dance practice offically starts at 1830, but from 1600 - 1800, i dance until i veri tired liao... so..
before dance practice already die
dance practice starts, DIE
do stretching, DIEE
do crunches, DIE X5
do battlments(think its spelled this way), DIE X7 (cos totally no strength liao, and my back pain)
so across the floor, not too bad lo... learn a new one today. quite fun, but hard to do it... THEN HOR, KAO, MY LAST ACTION DO WRONGLY THEN I SAY THE WORD SHIT OUT SO LOUD LA! so paisay....
haiz....
then move on to choero, peter wan to see within, hello & salsa hiphop... out of these 3 i onli dancing out salsa hiphop... gave in my best but not up to peter expection... YET! will try harder! haha BIG BIG thank you to rene for helping me and ger today... and ofcourse zelia and alison la... teaching us so much.. grr.... need to practice more...
then my piroette lvl 1-9 arr.. WHA LAO AAA..... KAA NAA SAI SIA!!! after all 9 lvl i like panting like horse tat ran 500907592078942370481KM la.... -.- realli realli need to drill it... onli did a double turn for lvl 3.... tried to do once for lvl 5, but the become veri blur on wad to do.. need to practice more...
waa.......
k la... i go rest liao.. most prob going for the dance audition tml... to see how the outside audition looks like... HOHOHO... ofcourse need to see mum giving the green light at my house doorstep or not la... =.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
so miss my HL strawberry milk and my roti prata.....
Monday, September 3, 2007
monday
a normal monday...
haha, went for dance practice from 10 - 4. managed to get the whole salsa hip hop steps down.. or i should say most la. got some parts still not used to it yet.. salsa hiphop is so damn fun la.. HOHOHOHO. the very good thing about today will be, my ball is save XD
after the dance practice veri guai. went home. but cos zelia was talking about yorguht( or issist spelt this way) during practice, make my mouth veri itchy. in the end, aiya... go cheers buy la... the brought a mixed fruit one DAMN NICE!!! meiji one is still as best as ever. HOHOHO tml practicing with germaine again at 3, shall blog more tml =D
haha, went for dance practice from 10 - 4. managed to get the whole salsa hip hop steps down.. or i should say most la. got some parts still not used to it yet.. salsa hiphop is so damn fun la.. HOHOHOHO. the very good thing about today will be, my ball is save XD
after the dance practice veri guai. went home. but cos zelia was talking about yorguht( or issist spelt this way) during practice, make my mouth veri itchy. in the end, aiya... go cheers buy la... the brought a mixed fruit one DAMN NICE!!! meiji one is still as best as ever. HOHOHO tml practicing with germaine again at 3, shall blog more tml =D
Saturday, September 1, 2007
swollen hand
my right hand is so cute now... its used to be fat, now its fatter. ITS SWOLLEN! -.- so freaking fat and pain.. hope it get better before monday man... think i over used it during thurs practice.
talking about thurs practice, it was such a WONDERFUL experience... kanna wack at my balls not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES! first is by our dear amin, then is germaine the cutie, then is the stupid me... -,- but i don blame amin and ger cos its realli an accident... haiz.... hope still can give birth sia.
got quite freaking angry with my family.. got quite a small fight with my mum and sis to go to YCS s.d. is like its not totally my fault to not go cover your shift at dad's work place! i know u have a back pain but i agreed others to be their facil! and don give me that ****ing attitude when i tries to explaine to u. and im now searching for jobs, again. wan me to work to feed my self? i can. but wan me to work and quit stage art? **** OFF!!!! i said i don mind having work, ycs, drama, dance, study cos im doing the thing i like. so i don mind being tired if i can dance and drama. but guess wad my mum reply?? 'i mind'. u wan me to have one less comitment and thats y i quited job with u comforming that u can feed me and buy me a laptop. now u say wan me to fed myself im okay, im OKAY with any thing ur wan. but DON DON DON DON DON ASK ME TO QUIT STAGE ART! if u don wan me to be 'tired', issint it a more easier way to giv me YOUR support, which is what i need, rather then pulling me down?! GRRR!!! WHY AM I STILL SO STRESS AFTER EXAM?!?!?!?! and guess wad? chuyuan(hope i spell correctly) say that she (or apple i donno who) proposed for me to dance for youthachivers 1year anniversary party, guess its time to sabo alfred and zishan they all. =D drag them down and we dance some disco type stupid dance XD (imagine alfred doing that make me laugh liao)
my brain is like overloading with thoughts now adays. my that useless full time advisor is like doing nothing... cann be trusted.. HAIZ X5
suppose to go to dragon house for prayer tonite one.. but staied at home instead to please my mum... like just going down and down some more... im getting closer to my ups i hope..
talking about thurs practice, it was such a WONDERFUL experience... kanna wack at my balls not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES! first is by our dear amin, then is germaine the cutie, then is the stupid me... -,- but i don blame amin and ger cos its realli an accident... haiz.... hope still can give birth sia.
got quite freaking angry with my family.. got quite a small fight with my mum and sis to go to YCS s.d. is like its not totally my fault to not go cover your shift at dad's work place! i know u have a back pain but i agreed others to be their facil! and don give me that ****ing attitude when i tries to explaine to u. and im now searching for jobs, again. wan me to work to feed my self? i can. but wan me to work and quit stage art? **** OFF!!!! i said i don mind having work, ycs, drama, dance, study cos im doing the thing i like. so i don mind being tired if i can dance and drama. but guess wad my mum reply?? 'i mind'. u wan me to have one less comitment and thats y i quited job with u comforming that u can feed me and buy me a laptop. now u say wan me to fed myself im okay, im OKAY with any thing ur wan. but DON DON DON DON DON ASK ME TO QUIT STAGE ART! if u don wan me to be 'tired', issint it a more easier way to giv me YOUR support, which is what i need, rather then pulling me down?! GRRR!!! WHY AM I STILL SO STRESS AFTER EXAM?!?!?!?! and guess wad? chuyuan(hope i spell correctly) say that she (or apple i donno who) proposed for me to dance for youthachivers 1year anniversary party, guess its time to sabo alfred and zishan they all. =D drag them down and we dance some disco type stupid dance XD (imagine alfred doing that make me laugh liao)
my brain is like overloading with thoughts now adays. my that useless full time advisor is like doing nothing... cann be trusted.. HAIZ X5
suppose to go to dragon house for prayer tonite one.. but staied at home instead to please my mum... like just going down and down some more... im getting closer to my ups i hope..
Thursday, August 30, 2007
i got my life back!!
exam is finally over!!! im freaking happy.. hahahaha.... at cheeka's house now, when dragon reach then we can start our mahjiong SHOWDOWN!!! MUA HA HA HA HA. the later going for dance.. =D i got a live! i got back my live! say goodbye to the no live days. no fun, do drama, no dance, NO LIVE!!!!! dragon should be here any moment. shall go off now =D
milkomania is still inside my body man..... gosh. should i go get another HL strawberry milk??
*p.s. DAMN that 7.11 don have any more already.. sad
milkomania is still inside my body man..... gosh. should i go get another HL strawberry milk??
*p.s. DAMN that 7.11 don have any more already.. sad
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
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